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ShinyAeon — Beautiful
Published: 2010-11-12 17:16:00 +0000 UTC; Views: 344; Favourites: 3; Downloads: 5
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This is a filksong (a song rewrite, in Old Fannish Speak) that I wrote some time ago to express an idea I've had since I was fifteen or so, about the nature of fan-loves.It's simply the idea that a "fan crush," even on a fictional character (even if that character might be animated) is not necessarily crazy, stupid or immature. That, as long as you're clear about its illusory nature, it just might be something okay, something perfectly healthy. It's our nature as human beings to love, after all; we have an enormous, almost infinite capacity for loving others, and most of us never come close to approaching our upper "limit." Fannish loves don't take anything away from real loves, and they help us exercise those instincts - keep everything fit and healthy, as it were.
They might even, perhaps (sometimes), be a little bit...ennobling - if they inspire you to be more creative, more confident, more courageous, more generous, or more true to your authentic self in some way.
I was prompted to go ahead and complete the picture and post the song by something *GiantGastropod said recently, so: this one's for you, kid.
Regarding the picture: Tracey, of course, is the object of mine and GG's affections, but since this is intended to talk about fan-loves in general, I included all the major Poké-guys (James gets to be first because he's such a fan favorite...and because he's objectively the prettiest, lol); and it's a Pokémon image purely because that's my current fandom.
[I'm sorry to leave out the Poké-girls, whom I'm sure are loved in much the same way by their devoted fans, but the lyrics do say "imaginary man," so yeah. The girls get the majority of deviations, anyway; this is the boys' turn.
][And here's the lyrics, in case the font above is hard to read:]
Beautiful
(to the tune of: James Blunt’s “You’re Beautiful”)
I love a shadow
My love is pure
But I’m not crazy
Of this I’m sure
You smiled at me from the TV,
My imaginary man
A fictional creation to
A lonely fan
You’re beautiful
You’re beautiful
You’re beautiful, it’s true
I saw your face, and I can’t erase
These dreams that won’t come true,
Though I’ll never be with you.
Is it so crazy?
Is it so much
To love an image you can never touch?
Dante had his Beatrice;
Well, I’m no Dante,
But at least I have this.
You’re beautiful
You’re beautiful
You’re beautiful, it’s true
I saw your face, and it filled a place
In my heart where nothing grew,
Though I’ll never be with you.
You’re beautiful
You’re beautiful
You’re beautiful
It’s true
I saw your face, and it’s no disgrace
To feel the love I feel for you
Because loving’s what we do…
Though I’ll never be with you.
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Comments: 2
YES to... everything said here.
It's true that there are some people who allow themselves to become totally miserable over the fact that they can't touch the person they're in love with. Actually, most people would think that way... Because people tend to view relationships as something like a commodity, that you should receive just as much as you've invested, and that's the exact opposite of what love actually is and how it works. : /
That aside, though, what you said about there actually being a benefit to all this, there's so much truth in that. Most people just aren't willing to accept that we could possibly be more content with characters on TV than "real men". Especially with someone like Tracey, who's so kind, encouraging and optimistic... It's kind of hard to explain it, but taking on life is so much easier (more of an adventure than a mundane existence filled with bottomless pits to stumble into) when there's someone who, theoretically, cheers you on. I know Tracey would always want me to try my best, and it's easier for me to do things for him than for myself... (Nothing wrong with being loyal to a good role model.) If that makes any sense whatsoever. 
You know, not to mention, what few people Iv dated in my life, at at least some point, they've all made me feel upset or confused or made me cry and caused me problems. ...And since Tracey has never made me feel that way, or caused me to doubt myself, or forced me to do anything, I dunno. That choice seems obvious to me.
BUT YEAH OK,
(By the way, you were totally in a dream I had last night. Can't recall why. Crazy, right? : |)
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Well, I hope I was a good guest, lol.
THANK YOU! I can't really respond fully, I'm sneaking time on roomie's laptop & about to go do something, but I'm working on a story that may go into some similar themes, but anyway I'm glad you liked it! Ciao for now;
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