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RockPrincess6277 — Do You Know Me Now?
Published: 2012-12-15 18:55:04 +0000 UTC; Views: 127; Favourites: 1; Downloads: 0
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Look in my eyes.No, not at them.
In them.
What do you see
Beneath the color,
Beneath the surface?
Do you see the secrets?
Things I've buried,
Hid,
Deep in the corners of my mind?
My ignorance?
The things I refuse to deal with,
The things I refuse to bring into the light?
Do you see this constant battle,
This war,
Good and evil,
That rages inside me day and night?
Can you see the thoughts,
The feelings that plague me even while I'm asleep?
Do you see me fears?
Do you see how much I've lost?
Do you see how much I hurt?
How selfish I am?
How bitter?
that I'm a liar?
An actress?
Do you see how shattered I am?
Do you see tears
That are trapped,
That refuse to fall?
Do you see how
Sick I am?
Do you see how
Tired I am?
Do you see what I hide most,
My desires to give up?
My wants to just
End the struggling
And die?
Do you see the
"Perfect little Christian girl?",
With the perfect
Relationship and
Perfect life?
Or do you see the truth about me?
Look deep enough,
And you'll see it.
Do you want to?
Would you want to look
In my eyes and see
Every fight,
Every temptation,
Every struggle, sin, heartbreak, feeling, numbness, nightmare, demon, lie,
Every ounce of loss of self-worth, respect, loathing, pain, shame, guilt, desire,
Every feeling that my world was falling apart,
Ever want for my life to end, every cut, every tear?
Would you want to see this?
To see it all,
In the blink of an eye?
Surely,
It'd be too much.
Surely,
You'd die.
Look in my eyes.
What do you see?
Do you see me?
The true me,
The one without
The mask?
Do you know me now?
Because I still don't.
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Comments: 2
Wow, this is beautiful, and exactly what I am going through. Couldn't have said it better myself. Love it.
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Thank you so much! =]
If you want to talk, I'm always available. =]
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