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In all honesty, I do not know why I love you so. Maybe I love you so unreasonably, because I know that I can never truly have you for myself, or give myself to you.

You had made so many promises to me, and to this day... I hope that they'd still be fulfilled somehow. But hope is a fickle friend. It fades fast.

We had grown up together, through the hot, sticky summers and its idyllic evenings, when dragonflies buzzed around and bumped into our faces.The papaya tree used to be laden with tempting, juicy offerings which the local boys often stole... ripe. Luscious.

We laughed through the wild, rainy, muddy monsoons. Sitting together with you in that lonely little room on the roof, we used to watch the dark, heavy rain clouds as they rolled across the skies. Grumbling and rumbling they passed over us and in an unexpected moment, the first big drop of warm monsoon rain used to land on our upturned faces. The scent of wet earth... longing. Lustful.

Autumn used to awaken a dull pain, stemming from somewhere deep within my heart. A fear of loss, as the green trees lost their youth and shed their leaves... yellow. Forsaken.

Winter was always so dreary without you. No colour in the trees, no flowers... grey. Lifeless.

I used to wonder if you knew how I felt about you, now that we had reached the end of our childhood. I'd thought; imagined, that you have always known my heart. But I was so blind... reckless affection can easily be confused with intimacy.

You'd had devoted yourself to making it big in your life. You had plans, in which I had no role to play.

I managed to slip away unnoticed. By the time you had noticed my absence, I was far away... safe in the cocoon of my own broken dreams. In the years that went by, I built a fortress of my own... trading the romanticism in me for the mortar of resilience.

Now that I'm here with you today... face to face, in the town where our dreams were born and lost; I feel like wanting to search for them again, with you.

No matter how much I shutter myself from the forces of destiny, I could never steel myself against the warmth of your smile. I still feel butterflies in my stomach at a hint of your touch.

"It's a bad idea", I tell myself. But you crush all logic, defy all reason, as you press your lips to mine.

Far away in the glimmer of stars in the inky old night sky, I think I can see my lost dreams again.

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In all honesty, I do not know why I love you so. Maybe I love you so unreasonably, because I know that I can never truly have you for myself, or give myself to you.

You had made so many promises to me, and to this day... I hope that they'd still be fulfilled somehow. But hope is a fickle friend. It fades fast.

We had grown up together, through the hot, sticky summers and its idyllic evenings, when dragonflies buzzed around and bumped into our faces.The papaya tree used to be laden with tempting, juicy offerings which the local boys often stole... ripe. Luscious.

We laughed through the wild, rainy, muddy monsoons. Sitting together with you in that lonely little room on the roof, we used to watch the dark, heavy rain clouds as they rolled across the skies. Grumbling and rumbling they passed over us and in an unexpected moment, the first big drop of warm monsoon rain used to land on our upturned faces. The scent of wet earth... longing. Lustful.

Autumn used to awaken a dull pain, stemming from somewhere deep within my heart. A fear of loss, as the green trees lost their youth and shed their leaves... yellow. Forsaken.

Winter was always so dreary without you. No colour in the trees, no flowers... grey. Lifeless.

I used to wonder if you knew how I felt about you, now that we had reached the end of our childhood. I'd thought; imagined, that you have always known my heart. But I was so blind... reckless affection can easily be confused with intimacy.

You'd had devoted yourself to making it big in your life. You had plans, in which I had no role to play.

I managed to slip away unnoticed. By the time you had noticed my absence, I was far away... safe in the cocoon of my own broken dreams. In the years that went by, I built a fortress of my own... trading the romanticism in me for the mortar of resilience.

Now that I'm here with you today... face to face, in the town where our dreams were born and lost; I feel like wanting to search for them again, with you.

No matter how much I shutter myself from the forces of destiny, I could never steel myself against the warmth of your smile. I still feel butterflies in my stomach at a hint of your touch.

"It's a bad idea", I tell myself. But you crush all logic, defy all reason, as you press your lips to mine.

Far away in the glimmer of stars in the inky old night sky, I think I can see my lost dreams again.