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Yes, I'm keeping up with that title.
So it's already the 28th of July.
I'm currently posting this on the phone cause I'm outside selling for the Society Of The Deaf charity work.

UPDATED: 12:50PM
So now I'm on a laptop, I want to write about how I've been doing.
I have to admit, but 2019 have been a pretty hard year for me. But I think what really makes it difficult is that it is part of growing up. More responsibility is thrown onto me, being unable to comprehend what everyone is saying. Especially that my Mandarin sucks now at the same level of not keeping promises.
So about my mental + physical health. (Ignore this if you don't want me to ruin your day.)
I'm doing okay right now, but really...lots of things are going that I don't even know what to list down, it's pretty messy that I don't know if it's being "low Self-esteem", "Depression with bit of Anxiety"(Hopefully isn't fatal), forcing myself to be motivated, I never want to be a leader. Everything is jumbled up since I don't know if my brain is just basically "unhealthy" to keep up with everything.

Why am I always tired?
I don't think it's anything with a health issue, but I point out that it may be because I'm forcing myself to finish Culinary Art. I have no passion in doing so, the only reason I did this course in the first place was that I had a bad mindset to think "Starving Artists," that it should only be kept as a hobby. I would slap my 2017 self for thinking that way, I was STILL NEW TO TABLET DRAWING AS WELL THAT TIME!
Why don't I just quit?
Well, my qualification isn't really good enough to change course due to my local language Malay. I probably can't even get in college in the first place. Plus, I'm already in the Culinary Art course for 2 years and 2 months. Until next year will be my internship.
I'm already fed up that I was told to join the competition, I was guilt trip to join. Yes, it should be a good opportunity but really is the big reason why I never have time to even relax. Like, everyone in my class can relax cause they didn't even have to do shit about it. I didn't even want to be an executive chef, I'm just doing it to get the paper and not waste my living breath. I have said no. I don't even have the pleasure to eat or push myself to talk to anyone really. So, this is as summarized as I can get. Please don't talk to me about it, just know this is basically what it is. I don't really know my future. <-- imagine this not depressing, it's fine sooooo. YUP.

Now to the good part.
SO the drawing, I wanted to finish it properly but my laptop already got laggy when I continue on.
I had to finish it when I saw how my actual B-Day slice of the cake look like.

I gotta leave again, so let me list the characters from top to bottom, left to right.

Peeps (Updated)
Dragon personified by , Song Jaegu (not real name), Alif, Aaron.
Cece Liddell with , Caelin Liddell with , Myself, Kris DC800, Shea Kane
the best potato human ever, Lance Corporal Dororo, (Little) Spiderman, Cryaotic, Calculester, Bella Elephant, Pepe Le Pew (too small)
Plus my potatoful girls Happy birthday!! And the party will start when

Description
Yes, I'm keeping up with that title.
So it's already the 28th of July.
I'm currently posting this on the phone cause I'm outside selling for the Society Of The Deaf charity work.

UPDATED: 12:50PM
So now I'm on a laptop, I want to write about how I've been doing.
I have to admit, but 2019 have been a pretty hard year for me. But I think what really makes it difficult is that it is part of growing up. More responsibility is thrown onto me, being unable to comprehend what everyone is saying. Especially that my Mandarin sucks now at the same level of not keeping promises.
So about my mental + physical health. (Ignore this if you don't want me to ruin your day.)
I'm doing okay right now, but really...lots of things are going that I don't even know what to list down, it's pretty messy that I don't know if it's being "low Self-esteem", "Depression with bit of Anxiety"(Hopefully isn't fatal), forcing myself to be motivated, I never want to be a leader. Everything is jumbled up since I don't know if my brain is just basically "unhealthy" to keep up with everything.

Why am I always tired?
I don't think it's anything with a health issue, but I point out that it may be because I'm forcing myself to finish Culinary Art. I have no passion in doing so, the only reason I did this course in the first place was that I had a bad mindset to think "Starving Artists," that it should only be kept as a hobby. I would slap my 2017 self for thinking that way, I was STILL NEW TO TABLET DRAWING AS WELL THAT TIME!
Why don't I just quit?
Well, my qualification isn't really good enough to change course due to my local language Malay. I probably can't even get in college in the first place. Plus, I'm already in the Culinary Art course for 2 years and 2 months. Until next year will be my internship.
I'm already fed up that I was told to join the competition, I was guilt trip to join. Yes, it should be a good opportunity but really is the big reason why I never have time to even relax. Like, everyone in my class can relax cause they didn't even have to do shit about it. I didn't even want to be an executive chef, I'm just doing it to get the paper and not waste my living breath. I have said no. I don't even have the pleasure to eat or push myself to talk to anyone really. So, this is as summarized as I can get. Please don't talk to me about it, just know this is basically what it is. I don't really know my future. <-- imagine this not depressing, it's fine sooooo. YUP.

Now to the good part.
SO the drawing, I wanted to finish it properly but my laptop already got laggy when I continue on.
I had to finish it when I saw how my actual B-Day slice of the cake look like.

I gotta leave again, so let me list the characters from top to bottom, left to right.

Peeps (Updated)
Dragon personified by , Song Jaegu (not real name), Alif, Aaron.
Cece Liddell with , Caelin Liddell with , Myself, Kris DC800, Shea Kane
the best potato human ever, Lance Corporal Dororo, (Little) Spiderman, Cryaotic, Calculester, Bella Elephant, Pepe Le Pew (too small)
Plus my potatoful girls Happy birthday!! And the party will start when