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SeasonsofPast โ€” Anxiety: As They Force In

Published: 2009-06-06 15:48:49 +0000 UTC; Views: 3464; Favourites: 67; Downloads: 55
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Description Anxiety [n.] [ang-zahy-i-tee]

Psychiatry. a state of apprehension and psychic tension occurring in some forms of mental disorder.

She knew something was about to change
Lurk around the corner, it did
She could see its shadow creep across the walls
But how?
She was safe here
Her nice padded walls, so squishy and warm to the touch

But alas, it came, ever so slowly
Her mind becoming ever so aware
Anxious thoughts screamed within her
Her mind thrummed with the voices of thousands calling out a warning

The change, it came, it came with a deafening roar
As it touched her, life exploded in her little home
As it forced in, the vibrancy of life exploded within her soul
Anxiety gave way, the voices silenced and an over whelming calm draped over

In the silence of that moment, her vision cleared
She could see herself for who she was, not the voice's lies
But somewhere, deep down, the voices began to stir
She screamed for them to stop, stop the pain they would bring, the lies they told her
She felt trapped, trapped within her cell
She was not crazy, no, not at this moment
But she needed help
To quell the voices, to leave them once and for all

She remembered, some one, something
It was there, just out of reach
If only she could touch it
If only she could feel its warm embrace
If only.. if only...
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So its been a while. Art blocks are absolutely no fun, especially when i feel like i HAVE to make something or im going to loose something. Rather anxious i guess. So finally i was bored enough to try out something new. Concentrating on a single word or emotion and building from there. Worked out pretty well in my opinion. I hope to do more like this, especially the contrast between a darker image, and the colour of a lighter one.

Comments welcome
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Hand is my own drawing

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Thanks to and for much needed artistic support

Music: Gifts From Enola: From Fathoms
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Comments: 29

Kolaida [2013-01-23 05:22:03 +0000 UTC]

Wow. Very true to the horrors that come with having serious anxiety.

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skyeconnelly [2010-10-08 18:23:06 +0000 UTC]

THIS is absolutely brilliant.

Just thought you should know.

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Spectic [2010-03-12 11:00:56 +0000 UTC]

Anxiety is not a disease.

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Love-Undefined In reply to Spectic [2011-09-21 01:25:21 +0000 UTC]

Anxiety itself is not a disease/disorder but there are certain disorders for it. GAD, OCD, social anxietydisorder, and panic disorder are labeled as anxiety disorders. But i understand what you are saying. Anxiety ITSELF is not a disorder.

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SeasonsofPast In reply to Spectic [2010-03-12 23:33:53 +0000 UTC]

Where did I say it was a disease? Anxiety is a psychological state that is a major problem for quite a few people.

I have a feeling this is some sort of trollish remark, in which case you can keep your smart ass attitude to yourself. Thus said, you can keep your general immaturity to yourself.

Oh, and in this modern day and age, art is in the artist, not in the eye of the beholder. I would suggest figuring that out really fast if you want to make it anywhere.

Good Day

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Spectic In reply to SeasonsofPast [2010-03-13 07:43:31 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry. When I wrote that, I was actually having a really bad and emotional day and I myself have anxiety, when I saw you describe it as a disorder, I overreacted and wrote that. I realised shortly after that that was not what you meant, but I admit I was kind of embarrassed for being so stupid and just wanted to forget about it. I didn't mean any offence. It is a disorder, not disease, and one that I have, which was actually how I came across your work, which is excellent, by the way.

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SeasonsofPast In reply to Spectic [2010-03-18 04:46:32 +0000 UTC]

Oh, heh now you are going to make me feel bad

Sorry for assuming you were dissing my work. I do hope things work out well for you and the best of luck in the future.

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Spectic In reply to SeasonsofPast [2010-03-19 11:10:28 +0000 UTC]

Thanks

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sideshow-coholic [2009-11-02 19:17:09 +0000 UTC]

I have anxiety disoder and it's such a dreadful didease. I can relate alot to this and I'm seeking all the help I can.

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SeasonsofPast In reply to sideshow-coholic [2009-11-27 03:43:34 +0000 UTC]

Sorry Im so late on a reply to this. Somehow I over looked it, but in browsing my old pieces, I stumbled upon it.

Knowing my art connects with people facing real life issues and struggles really helps me remember why I originally started creating work in photoshop.

