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Rueby In reply to natersal [2014-09-24 22:21:36 +0000 UTC]

-gets dizzy- Y-y-yessssss! I will keep providing feels- I hope!

FINALLY someone who actually got what I was trying to get at, I showed dad that and he was like "what's that? Is he falling in the mud?" and I felt like ".....dad, even sky would have been a better description-"

But, yes, it's abit similar to that scene Kaneki was in before Rize appeared and pressed her rack against his back. Honestly it ended up looking like a manga panel even tho I didn't want it to. . .but this can be a part of my fanfic now that I think of it (adds that scene later).

Dammit Kaneki? Why do you do this to us and Tsukiyama? I don't even. . . 
He probably broke down long before he even faced Kaneki. I mean seriously look how much of a mess he was in already.
Kaneki is foolish, I blame Touka for all that. It's all Touka's fault now. (I don't know how I reached that conclusion)

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natersal In reply to Rueby [2014-09-25 00:46:33 +0000 UTC]

HAHAH RIZE RIZE, presenting rack against people's back. LOL

He doesn't look like he's falling in the mud! Though in despair, it might as well be mud if KANEKI doesn't come back! Well, Tsyama being a mess even before he faced Kaneki. It's like he has been having sleepless crying nights and he looks like he's in just a plain shirt. OH TSUKIYAMA. MY HEART GOES tremolo when I see how much Kaneki has affected you. Well, Tsukiyama IS A DRAMA KING so a little overacting should be expected but not... not to the point of what Tsukiyama has become!

DON'T LEAVE KANEKI!

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Rueby In reply to natersal [2014-09-25 03:39:07 +0000 UTC]

That was a sample of my sick rhymes. #drumroll

I don't know how dad thought it was mud. . . but okay? I mean he's not even familiar with manga etc. . . It won't be mud, but I decided to add that scene to my fanfic. If I ever finish it -sigh-

I imagine him staying by Kaneki's side all the time and leaving only for necessities. It kinda hurts. Our little social butterfly is not a butterfly anymore? (it's not like he has any more friends to socialize with anyway). He needs more love I swear. He's so damn misunderstood. -curls up- Kaneki yunolisten

I'm trying to find the art where Kaneki kissed Tsukiyama when he asked him not to go and actually kinda stayed WHY CAN'T I FIND IT- was it on tumblr or was it on pixiv-- what is thiiiiiissssssssssssss -flips table- this hurts!

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natersal In reply to Rueby [2014-09-25 04:38:45 +0000 UTC]

HAHA I love and hate him, I cry and laugh when I think about them. Tsukiyama doesn't have friends so he can't be a social butterfly. ONLY KANEKI UNDERSTANDS his hobbies, his loneliness. Despite betraying Kaneki twice, Kaneki accepts him even not fully because Kaneki understands the loneliness and likes Tsukiyama's company. Tsukiyama wanted to find a friend in Rize but their personalities don't click (binge eater vs selective gourmet eater) even if their reading hobby is the same. Kaneki has Hide but Tsukiyama has NO ONE. 


That's the reason why I don't like Tumblr. Can't organize favs!

But I think I have seen that pic already. Awww it just melts my iced mocchiato heart.

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Rueby In reply to natersal [2014-09-25 10:06:05 +0000 UTC]

Wait- hate who-
It has become a ship that physically hurts me in ways that I didn't think were possible. . . just by shipping them. I was drawing like an hour ago and it seems my shit has deteriorated either that or I have finally exhausted my creative capacity for the month. . . .(aka Artist block) GOD WHY.
I just want them both to be happy together, why is it so much to ask for?

Well yeah, tumblr is hella confusing for me still. . . 

It actually broke my heart EVEN MORE, because for example if he left afterwards, then it's just as bad. What if he left to troll Tsukiyama but didn't actually go YOLO or 'save' anyone?

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natersal In reply to Rueby [2014-09-26 17:46:33 +0000 UTC]

I always have artist block but oh no, when I actually need to do something important like homework or study for an exam, I get the urge to clean, to cook, to draw! Its like its so weird and annoying!

Haha so Kaneki just hanged around in an arcade all night and was like, the hell with CCG and their extermination of ghouls tonight. Aint my problem.

Lol and continues playing arcade games and Tsukiyama is still moping on the rooftop. Hahahah

Id rather it Kaneki just trolling you know!

I know they just need to be happy together. What do you think Kaneki's opinion is on liking another guy? Im sure he though of Hide as his bestfriend but to have something more than friendship with a guy do you think he will have a hard time coping?

Well then again he is a lit major so his views should pretty much be open right?

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Rueby In reply to natersal [2014-09-26 18:17:56 +0000 UTC]

Bah, I'm exactly the same, when I feel I got something important to do, I feel like my inspiration got a motivational boost to NOT do the important thing and instead go draw. Heck before my exam I used to draw all sorts of shit...

