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~Four Years Later, Gerard's POV~

"How bout we run through it one more time?" I asked. Another day of recording and practice. Well really no one else seemed like they wanted to practice no more. My voice was sore as hell but I thought we could push it a little farther today.

The first one to respond was Luke, Frank's replacement. "Dude, we've been at this for hours. Call it a day?" he said. I looked to everyone else; Mikey and Ray were off to one corner talking, looking tired, Bob was twirling his sticks behind the set and Luke was rubbing his fingers. That's what he got for bashing at his guitar all day.

"Alright, we'll call it a day." I gave, not really seeing how it was fair four against one. I took my headphones off and hung them back around the microphone. Truth be told I had heard enough of my own voice for one day. And I was more excited to get outside our booth and go see Gloria. She was my biggest inspiration.

Her and Lyn-Z, that's for sure. Lyn-Z I had met about three years ago, and she was the only girl that seemed to matter much in my life, besides Gloria. Once in a while I still went to Alicia-still not used to calling her that- about things with Gloria I just had no clue on.

Somewhere in the back of my mind it told me going to Alicia made Lyn-Z feel hurt that I couldnt just go to her for advice. But she had to understand that I only felt comfortable not going to her but to Alicia because well she was Gloria's real mom.

As for the band these days, obviously we were working on new material, but almost two years ago we had another album out, The Black Parade. We did huge touring for that cd, and all of us breaked for awhile before coming back to start writing and putting some music together. There was some problems going on within in the band that we were trying to work out lately, but it didnt seem to be going so well.

Sometimes I really feared that the fighting between us got worse. I wouldnt be able to see one of us leave, even myself. My Chem couldnt go on without each other. But that not so bright spot lately was the most of any problems we were having. So here goes to having a bright future ahead of us.

Over the next week, we got more practice done and almost all without a hitch. Mikey had missed practice one of those days being that he had to go with Alica to go to the hospital. It turned out she was pregnant. I walked outside our booth and walked over to Lyn-Z.

~Alicia's POV~

I sat and watched from outside their booth, watching as Gerard's new wife Lynz was taking care of Gloria. To this day it was still a wierd feeling to look at the two of them and to be an outsider. Yes, Gloria was her natural born daughter but she had given all rights to Gerard so he could spend time with his daughter, which he hadn't known up until about 4 years ago.

The pretty age of nine, I thought, he must be having lots of fun. She was going to be ten and then next year eleven, was around the time she'd be going to sixth grade. Bet that was a scary thought for him. Once in a while he came to me, looking totally helpless, for what he should do with.. Gloria things. She was a handful her whole life, I always thought.

And since the 5 years that have gone by, I had completely changed who I was. On the outside, at least. My hair is now blond with green and blue streaks running through it, I found out I needed to wear contacts now, and I was also getting a little stomach on me.

Thats right, I was pregnant. And I thanked all I knew that I was positive it was Mikey's child. In about three weeks we would go to find out if it was going to be a boy or a girl. Not just because of how far along I was, it was when I was due. He was more excited than I had seen in a long time. If it was a boy, we'd picked Ethan Thomas and if it was a girl, Lily Margret.

In five years, no one had known I was really Tracey, what I had done when that was what I was known to be. And I've been safe from police since. All was good. I had a new life, the starting of a new family, and no one had to know about my past.

I see all the guys pile out of their booths and whatnot into the backroom where Lyn-Z Gloria and I were. Luke immediately went to go call his girlfriend..well fiance, Laura. The kid is such a lovebug, I thought. Then Gerard walked over to his two girl and Mikey to his. I got up to kiss him quick and lost balance for a second.

"Stay sitting, you know you shouldn't even be up that much.." Mikey said, sitting me back down carefully. I shook my head. "I've went through this once already. I just hope this time I'm not early like I was with Gloria." I told him quietly. I didn't want her to overhear, Gloria or Lyn-Z. Just the fact that she wasn't mine anymore, and she pretty much had a new mother. Even to this day, I still felt a pain of letting her go.

But I guess I had something new to look foward to. Can't dwell on the past, especially with one like mine. It might make me go paranoid, feeling like I was always being watched and never safe. Forcefully, I made myself forget about that. Stress and shti getting on my nerves isn't good for the baby-to-be.

Oh, and as for our.. well, dead friends? Yeah, they didn't totally disappear off the face of the earth. Once in a while, well it seemed random sometimes to them, but they would show up when something important came up. Things like a birthday, but when someone started showing up just now, I couldn't be sure why.

And it was this time I knew it was me only that could see this. No one else seemed distracted or even noticed. I picked myself up and told Mikey I'd be right back. Just like I knew they would, I was being followed wherever I could make it without running out of breath. Damn, you don't realize how much this takes out of you.

