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Hey kid. I've been thinking of you a lot lately. I don't know whether it's just the fact that I've tried to keep you out of my mind for such a long time that I can't take it anymore, or whether it's just me finally letting the memories back in. I'm really not sure which one it is. It's kinda funny that I'm writing this on a silly art website that you probably never did hear about. But I figure I've gotta get it out somewhere.

I miss you very badly. It effected so many people. You were such a bright, wonderful little kid. You could have effected this world in so many positive ways. You never thought bad of anyone, you never judged, you were so kind, you always had a smile on your face. I remember that we always talked about how we were gonna grow up and get married and have nineteen kids and live in my mom's basement. I remember all of the love notes, all the Valentines, that time I fell down the stairs and you kissed my bruised knee.

One of the only thing I can remember was how much I ignored you that year. I was just a kid and you were suddenly gone and how many people told me that one thing you said before you went was how much you missed having me as a friend. This was almost four years ago and it still hurts. I was so little. I became so aware of all of the awful things in this world and it almost killed me. It was so sudden and it seems like such a long time ago.

I can't help but think that you would be disappointed in what I've become. I hate to think that but I'm pretty sure you would. I lost faith in many things and I guess it made me more grounded in my fear of death. I'm doubtful. I'm not solid in what I believe.

I'm scared of what happens after we go, but I know that wherever you are, you are happy. You are safe and you are in the highest place possible. You deserved it. I try to think of it that such a bright person like you was just taken from this awful and violent world to be spared from it all. I just wish I could have been and could be better. I think everyone feels like that after someone so special leaves, but I really do.

I miss you, kid. But I know you're happy now. And I think it's time for me to let it go.

Dedicated to my dear friend that passed on in 2009.

Art, iceriver (c) me

Description
Hey kid. I've been thinking of you a lot lately. I don't know whether it's just the fact that I've tried to keep you out of my mind for such a long time that I can't take it anymore, or whether it's just me finally letting the memories back in. I'm really not sure which one it is. It's kinda funny that I'm writing this on a silly art website that you probably never did hear about. But I figure I've gotta get it out somewhere.

I miss you very badly. It effected so many people. You were such a bright, wonderful little kid. You could have effected this world in so many positive ways. You never thought bad of anyone, you never judged, you were so kind, you always had a smile on your face. I remember that we always talked about how we were gonna grow up and get married and have nineteen kids and live in my mom's basement. I remember all of the love notes, all the Valentines, that time I fell down the stairs and you kissed my bruised knee.

One of the only thing I can remember was how much I ignored you that year. I was just a kid and you were suddenly gone and how many people told me that one thing you said before you went was how much you missed having me as a friend. This was almost four years ago and it still hurts. I was so little. I became so aware of all of the awful things in this world and it almost killed me. It was so sudden and it seems like such a long time ago.

I can't help but think that you would be disappointed in what I've become. I hate to think that but I'm pretty sure you would. I lost faith in many things and I guess it made me more grounded in my fear of death. I'm doubtful. I'm not solid in what I believe.

I'm scared of what happens after we go, but I know that wherever you are, you are happy. You are safe and you are in the highest place possible. You deserved it. I try to think of it that such a bright person like you was just taken from this awful and violent world to be spared from it all. I just wish I could have been and could be better. I think everyone feels like that after someone so special leaves, but I really do.

I miss you, kid. But I know you're happy now. And I think it's time for me to let it go.

Dedicated to my dear friend that passed on in 2009.

Art, iceriver (c) me