Omg that's awesome, I imagine it getting late at some point and Kaneki got a gamer rage moment (wat) and broke one of the arcade machines (cause he's so stronk). Then later on that night he returns to the rooftop to find Tsukiyama moping on the floor still?

Shuu will probably get his drama mode on . . . Kaneki can be a loving (mother?) and hold Tsukiyama abit; maybe he felt guilty. But it all has a purpose! What if while moping Tsukiyama came to the conclusion that he'd be hella lonely if he ate Kaneki. Because you don't know how important a thing is until you lose it. . . . 

It'd be cruel, but as long as he comes back idc xD

Hmmm I think normal Kaneki would be flustered as usual and perhaps find it hard to wrap his mind around it and be like 'why me?' then cope with it later (sounds like your generic yaoi crap) hmmmm, Shirokane wouldn't care much I think.

Probably, think it'd be faster to get over the whole thing and accept Shuu as the one and only waifu.

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natersal In reply to Rueby [2014-09-26 23:57:58 +0000 UTC]

Procrastination queens at its finest! HAHAHA I can't even cook lol what the fuck was I saying cooking. mMre like microwaving. HAHHA

Hahah look tat white haired boy just beat the game... he LITERALLY BEAT UP THE MACHINE. hahah
I don't know if Kaneki even goes to arcade. I mean he look like he would rather stay at home and read a good book but Hide might be actually into games and arcades and probably asked him to hang out with him in an arcade before?

Hahah I imagine Shuu crying and hugging Kaneki's feet. WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME KANEKI-KUN. DO you actually want to see me so broken and devastated? DO you enjoy seeing me in pain? And Kaneki gets to think silently in his head... YES. OMOOMO   I like where this is going hahha

Hmm I guess shirokane is badass. He did warn Tsukiyama that he will not hesitate to kill Tsukiyama if he does anything unnecessary. I mean husbando is threatening the waifu! hahah If you cheat on me, you will not like the consequence. 

Its funny too how Tsukiyama was presenting himself wanting to be a part of the house/family with Hinami as a kid I guess. He's like a commuter wife who has to come to his husband's house and cook, clean, pleasure, take care of kids and then goes back home. hahah Hinami and Kaneki is not that far apart in age. well its 5 years and in a few more years tsukiyama will see her as a THREAT. DUN DUN DUUUUUUN

Tsukiyama be shoving her like, goodbye hetersexuality hello kanekisexuality. HAHHAHAA
I wish there was  a .gif of that. HAHHA

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Rueby In reply to natersal [2014-09-27 11:03:08 +0000 UTC]

It's alright, welcome to the club. Dad limits me down to what I can cook, I mean the 'biggest' thing I probably ever 'cooked' was pancakes (yep it's a big thing here LOL). Dad still has this fear that I might burn myself and the whole house down. Even though I'm already so old <_< he goes like "OMG DON'T GO NEAR THE STOVE"

If he can't win, no one can. (Better kiss that arcade machine goodbye) I don't know I imagine a more like. . . abandoned gaming centre? What do they call it? Ugh. With abandoned gaming machines (and surprisingly some power). He'd probably feel guilty at some point but naaaah.

He doesn't strike me as the one who'd like arcade games, but I think after all that, some new hobbies are bound to be developed. I just imagined Kaneki and Tsukiyama playing arcade games together. God. What if Tsukiyama was awesome at arcade games and brought Kaneki one of those stuffed plushies that you get as prizes from handing in those silly tickets? WHAT IF THEY GO TO A CARNIVAL TOGETHER- Oh god, so many ideas. You know what? We should totally roleplay this shit. That's it. -shakes fist-

Hmmm Kaneki would most likely feel guilty, yet not enough to regret his actions? 

If you cheat on me, you won't live to cheat another day. Kiss that Arima goodbye, Shuu, you ain't seeing him agen. (Or anything for that matter) xD

Oh god, don't go there. I absolutely had this relationship where they take care of a kid out of a past roleplay experience. Though Hinami is cute. . . calling Tsukiyama 'flower man'.  . . . and he seemed so . . . 'you little shit'-face when she said it. xD

GOODBYE MY LOVER GOODBYE MY FRIEND-- irrelevant crap.

I suck at making/editing gifs, despite the actual fact that I did make two crack gifs of 'I'mma firin' ma lazer' crap. But these were literal hells. I don't wanna go there again. . . . xD

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natersal In reply to Rueby [2014-09-29 00:42:39 +0000 UTC]

Hhaha he's begging you to don't go near the stove I will end up cleaning for all your mess!