"Do I need to be warned, is something bad going to happen?" I asked, my back still to whoever it was. Then I heard a voice that hadn't changed one bit in years. "Hi, nice to see you too. And no, I'm not here because something bad is going to happen." Rose said. Well, she had been dead for years, but it always seemed to surprise me everytime I got to see her. "So, this time, you actually know why you're here? And why am I the only able to see you this time?" I asked.

She sighed. "You'll have my answer to that first question soon enough. And as for the second..this time is different." Rose said. I wasn't so sure what she was saying, but then again when I asked lots of questions, she usually talked like that. But how would I even get my answers, if she basically told me I'd figure it out on my own?

All of a sudden I had a shooting pain, kinda like getting kicked by the baby, only about a thousand times worse. It made me lean up against the wall and almost fall to the ground. "What are you doing to me?!" I screeched. Rose looked peaceful. "This..is the answer to your question." I would've shouted something of protest but the pain wasn't leaving, and someone was coming in the room.

I suspected it to be Mikey. I just didn't realize how loud I yell. "What's the matter??" he asked, alarmed. I was about ready to hit him, if only I could move. Me clutching around my stomach didn't give hint enough? Not to mention the fact it felt like I didn't make it to the bathroom in time. "Mikey.. I think I need.. hospital!" I said between gasping. Goddamn, you would think I learned my lesson the first time to stop letting him in my pants.

Mikey looked totally helpless and ran to the other room. I got myself up, pain leaving, and taking a last look at Rose. There was genuine happiness on top, but dead or alive, I could still see this was all just a sheild masking her emotions. Then Rose fully left and I somehow walked back into the next room. It was somewhat of a funny thing to me that Mikey was the one panicking, when I was the one that should be. I'd be the one having the baby.

What happens next, I will spare you the details for I think that is something none of us would want to remember, not even me. About after nine hours, lots of pain and screaming, I had a boy. It was the second most happy memory to me, of course first to Mikey. This world of parenthood was all knew to him. He didn't have to force me much to get some sleep after all was done with. He should get more time, and I really needed some damn sleep.

~Mikey's POV~

How do I put the past few hours into words? It was indescribable, everything from the time pretty much all of us hauled to the hospital, to now. Alicia was sleeping now (much deserved), and I was getting the chance to have time with my son. Those last two words echoed in my head. Something else inside me remembered how bad it was to find out last time her child wasn't his. But he ignored that, knowing I couldn't live in the past.

Ethan was sleeping, and I was trying to keep quiet so he wouldn't wake. Everyone-including Gerard, Gloria, Lyn-Z, Bob and Ray-had come in to say congrats and see the baby earlier. Now, it was the early hours of the morning, and everyone went home.

I tried and failed to come up with words. For it all. Especially like right now, the feeling it was like to look at our child, and how truely happy it made me to be a dad at that moment. Ethan slept soundly, so I decided to put him in his bed, so he could sleep next to his mom. I slipped out the room and went to call Gerard Kicking myself, I forgot that it had to be only about 5 in the morning, and he wouldn't be happy about getting woken up.

"Hello..?" Gerard asked tiredly. "Man, it's me." I told him. It was silent on the other end for a moment. "You guys alright? Something wrong?" he asked, now sounding more awake. It was like him to sound worried. "We're all fine, the baby too. I just haven't gotten a moment to myself til now." I said. Gerard laughed a bit on the other end. "You're gonna have to get used to that. There especially is gonna be less alone time for you and Alicia. Good luck, bro."  he told me.

I admit I had to laugh a bit at myself. All of this I had known was coming. But there was just no way I could've prepared for the actual experience. "Thanks.." I said, next sentence being more to myself, "What did I get myself into..." Gerard was more than prepared for that one.  "You knew from the beginning, getting married, that you would have to be ready for everything. And yes, that includes becoming a father. But, not to get big-brother here, I know you're gonna make that kid proud to have a dad like you."  he told me.

What he said gave me an odd feeling, but also a show of love. He believed in me, now all I had to do was believe in myself. "I really appreciate it.. Come by later?" I asked.  "No problem, I meant it. And of course.." Gerard said.  We said our goodbyes and I checked back in on Alicia's room. Both were still sound asleep.

Perfect timing, I thought, and went to go try and get some sleep. It wouldn't be much, but I felt so drained in the time past. Before I started drifting off, I couldn't help thinking how all of this, the way things turned out, seemed to good to be true. Things started out.. well, like shit, but then it all made a complete turn around.

In the end, I had gotten back with Alicia (Tracey was only allowed rarely, being that she still answered to it), and now we were married. Not to mention the new start of family we had. Could it have been all a dream? It didn't feel that real, but I had scars from long ago reminding me that the past was real. Who's to say I wouldn't do it all over again?

I wouldn't think of changing a thing.