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Nessie905 — I am Strong.
Published: 2012-07-01 13:41:18 +0000 UTC; Views: 841; Favourites: 22; Downloads: 6
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This is killing me, why can't you see?Everything you've done is pressing down on me
This is causing so much despair, anger, guilt, suffering
You said you'd never hurt me, you promised
But you did it anyway, for your own good
You said you still love and care for me
But then tell me, why did you have to hurt me so bad?
This is tearing me apart, breaking me into pieces
I can barely sleep, I got the first headache in weeks
I cry about it everyday
I love you. I just want you to know.
Maybe I always will.
But there are other feelings that come with this
Why did you do this!? I'm so insecure
I don't want to touch my body, I don't want to look at it
You said I wasn't ugly, then why do I feel it so much?
I question life
I question humanity
I question you...
I shouldn't feel this way
But after 2 years, it's hard not to
Why am I even writing?
Maybe it will help
Let me tell you something
The only reason I'm eating is for you
The reason I keep going
Is in hope that I find something better.
I guess I do deserve better.
What did I ever do wrong?
I feel like such a failure
But I'm not. I deserve the best
How do I move on? I still love you
Maybe I'll just think about life
Do something to keep my mind off of you
The only thing that does is talking to my friends
Hanging with my friends, I'm so thankful to have
I am strong.
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Aww, thanks 
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Well thanks
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It's so hard to feel strong when you don't feel loved. So hard to feel love when you don't feel strong. I still go through all these things you mention, and I'm not even a teenage girl! Hehe. Lovely message at the end. And I liked what Cinders said about believing someone's out there searching for us too. 
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I know... Thanks. 
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Thanks... But I still want to rip my heart out...
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That would be fun, but I live in Canada. I don't have a passport. No money. Blahh. I sometimes hang with a good friend, I try to every day or so.. But it only lasts so long...
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I know... it sucks but we've got to make the good times last, right?
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i feel this way all the time. SO just letting you know, your not the only one <3
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You are not alone, and weaker have survived! Have faith in you, even when you feel no one else does. Someone is searching for you and praying that you exist because you are their soul mate.
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Aww.. 
Actually, I just wrote that down on a piece of paper so I can always carry it . ('That someone is searching for me'..etc, quote) I will keep it handy
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I'm so glad. sometime I'll have to post my butterfly and maybe I can start an album of butterflies from we have have hurt to show people they are not alone, it will not be for bragging of scars, but for banding together and hope, loving this more every second, if you have the time and ability, please by all means start one yourself!!
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strong message about powering through. bravo.
third line of first stanza *might* not need the word "and"
to me, the "and" delays the punches thrown by the words in rapid succession.
If I'm upset with someone, I don't slow down to tie my shoe.
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Thanks.
I fixed that 
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