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Naraki β Bipolar
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Published: 2011-09-09 19:19:45 +0000 UTC; Views: 2001; Favourites: 32; Downloads: 8
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First off I just want to say, do not post a comment saying "that's not what bipolar is like." It's differerent for everyone and this is what it is like for me. I was diagnosed with manic depression almost two years ago, and it's still a problem for me. So, yay emotional expressive art!The colorful, crazy side represents mania. I'm very energetic, I get this "I'm on top of the world" feeling. It's when most of my creative ideas come to me. I also get very agressive, and suffer from audio hallucinations.
The darker side is the depression. Sometimes there's just no good way to describe it other than the usual cliches...I just feel lost. I want the world to go away. I USED to cut. And a note, the red drops on the depression side are not a mistake. Notice they're right underneath the lines talking about cutting and blood. Anyways, also suicidal thoughts are common.
I am seeking help through therapy and medication. I'm currently very stable, it's just nice to express oneself.
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I was diagnosed last year when I was 29. But I felt like I've had it for a long time. I was diagnosed after an episode I had came close to taking my life twice in a month.
I couldn't hear my thoughts. It sounded like a dinner and you hear many voices but can't pick up one specifically to hear the individual words. I could hear my name randomly and screams in the distance.
I felt such dread that I could barely leave the couch or bed. I didn't eat and barely took a shower.
I was seeing things that to me looked as real as me and you. One was a man standing in my doorways at night. He looked 3d but was black like a silhouette. Another was this creature that looked like a cross between the chupacabra and ET. It would peak around a corner then dart in the room after me, vanishing as it reached me.
I'm not afraid of the dark, but during this time I was terrified that something was in the dark that wanted to hurt me.
All of this happened right after I had just spent months training to be a cop. I was perky, energetic, impulsive, obsessed, impatient and more. I felt like I could do anything.
I had went back and forth between depression to a state that I thought was fine, but found out later that a lot of it was mania. On top of my still to this day, everyday believing I'm being watched.
This piece of art is great. It points out so much that someone with this mental illness feels and can be afraid of telling others for fear of rejection, or of them wanting to lock you up. I maybe on a different part of the spectrum then some. But I k ow the feeling of not knowing who your going to wake up to each day. You, mania or depression.
Thank you Naraki
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Sorry for such a late reply, I've been absent from the site lately. I hope everything is going well for you, it's difficult being diagnosed at first but at the same time such a relief knowing you can get on the path to being better. I hope this comment finds you well, andΒ I thank you for your kind words about my art.
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Capture very much about being me. Recently got some kind of diagnose, but have had it since I was about twelve, Im 30 now.Β
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Thank you for the nice comment, I wish you luck and strength in managing your diagnosis.
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I'm Bipolar as well. I've had it for six years and it is one of the most frustrating challenge of my life. You did an amazing job of catching both sides. I wish you much luck and hang in there
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Thank you so much, I wish the same to you!
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I'm bipolar too. I feel this way often. I was diagnosed early at the age of 16. I am 18 now and will be 19 in june. I am in therepy and taking meds too. I hope you live a long and fufilling life.
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Thank you, and I hope you are too. Good luck.
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im bipolar. it captures so much. nice work. and thank you.
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Thank you for that comment. It's always great to find someone who can relate.
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