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i dunno why...i've kinda been in a daze lately..and i THINK i know why..

well i'm not scared of anything i can laugh in the face of death and danger but...when it comes to change or changing i get weak and numb i can't deal with it hate the feel of it and i don't like it i'm only scared of change...nothing else..my birthday is coming up..and i wish it wasn't because when i'm getting older things are changing and i feel it even when people don't see it and i get hurt by it cause i hate change SO much..i hate it..because bad stuff happens..and i don't want anything bad happening..

when i'm getting older...my life and everyone around me do too..and i don't like it i just want to STOP time where it's at and live happily and peaceful but i know i can't i don't like this at all

i can feel people changing around me but i'm always the same i don't mind being the same but it's just something that's REALLY hard for me to deal with..a lot of things are changing..and i'm kinda scared..and i don't say it out loud or tell people about this...therefore..i don't talk as much..not really hyper or spazy..and i go into a daze-numb-blank-zombie-like shell and i block it from other people to see it..i do it so much to the point where i just...don't see it myself..i'm not hurting much..it's not painful..it's hard..i can't really explain it..but anyway i just drew this because it's kinda of what i'm feeling..in a daze...

this is the base i used [link]

but that person edited it a little this is the real owner of it and the real one that she made [link]

but yeah you don't really have to tell me what you think this is just a way of letting out stuff that i won't be able to let out to like my sis or my family or something it's just something i realized

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i dunno why...i've kinda been in a daze lately..and i THINK i know why..

well i'm not scared of anything i can laugh in the face of death and danger but...when it comes to change or changing i get weak and numb i can't deal with it hate the feel of it and i don't like it i'm only scared of change...nothing else..my birthday is coming up..and i wish it wasn't because when i'm getting older things are changing and i feel it even when people don't see it and i get hurt by it cause i hate change SO much..i hate it..because bad stuff happens..and i don't want anything bad happening..

when i'm getting older...my life and everyone around me do too..and i don't like it i just want to STOP time where it's at and live happily and peaceful but i know i can't i don't like this at all

i can feel people changing around me but i'm always the same i don't mind being the same but it's just something that's REALLY hard for me to deal with..a lot of things are changing..and i'm kinda scared..and i don't say it out loud or tell people about this...therefore..i don't talk as much..not really hyper or spazy..and i go into a daze-numb-blank-zombie-like shell and i block it from other people to see it..i do it so much to the point where i just...don't see it myself..i'm not hurting much..it's not painful..it's hard..i can't really explain it..but anyway i just drew this because it's kinda of what i'm feeling..in a daze...

this is the base i used [link]

but that person edited it a little this is the real owner of it and the real one that she made [link]

but yeah you don't really have to tell me what you think this is just a way of letting out stuff that i won't be able to let out to like my sis or my family or something it's just something i realized