I remember when I tried to make cream puffs before... Guess what? TSUKIYAMA GOT THEM!
Which is awesome because I can claim a lot of my stuff went to Tsukiyama hahahahah

OH OH IS THIS A DATE IDEA WE ARE TALKING ABOUT???
Shuuneki on a date in a carnival or a matsuri! Oh damn that idea of Tsukiyama winning Kaneki a stuff toy. And Kaneki being the tsundere that he is, pretends to hate it and punch it but actually picked it up later (when nobody was watching) and when tsukiyama visits him sometime he saw the same toy in the room and Kaneki is hugging it.
OMO OMO OMOOOOO

That is so beautiful!

Hahah so what really is your opinion on Hinami and Tsukiyama's relationship? I think tsukiyama finds Hinami adorable and also a ticket into Kaneki's heart and bed. Its like a stepdad trying to be close to his husband's daughter tactic. Its also a way of showing Kaneki how kind, trustworthy he is by being nice to Kaneki's pet. I think Kaneki treats Hinami like his daughter/sister and is very protective of her because he is blaming himself for not protecting Hinami's mom. 

GOODBYE MY LOVER GOODBYE MY FRIEND???? Are perhaps singing this---> www.youtube.com/watch?v=vOIMcb… or not?

I don't know how they do gifs nowadays from anime episodes. I think they have to download the episode/scene and somehow make it into a gif that actually shows up in tumblr. I think there is a specific size for that. and im like... aint no bot got time for dat. HAHAH
He remember I know coding but I am laazzzzzzzyyyyyyyyy and I probably forgot half the shit I learned. hahaha

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Rueby In reply to natersal [2014-09-29 03:24:35 +0000 UTC]

Well, I never cooked something that went to the trash (perhaps burnt some popcorn and that went to the trash) . . . 

THIS. NEEDS. TO. HAPPEN. -intensifies-
What if Kaneki couldn't sleep without it? What if it had Tsukiyama's scent on it (oh Kaneki didn't go there but you know that sweet soothing scent--?) "It's not like I love it or anything...(baka!!)" They can also go on a ride in the Ferris wheel! Perhaps cuddle and enjoy the view. Omg. Imagine Kaneki being all awkward like (awkwardly tries to get away then surrenders). FFFFF MY HEART IS EXPLODING WITH FLUFFY FEELS!!!!!!---

Uhm she's a way to get to Kaneki's heart. . . I guess? I don't know honestly, I don't think Tsukiyama has anything against or towards her. I think she's a good source of happiness for Kaneki, so he'd probably enjoy having her around every now and then BUT not all the time. I mean it'd take away from HIS time. You don't want a jelly Tsukiyama in the house.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=tNqUhk…

Actually this song, but just that part of 'goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend'

It's so complicated. . . boggles my mind. Along with video-making. 

I know abit of coding but not enough to even do anything, like you, I get lazy and sidetracked by drawing. Someone needs to take that tablet away from me so I can chillato.

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natersal In reply to Rueby [2014-09-29 20:35:28 +0000 UTC]

OH that song! That's why the lyrics sounds familiar!

KOKORO BROKORO moments once again.

This THIS DATE IS A MUST. So let's say hinami wanted to go to a carnival so Tsukiyama bought tickets. Hinami got sick and said since they already bought the tickets, Big brother Kaneki and flower man should go instead and buy her a souvenir or something. Kaneki was trying to get one of the stuff toy but then he sucks at it so tsukiyama got him one instead. Eventually, Kaneki got a small stuff toy for Hinami and Tsukiyama got him a HUGE bunny/teddybear.

Let's say tsukiyama has been carrying the stuff toy all around the carnival and he was hugging it because Kaneki didn't want to carry the huge stupid toy cause it was embarrassing. Tsukiyama kept on telling Kaneki to sit beside him on the ferris wheel but he was shy so Tsukiyama just kept on hugging the stuff toy instead, biting its ear, making small voices for the doll, playing with the doll's hands gesturing for him to come closer. Kaneki actually got a little jealous of the stuff toy because insted of him sitting beside Tsukiyama, the damn toy was on the way! Here then comes the little love quarrel and Kaneki threw the stuff toy away and got mad at Tsukiyama and left. He later came back that night to pick it up though and it may be a littl dirty but it smells like Tsukiyama. A FEW DAYS LATER. Tsukiyama came by and saw the bear/bunny sitting on the chair beside Kaneki's bed and he just has the widest grin in his face.

ASDFGHJKL. FLUFFEH FLUFFEEEHHH

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Rueby In reply to natersal [2014-09-30 05:19:02 +0000 UTC]

INDEED IT IS.

Carnival dates are cute in almost every pairing out there.