After checking your profile out some, I'm glad to see the therapy you are getting is helping you and making life more enjoyable. Hopefully someday you will be able to help others with the experience you gain in a healing process.

Best of luck and I do hope one day everything in life works out as you want.

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sideshow-coholic In reply to SeasonsofPast [2009-11-27 13:37:54 +0000 UTC]

I see.

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nikifrank [2009-07-25 19:01:51 +0000 UTC]

very very expressive!

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SeasonsofPast In reply to nikifrank [2009-07-25 20:07:41 +0000 UTC]

Thanks ^^

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x-Butterflied-x [2009-06-29 17:00:57 +0000 UTC]

Wow =O
This is beautiful...

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SeasonsofPast In reply to x-Butterflied-x [2009-06-29 17:02:53 +0000 UTC]

Thanks lots

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x-Butterflied-x In reply to SeasonsofPast [2009-06-29 17:06:36 +0000 UTC]

YW ^^ This work should be :+fave:d more, I like the combination of photography and drawing ^^

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FringeFx [2009-06-28 22:14:48 +0000 UTC]

Very nice! Thank you for using the FringeFX Stock Garage!

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kawaiiFuu [2009-06-23 05:14:16 +0000 UTC]

"The hand," she said as she scratched her head, "looks absolutey wonderful, Mr. I-can't-draw". She tapped her feet on the ground, the pattern echoing through the core of the maple wooden floors, and scrolled back up to the top of the screen, examining the deviation with pinched eyes. "Especially the contrast... it really makes the pain and emotion of the picture more... clear?" Yawning, she tossed a empty coke Zero can into the trash bin on the opposite side of the room. "The sponge effect in the upper left corner...", she mused while popping her ankles, " brings about a feeling of grunginess. You can tell she's been in that cell for awhile, while her captors debated back and forth on whether she was sane enough to leave. For all we know though, her cell could be her very own room." The clicking of the keyboard annoyed her, and she glared spitefully at it while continuing her typing. "The "cell" could just be her mind. It could be a fleeting thought while she was chatting her her friends at school - it could be the place she retreats to everyday as she sits at her desk, feeling hopeless and sitting silently as a statue."

She stared blankly into space.

"The butterflies are confusing. The picture feels a little sharp." She yawned again, continuing the clacking of the keyboard over the soft whirring of the computer. "It feels cold. And I'm sure it should. (This is a good thing) I agree with a certain level of sharpness." Another yawn... it was so late. "I like the grey target sort of things towards the right bottom corner as well. Conformity."

"It looks nice."

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UhMahnDuh [2009-06-15 05:58:37 +0000 UTC]

beautiful

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SeasonsofPast In reply to UhMahnDuh [2009-06-15 18:55:28 +0000 UTC]

Thank you

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David-Holland [2009-06-09 09:33:54 +0000 UTC]

Cool

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SeasonsofPast In reply to David-Holland [2009-06-09 21:03:40 +0000 UTC]

Thanks

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LameJokesman [2009-06-07 04:36:15 +0000 UTC]

Well the hand definitely looks more 3d then it did before. It was like a freaking optical illusion the first time i was looking at it XD

I love the word ang-zahy-i-tee and its a way better choice, then what you had previously

Everything is working well, including how shes looking at the hand.

I still say i like my idea of how to do the hand.. But i like this way too.

Thanks for mentioning me oh and lets do a collab noaw XD

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SeasonsofPast In reply to LameJokesman [2009-06-07 05:29:05 +0000 UTC]

Thanks mate and yea, we really need to

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vittara [2009-06-06 16:24:17 +0000 UTC]

wow so expressive iยดm absolutely impact

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SeasonsofPast In reply to vittara [2009-06-06 16:30:48 +0000 UTC]

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Rhi-R [2009-06-06 15:50:52 +0000 UTC]

Wow! I like this A LOT!

Is the hand representing a pinch of anxiety? That's how I interpret it. Lovely

Rhi x

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SeasonsofPast In reply to Rhi-R [2009-06-06 15:52:50 +0000 UTC]

Thank you

The poem kind of explains what I think of the hand as, but i tend not to tell people how to interpret the art

thanks again

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Rhi-R In reply to SeasonsofPast [2009-06-06 15:59:09 +0000 UTC]

Ah, thank you, I shall read the poem again.
No problem, love it
Rhi x

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