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Finally done. March was terrible for me... I waited and now I can vent about this and then I am DONE with everything!

Here you see why. In case you can't read my fucking stupid handwriting.... read this...

1: One of my friends online apologized and we're best friends again. A good start... But briefly...
LITERALLY a few minutes later...
2: I got blocked by my idol who never talks to me. Ouch. That actually burned a lot... I even cried several times...
3: I Found out one of my friends told him something I said wrong about his girlfriend. Yes, I was wrong, but why goddammit tell it, if I told it in a goddamn DM?! Fucking treacherous bitch. And aside from this all, ANOTHER friend ended friendship after she didn't talked with me for a few months, without a reason.
4: Was worried about BFF online, haven't heard of her in a few months... I needed someone to blow some steam off, what I have done a LOT...!!! but I still felt worse and worse... I had no idea what to do! I was so worried!
5: It was my friend's b-day, although I was depressed and tried to hide it. That was DIFFICULT, but my drawing quality wasn't as good...
6: Corona got detected in Holland, time for the gloves and 1,5 M distance, no hugging even!
7: All of this combined gave me a big depression and I started hating myself and thought this all was my own fault.
8: I accepted the fact my idol just hates me, I can't go back to the community and tried to go on with my life...
9: Corona got worse and was also near my place.....
10: And because of that, I don't have to work till' April and just gotta stay home!
11: And it all gives me more time for new art! YAY, but the depression slowed it down...
12: I was WAY more active online! I even had many voicechats online! I even was featured in a YouTube video! Well, the VC in the vid, I mean! It still was awesome! It made me feel like people were actually with me... And I love that feeling.
13: My depression was getting me, I cried more and more, I needed hugs, but then my friends supported me with #StayStrongStar and really, it motivated me to STAY STRONG!!! I thank extremespeeds , ViciousHedgehog95 , Ky-1 , JacobDSArt , NovaFruity , 2alikamax20 , ChaoticPrince7 , Crazy226 , DerekX4V13R , 2ruffles , NekoRockStarNinja , PurpleHeartVenus , SleepySpritin and StupidNintendoFan for giving me hope... You all are amazing...!
14: Animal Crossing New Horizons AND Doom Eternal both came out! I'm poor as fuck, sooo, used to it.
15: My birthday is less than a month away! Although corona will cancel it for sure... I need to stay positive!
16: Still safely home, still in online contact with friends and family IRL... I miss them...
17: A GREAT friend made art for me! A MASTERPIECE!!! And by doing so, she completely cured me of my depression caused by this shitty month! Thanks again, NovaFruity !
18: I finally had contact again, with my bestie, ConstellationDragoho ... I missed you girl!
19: After this month and all of the pain, I put everything back in the past. I am strong! Strong enough as Queen to go on with my life! Now I HATE my ex-idol and ex-friend! Fuck them! All I need is myself and my real friends!

So, that's basically everything that happened in March. I know, shitty AF! I'm used to it now! But the fact that I just got blocked like that... By who? Well, By Jack-Hedgehog ... How he knew? Well, LordcodyLadyMikala told him without reason. Good job Mikala, you ruined me, my inspiration hates me and now I hate you too. I dislike you both! Go jump in Hell, I got over you now! Screw those losers! Done~!

YES, ALL OF THIS HAPPENED TO ME! Maaaybe I overreacted, but, you know, my ADHD makes me the way I am! So, MAYBE sensitive, making drama a lot, blablabla, but I'm proud of who I am and I have friends to help me become a better version of myself...

Thank you all for reading and understanding me. Have a nice day~!

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Finally done. March was terrible for me... I waited and now I can vent about this and then I am DONE with everything!

Here you see why. In case you can't read my fucking stupid handwriting.... read this...

1: One of my friends online apologized and we're best friends again. A good start... But briefly...
LITERALLY a few minutes later...
2: I got blocked by my idol who never talks to me. Ouch. That actually burned a lot... I even cried several times...
3: I Found out one of my friends told him something I said wrong about his girlfriend. Yes, I was wrong, but why goddammit tell it, if I told it in a goddamn DM?! Fucking treacherous bitch. And aside from this all, ANOTHER friend ended friendship after she didn't talked with me for a few months, without a reason.
4: Was worried about BFF online, haven't heard of her in a few months... I needed someone to blow some steam off, what I have done a LOT...!!! but I still felt worse and worse... I had no idea what to do! I was so worried!
5: It was my friend's b-day, although I was depressed and tried to hide it. That was DIFFICULT, but my drawing quality wasn't as good...
6: Corona got detected in Holland, time for the gloves and 1,5 M distance, no hugging even!
7: All of this combined gave me a big depression and I started hating myself and thought this all was my own fault.
8: I accepted the fact my idol just hates me, I can't go back to the community and tried to go on with my life...
9: Corona got worse and was also near my place.....
10: And because of that, I don't have to work till' April and just gotta stay home!
11: And it all gives me more time for new art! YAY, but the depression slowed it down...
12: I was WAY more active online! I even had many voicechats online! I even was featured in a YouTube video! Well, the VC in the vid, I mean! It still was awesome! It made me feel like people were actually with me... And I love that feeling.
13: My depression was getting me, I cried more and more, I needed hugs, but then my friends supported me with #StayStrongStar and really, it motivated me to STAY STRONG!!! I thank extremespeeds , ViciousHedgehog95 , Ky-1 , JacobDSArt , NovaFruity , 2alikamax20 , ChaoticPrince7 , Crazy226 , DerekX4V13R , 2ruffles , NekoRockStarNinja , PurpleHeartVenus , SleepySpritin and StupidNintendoFan for giving me hope... You all are amazing...!
14: Animal Crossing New Horizons AND Doom Eternal both came out! I'm poor as fuck, sooo, used to it.
15: My birthday is less than a month away! Although corona will cancel it for sure... I need to stay positive!
16: Still safely home, still in online contact with friends and family IRL... I miss them...
17: A GREAT friend made art for me! A MASTERPIECE!!! And by doing so, she completely cured me of my depression caused by this shitty month! Thanks again, NovaFruity !
18: I finally had contact again, with my bestie, ConstellationDragoho ... I missed you girl!
19: After this month and all of the pain, I put everything back in the past. I am strong! Strong enough as Queen to go on with my life! Now I HATE my ex-idol and ex-friend! Fuck them! All I need is myself and my real friends!

So, that's basically everything that happened in March. I know, shitty AF! I'm used to it now! But the fact that I just got blocked like that... By who? Well, By Jack-Hedgehog ... How he knew? Well, LordcodyLadyMikala told him without reason. Good job Mikala, you ruined me, my inspiration hates me and now I hate you too. I dislike you both! Go jump in Hell, I got over you now! Screw those losers! Done~!

YES, ALL OF THIS HAPPENED TO ME! Maaaybe I overreacted, but, you know, my ADHD makes me the way I am! So, MAYBE sensitive, making drama a lot, blablabla, but I'm proud of who I am and I have friends to help me become a better version of myself...

Thank you all for reading and understanding me. Have a nice day~!