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"Fine, talk. See if I believe you." Gerard said, still having his back to me. How I ended up like this? I'd rather not go back to that. Just Carolyn, my horrible timing, and now here I was, once again trying to explain to him that it wasn't what he thought. I'm definitely never going to talk to her again, not if this is going to happen.

"You walked in when I was about to tell her I can ignore that part of me that cares about her, because of what she's done to me and you. I can never ignore that. She's now twice ruined the best thing that's ever happened to me." I explained. All the while, I just hoped he would show some sign he was taking this in.

After a minute or so of silence, I could see him start to turn and look at me. "You're serious now, right?" he asked. In his mind, I knew he was considering what I said and trying to figure out if I was hiding anything. "I'm not about to start lying to you. Nor would I ever. For years she's been coming back randomly..This time it was bad luck you were there." I answered.

"She..she's been coming over? It wasn't this one time?" he asked. My guess he kept asking all these questions so he wouldn't feel unsure. And I don't blame him; I hate that unsure feeling, like you have to question everything you thought you knew. "I'd have to say it's been..4 times? Including this one, that is. Not to mention the calls, the texts.." I said, trailing off.

The longer I thought about her, the more mad I became. "Frank." Gerard said my name, breaking my thoughts. I looked at him and he was fully facing me now, sitting cross-legged. He had his eyes in his lap and I would hate to know that he's been crying all this time. I hated knowing what I had done to him all this time apart. It's time for me to end my games.

"It's not that I don't believe you, I do, but.." he said, fumbling with his hands, "..How do I know this is never going to happen again." he continued. I saw him release one of his hands and went to wipe at his face. Oh no, I thought, please don't start with that.. "I can't keep fooling myself, Frankie." he said softly.

I knew he kept his voice low at at time like now when he knew he was starting crying. Not to mention he called me by that name, that nickname..I really haven't heard that in a long time, and it's good to hear it once more. Y'know, before he finally got sick of me and told me to leave.

"Gee, just listen to me, okay?" I told him, putting my hands in his. I was sort of surprised when I felt his wrap around mine. "In my life, it's you. Just you, and no one else. And it's gonna stay that way. I love you, and nothing can change how I feel." I continued, afraid I'd start crying as well. Seeing him do it, I eventually started too, whether I wanted to or not.

And we just sat like that, my words being said into silence. I knew by now he was listening, and was trying to gather himself. Lightly I could feel him rocking back and forth, feeling the gentle tugging in his hands. I couldn't begin to imagine what was going on in his head right now. It wouldn't surprise me in the least if he denied me and told me to leave. At least I got him to listen.

"I..I love you, too." Gerard said finally. The rocking had ceased and I looked up to see he was looking right back at me. It was hard to see with minimal light in the room, but I right now I could both feel his eyes on me and could see him looking straight at me. And he was attempting a smile, but I could see he really didn't want to be.

"You've thought it through, right? I don't want you to be going into something you don't have your heart in." I reminded him. It wasn't worth it, keeping him with me when I could see he didn't even want to be there with me. He should be able to live, without me. And without wanting to die. But I guess without me, he'd always want to, and so would I.

His eyes searched around for a moment, then looked back at me. "I've thought it through, and I'm sure of what I want. And it's you." he told me, cracking an honest smile, "I made you a promise, didn't I? I'm not leaving you again." he continued. It was good to see him show some life in his face without looking like he was forcing himself to do it.

There was nothing that could ruin this moment right here, absolutely not a thing. I could see Carolyn walk in and I'd slam the door right in her face. She was no longer part of this life, my life with him. I didn't want either of us to have another problem like that. We're older now, and things have changed. And some things, for the good.

One good change: We were able to stay together, wherever we went.

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~Narrator's POV~

Didn't think you would hear from me again, did you? Well, you were wrong. And here I am, to tell you the rest of the story. And as I might of mentioned before, these two get the happy ending that they deserve. After that day, not many things they came across that wasn't so difficult to get by.

Gerard went back to school, after dropping out of his old one, waiting a year and giving himself time off before he would have to go back. He knew this when promising Frank he would stay, he just told him what he said so he could have more time just for him. And that's exactly what he recieved.

As for Frank, he started school sometime after Gerard started. He enrolled as a student into a local college, not wanting to have another four years of catholic school. The two had classes, often scattering their schedules and what time they had together. Gerard had an apartment not far from Frank's, and it didn't help that they lived apart and tried to have a life around their busy scedules.

Gerard finished before Frank, which opened up an oppurtunity for him. They wouldn't always have to work around both their schedules, but just plan around Frank's classes. But that didn't last for long when Gerard got an offer to work as a designer for a cartoon tv network.

Things just seemed to get more difficult for the two, and Gerard took the job, but took a long trip to work in New York City each day, coming and going. They hardly ever got to spend a lot of time together, but always tried to keep in contact when away from each other. Then something happened that would change their lives forever.

Gerard was on his way to work in the City when he witnessed an attack on the city so great, it changed his views on the world. He then decided to call up some old friends and see how their life was going, seeing if it was just as bad, and also asking if they wanted to be in a band. From what he had witnessed, Gerard wrote the first song their band had ever recorded.

Then this is where Mikey comes back into the picture. Gerard had asked him to join the band as well, along with his old friend Ray and another named Matt. Mikey had come across the name of a story, and thought up a name of a band. And the band didn't have a name, so they turned to Mikey.

And so My Chemical Romance was born. The band started making music together and at the last minute, they decided a second guitar player was needed. The first person Gerard had thought of was Frank, since when the band first started he was still in school. So he left school and came to join the band.

The two tried to make things work again like when they were younger, but things just didn't seem to click for them anymore. They still loved eachother, in a way, but it just wasn't the same as when they were in high school, when they didn't have a care in the world. So the two ended it as a couple.

But I said this was going to be happy, so don't start coming up with ideas. This didn't make things in the band any complicated. They started putting out music and went to work making the music that could save someone's life. I mean, that's the whole point.

When it saves your lives, it saves them too.