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kinglittlegee In reply to KittenPrince55 [2017-04-16 23:45:57 +0000 UTC]

I was just recently...
Now it's more of depressed and anxious...

I called 911
in a random church
in a city
I have never been before
for an ambulance 
to take me away
to a safe place for healing.

Dunno where you're at,
but
being completely honest
about
my stories and 
issues...
... helped me.

I'm not in recovery yet, but 
I'm working towards
it.

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Cole-the-FNAF-Ninja In reply to KittenPrince55 [2016-12-24 20:10:56 +0000 UTC]

Same here...

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TransWeirdo In reply to error-4 [2016-11-17 02:13:01 +0000 UTC]

Thank you and people need to learn to be more kind tbh

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error-4 In reply to TransWeirdo [2016-11-18 00:23:47 +0000 UTC]

Right

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TransWeirdo In reply to TheMoonRaven [2016-05-18 22:40:58 +0000 UTC]

Trust me hun, I know that feeling pretty well. 

Lemme tell you what I think, though. Scars tell your stories, your struggle and shows that no matter what, the past will heal. It just takes some time. I have some self harm scars myself, as well as surgery, but it shows that I went through a lot and beat my battle. I do not support self harm in any way, shape or form, but I just wanted to give people a little boost to their confidence. 

There's a saying I love that kind of reminds me of this. 

"Everyone wants happiness, no one wants pain, but you can't make a rainbow without a little pain."

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TransWeirdo In reply to PrinceOmariKubin [2016-04-30 00:10:00 +0000 UTC]

Mhm. I get curious when I see scars, honestly. Makes me wonder what happen and what they overcame to make it where they're at now

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PrinceOmariKubin In reply to TransWeirdo [2016-04-30 13:06:02 +0000 UTC]

Yep'

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TransWeirdo In reply to xPastel-Starsx [2016-04-30 00:09:02 +0000 UTC]

I believe you'll get through this, hun. It is pretty hard, but it's not gonna be worth it, alright?

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TransWeirdo In reply to Rainblaze-Art [2016-01-31 00:35:23 +0000 UTC]

lmao, coolio, but I made this thing just to cheer up those with little self esteem

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Rainblaze-Art In reply to TransWeirdo [2016-01-31 19:58:03 +0000 UTC]

Ikr

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TransWeirdo In reply to Raven--Iscariot [2015-07-21 06:50:22 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for your comment and I completely agree with you. uwu

I am a cutter, I've literally struggled with self hard as a little kid. I have scars all over, but most have faded, the rest still remain. People often look down  on me for cutting (one Friend actually slapped my fore arm for cutting there), others think I'm crazy but most are concerned about me.
I have grown to love my scars after the years have passed, and I would even tell stories and show them off, heh... Except the self harm ones, I like to keep those secret unless somebody asks about them.
I honestly don't support self harm of any kinds, but I think some people don't believe that. Some people have actually asked if I was emo and if I cut myself. It's offensive, really. I'm sure some people will misinterpret this stamp, but I'll explain it without a problem. I'll tell them I'm a safe haven for cutters, anorexics... you know what? Screw the labels. I'm a safe haven for all. I've helped people with self harm, depression, bulimia and suicide. I just like to be there for someone, because I grew up with no help.
I wanna make sure someone lasts another day.

Thank you for your comment, it was quite the interesting read. uwu

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Raven--Iscariot In reply to TransWeirdo [2015-07-22 00:21:54 +0000 UTC]

Totally agree. In fact, it should be former cutters who help cutters instead of people who've never done it and don't understand why just saying over and over "you need to stop." It's not easy to stop and judging someone won't help them stop.

People do the same thing with the fact that I now have dermatillomania. I actually think the only reason I was able to stop cutting is because I started picking my skin worse and worse without realizing it. Derma isn't even considered self-harm even though it is a form of self-mutilation as far as I'm concerned and the reasons it's difficult to stop are the same. In fact, for me, derma is way worse. I could stop cutting, I cannot stop this and I've tried so hard. Yet people say the same things they did when I was cutting as they do with derma:
"You need to stop cutting." "You're covered in scars"
Never "you could get a staph infection" or "You're hurting yourself and you need help" No, it's always "You need to just stop (because it's that easy) because (some vain reason)"

No, it isn't pretty. At all. Imagine doing that to yourself and not being able to stop and then see how quick you are to just say "stop it."

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TransWeirdo In reply to Raven--Iscariot [2015-07-22 23:22:53 +0000 UTC]

True, especially since I know how it feels to be told "Just stop your cutting", etc. It's really not too easy, since it is almost like a drug addiction.