(he sucks at it) xD

I've never been to a carnival before so I don't know what they can do, but I know there are these err minigames or whatever. Aiming games?? What if Tsukiyama stood behind Kaneki and guided his hands like 'your posture is lousy, try now' OMG. BEING SO CLOSE TO KANEKI'S DOLCE HAIR ETC. I imagine after 'succeeding' Kaneki would go tsundere and kinda shove him away (flustered alert) and stride quickly (somewhere??) while Tsukiyama gets the teddy and tries to keep up (well and obviously keeps up because Tsukiyama)

What if he was giving him the lonely puppy eyes? What if Kaneki was vulnerable when it came to such things? Nooo he can't throw it away, it'd lose all the dolce! 

FLUUUUUFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF -tears of joy-

I think Kaneki would throw something else perhaps, something that's not huggable and perhaps--- what if it's a locket? Or a pocket watch(antiques?)? Or hmm...tiny music box? A music box that produced a sweet sweet soothing melody? I imagine Tsukiyama would have been very hurt to be rejected like that. . . (MY FEELS, HOLD THEM PLEASE)

Perhaps he'd come back LATER that night and not find it there...(since Kaneki came and picked it up)? What if he'd listen to it whenever he felt sad/lonely or missed Tsukiyama? WHAT IF Tsukiyama always came through the window/balcony so he wouldn't alert the other people? Then he'd see that Kaneki fell asleep while holding it and the melody still played? 

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natersal In reply to Rueby [2014-09-30 18:20:16 +0000 UTC]

Hmm carnivals... well i went to a circus here and well back home I've been into fairs and stuff where there a lots of stalls and midnight markets but not really into a carnival. Like theme parks doesn't count right? I don't know it probably is but my mental image of carnival is different. I want clowns, freak shows with a circus.

OH SHIT THE MENTAL IMAGE IS SO STRONG. With his hand gestures, Tsukiyama puts his hands on his chest and says, "Allow me, Kaneki-kun to win you a prize. I am your sword after all. Yours to command."

ASDFGHJKL. And Kaneki is all Tsundere. This mental image of Kaneki being a Yandere to everyone else and only A Tsundere to Tsukiyama is KILLING ME> UHHH


OH A MUSIC BOX. I love music boxes. That will add an extra drama factor. i imagine the music box song to be Beethoven's Fur Elise. This one--> www.tunedteeth.com/12.mp3

OH GOODNESS. THIS IMAGE. ANd then sometimes he will come in and sit beside Kaneki. Somehow Kaneki knows in the morning because the bed sheets smells like Tsukiyama but other than that he doesn't have proof. One night Kaneki is having nightmares. I think after Jason's torture, he keeps on having nightmares and Tsukiyama just hugs him and he feels so secure.

I imagine Tsukiyama will throw some rocks or something on the window and let Juliet --AH I mean Kaneki open the window and Tsukiyama will go and snuggle with him. Just snuggle beside him all warm. And Kaneki didn't know when he allowed this but it just felt all comfortable to be hugged and Tsukiyama is well behaved at night promising to just lay there beside him and hug him. Sometimes kiss him but that's all. 

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Rueby In reply to natersal [2014-09-30 21:32:36 +0000 UTC]

Hmmm well yeah I just, don't know. Maybe Kaneki won't like freak shows, since you know? He doesn't feel so good about himself? And perhaps Shuu understands that too so they're in for the minigames and all that?

Oh boy, Flashyama is definitely attracting unnecessary attention haha. I just keep imagining him as this passionate (overly passionate) individual that can't comprehend the aspect of personal space in public. Perhaps he can get his freak on sometimes. Like using chances like adjusting Kaneki's stance to take a nice ol' sniff of Kaneki's dolce scent, and that shampoo....maybe press an affectionate kiss on the back of his head as a good luck charm (more like public harassment)?

I'm sorry. He's so out of character in my head.

THIS IS WHY I SHOULD NEVER WRITE FANFICS.

Hmm that one is sweet....tho I imagined something else. . . not sure what but more soothing . . . ? I mean this one is nice and all. I'm not sure. I'm just mad. xD Everytime I listen to this I imagine those music boxes with ballerinas spinning/dancing.

What if Tsukiyama had a hobby of making music boxes? But it's like a secret/guilty pleasure type of thing? What if there's a place in that tiny hidden room of his where he works on making them? Maybe he makes them only for Kaneki's eyes. Imagine that one night Tsukiyama was so heartbroken he went to his little 'escape' of a place and cried his heart out? He worked so hard on it and Kaneki just threw it away.

Ah my heart aches already!

Come in the middle of the night, stroke Kaneki's hair and whisper soothing words to him. Drive these nightmares away. Kaneki would wake up in the morning knowing that he had a bad dream but can't remember the contents! Remembering a soothing familiar yet foreign voice calling him, but never seems to know, yet Tsukiyama's scent was always there! Somehow.

LOL

"KANKEI-KUN O WHERE ART THOU?!" I'm so done right now.

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