I used to go through the same thing, especially wit derma. I somehow managed to stop, but I ended up with a nervous habit of cracking my knuckles, biting my nails, or even my hands. People tell me to stop biting my nails, but I really can't unless my hands are distracted with something. People give me awkward stares, and I get scolded all the time for it. I could put down a blade for a pretty long time (a few years was my best run, before a medicine-induced moodswing drove me severely depressed), but when it comes to my nervous habits, I can't stop or I feel anxious.
And yeah, it's always "Stop, it looks stupid", "You look ridiculous", "nothing is wrong with you", etc. Rarely is there someone who says something new.
I know and agree with you that none of this is too pretty, and I can understand. It's an addiction, like a drug.

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Raven--Iscariot In reply to TransWeirdo [2015-07-22 23:34:41 +0000 UTC]

Exactly. Even with other things I do completely subconsciously to alleviate minor stress and anxieties like rocking back and forth, people will just tell me to stop because I'm "acting like a psychopath." No one knows what constitutes true psychopathic behavior, yet they use that term like they know what it means.

I just can't with other people anymore.

I haven't cut since I was a freshman, and that was 6 years ago, but I still have derma and I still think about cutting all the time. In a weird way, going back to that place and really thinking about it kinda helps to be honest. Like, I follow a lot of depression blogs on tumblr and I'll actually scroll through the self-harm tag and put myself back in that place mentally. But so far, I haven't actually relapsed. I just have thoughts once and a while. I don't really get triggered when I see or hear about someone else cutting, it's like a nostalgia for me, yet I feel concern for the other person.

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TransWeirdo In reply to Raven--Iscariot [2015-08-10 20:58:08 +0000 UTC]

Same here, especially when I tap A pencil on the desk or tap my foot, it's completely subconscious.

Wow, that's really impressive, going that long. I normally can last for a few months, but once for a few years. It is kind of strange going back to those memories, though. It's normally anorexia for me, but rarely do I relapse back into the problem. Though the memories arise, I do get very concerned for the individual , like yourself.

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TransWeirdo In reply to MapIe-Shade [2015-07-21 00:36:53 +0000 UTC]

I'm glad it helped you. uwu That was the reason I made this stamp.
I'm glad you plan to stay strong and last another day. Someday you'll win this battle and I just know you'll survive. Don't let all the jackasses tell you otherwise, because at the end of the day, you are just human. You are just looking for a way to cope and move on.
I'm proud that you're staying strong. uwu

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MapIe-Shade In reply to TransWeirdo [2015-07-21 00:40:53 +0000 UTC]

;w;

thank you

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TransWeirdo In reply to MapIe-Shade [2015-07-21 00:43:36 +0000 UTC]

No problem. uwu *pets*

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MapIe-Shade In reply to TransWeirdo [2015-07-21 00:44:14 +0000 UTC]

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TransWeirdo In reply to MapIe-Shade [2015-07-21 00:47:59 +0000 UTC]

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TransWeirdo In reply to monster-drawings [2015-07-13 06:19:04 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome. uwu
I'm glad it helped, because I want society to change their views on cutters, or scars. Me? I've self harmed for 11 years (and continuing; I'm only 15 though. I've done it all and tried to break bone repeatedly). I look at my arms and I can count around 30-50 scars (some only I can find), and I used to be ashamed... I thought the scar around my hip/stomach area was weird, or a scar/dip in my leg were weird (it was medical, again) and I really hated it. But, when someone told me that my scars are my story, and that my body was a canvas that had my story, I was happy... It helped me quite a bit, so I wanted to spread the message to others. I honestly want to win my battle, because I know somebody cares about me.

I'm always here if ya need to talk, by the way.

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monster-drawings In reply to TransWeirdo [2015-07-13 06:24:51 +0000 UTC]

thank you, I don't know if this sounds stupid but because of this i have outed myself (sorta... On da anyway.. Only some of my friends knew, or at least people who used to be my friends. But, I think I'm gonna tell my parents and possibly the one I have been crushing on for a long time..)  ^.^ you don't understand how much this means to me. Thankyou..again 

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TransWeirdo In reply to monster-drawings [2015-07-13 06:28:38 +0000 UTC]

I don't think it sounds stupid. uwu
DA helped me big time as coming out as a Transgendered pan(? I like certain genders, but not all. xD Too much to be bi, but too little to be pan). Also, good luck on coming out, hope it goes well (my coming out took a while xDx).
And it's no problem. uwu I just like to help out.

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TransWeirdo In reply to StellarDragons [2015-07-07 22:14:11 +0000 UTC]

same here. uwu
I used to hate mine, but I learned to love them.

And thank you for the fave, it's really appreciated.

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