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LyricaBelachium In reply to McHummingbird [2013-07-26 22:17:16 +0000 UTC]

Thanks so much for the encouragement! You have no idea how much it means to me that someone from class says that to me. Not that many found out I think, and not that many cared anyway.

And there was even one case where a person kept rubbing it in my face to make me feel inferior.

So it really means a lot to me that you took your time to write that *hugs* you're a very kind person.

I will work hard to see you guys again, and then maybe I can challange you again for fooseball : )

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McHummingbird In reply to LyricaBelachium [2013-07-27 08:48:06 +0000 UTC]

I honestly don't think that many people knew about it, I didn't realize something was off until after the groups were published and I didn't see your name on there.

As for the person rubbing in it your face; that's a clear cut case of cutting your losses with a person who doesn't bring anything to the table. I've done that I've done that a fair few times! It's just a matter of making their presence in your mind equal to dirt and not give two shits about what they think or say. And then take the high road if ever needed

I'm happy to hear that you've found a different housing arrangement, I'm sure you'll be very happy! I was rooming with another person from CG for a year and it really didn't work .. for about a year I was unhappy being at home. I've moved out now as well and it's SUCH a relief to have a place you feel comfortable to call home. You'll too!

I'll take your word for that rematch! Looking forward

Sorry the rant!! I think I can relate to some of the stuff you're going through, although a lot of stuff differs ofcourse. Really really hope you'll be back next year  

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LyricaBelachium In reply to McHummingbird [2013-07-27 11:57:04 +0000 UTC]

its ok, I don't mind at all, we really ought to talk more times I'm just a little too shy sometimes...
anyway yes, I agree with you, people like that are not even dirt to me, they don't deserve aknoledement for their existance and are honestly below anyone if they can be the way they are.
Its not worth losing time with them, which is why I'm just like "well okay, keep that in your head I don't care, just let me move out and never see your face again".

which is why I am COMPLETLY fine with being kicked out (and actually relieved.)

I am moving in with stine, fah and katharina, and they're all really nice people( plus they have two fat adorable cats 8D yayyy).

hopefully it will allow me to focus on school better next year and not so much in slaving at home.

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McHummingbird In reply to LyricaBelachium [2013-07-27 17:33:12 +0000 UTC]

It might not seem like it, but I used to be incredibly shy too, when I went to the drawing academy I could hardly talk to half my group without blushing and feeling ridiculous for even opening my mouth to begin with. Since then I took to some drastic measures to get used to talking to people more openly and casually and it paid off despite many embarrassing stories and mishaps in the process.. 

What I mean by this little anecdote is, that unless people are forward with me I hardly ever tend to make first contact due to old shyness habits.. Probably why we haven't talked all that much if that's your "game" too, right?  Stine, Fah and Katharina are all amazingly sweet, I'm sure it'll be a better fit for you I really hope you're to return to make the best of the final year. I'm sure the past bad experience you just had to endure might seem like a good excuse to call it quits with the school... But awesome would a comeback from all that be?? If anything you have the right attitude about the worth of the nonbeliever (hehe), now it's just moving on from there bad relationships doesn't deserve to defeat you in your attempt to get an education, we don't know each other all that well, but I'm pretty damn sure THAT'S something you'll live to regret

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LyricaBelachium In reply to McHummingbird [2013-07-27 18:48:21 +0000 UTC]

Yes, shyness is still very much "my game", I am more the type that slowly grows confident around people. (mie and stine have been the ones I am most comfortable with so far). I am doing my own efforts to be a little more open.

But my sociophobia makes it hard to join some things like the hogni parties and all. (but I try).

sadly this is often mistaken by anger or plain being scary (wtv...).

oh well, I am working on it, one step at a time.

You do give me the impression of a very outgoing person, but I did see your shy side at the beggining of the first year too, I think you went a long way from one to the other

and yeah, I'm not gonna let that stop me from trying, and god damn not even lana's gonna tell me otherwise.

I am having to work on 4 assignments until the 4th of august when I have to repeat my exam, stine and mie have been helping me out a LOT by giving me tons of feedback. 

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McHummingbird In reply to LyricaBelachium [2013-07-27 19:44:58 +0000 UTC]

Oh I know that, I'm the same.. every time at any new place it takes time to get comfortable around the new people and get a feel of the group you're dealing with. It's not super effective, but I find it usually makes the relationships you do end up building to be stronger. Kinda like with what you have with Stine and Mie I guess? I actually think its quite normal although your phobia can't have made it any easier for you. BUT you were there at the summer party and your costume was fantastic!! .. I was quite drunk but I remember being completely enamoured with it but its great that you're making an effort, small steps are still steps in the right direction as for Lana; she is a piece of work, and her lack of professionalism thankfully isn't something we'll have to deal with again! I'm looking forward to see how thing will turn out, really hope you'll be back

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LyricaBelachium In reply to McHummingbird [2013-07-27 21:20:10 +0000 UTC]

ty about the costume comment, yours was quite the looker as well, almost everyone got the reference (and those that didnt, were quickly informed XD).
And you honestly didnt look as drunk as marion...    ._. michelle lea and I had to run away from her cuz she kept trying to water us like plants but with beer.

and yes, Lana is a peice of work, its partially her fault that I am failing, because she failed to inform me that I urgently needed to work on some things. and what did she have to say at the end?

"yes, you're right, I should have told you. but I didn't so there. Now what are you going to do about failing?" and it ends there.

:/

honestly from the meetings I had to have with her, michelle nardone and Anja about this matter, those two aren't much better than Lana herself. So be on your toes around them I guess. they're very hypocritical.

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McHummingbird In reply to LyricaBelachium [2013-07-28 08:50:51 +0000 UTC]

Haha oh Marion...

Oh wow, that's just.. Horrid. I guess the schools laid back attitude is all fine and dandy as long as you're on the 'right' side of things. Thanks for the heads up

I had a very unpleasant experience with Lana as well, in Annecy of all places. She offhandedly told me that maybe I'd have to rewrite my reflection paper, she wasn't sure yet. She'd let me know once she read my analysis paper, to see if I had addressed some of the things that she felt was lacking for the exam there..

That's ... just great, thanks for the worry of an added workload, leaving me in limbo here.. She didn't say anything about it in the end and I didn't have to rewrite it.

But why the hell would she tell me that she was CONSIDERING failing my paper? How the flying fuck was I able to use that piece of info while in FRANCE? That really did my head in.

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LyricaBelachium In reply to McHummingbird [2013-07-28 10:26:13 +0000 UTC]

how do you even fail the reflection paper?! o.O thats nuts.... you sure she wasn't already drunk?
I spent my self study weeks (in the quadroped week) ASKING her continuously if I should spend the time to remake my first exam, cuz I had failed it. she kept telling me no, and to focus on what I wanted for my portfolio, so I did.
Then now when I had this last meeting they were all like "WHY DIDNT YOU USE YOUR TIME TO DO IT?! YOU SHOULD HAVE DONE IT YOU IDIOT!EVEN IF LANA TOLD YOU TO DO SOMETHING ELSE YOU SHOULD HAVE STILL DONE IT!"

I'm just...yeah....hyprocasy ahoy.

Lana was a TERRIBLE coordinator. Its a shame our class is terrible at being honest with those things and actually criticize her.

they're just TOO nice sometimes. I didn't even write her evaluation paper or anything. they kinda just crossed me out from there and excluded me out of everything :/

when they did the list announcement thing, they hadnt even told me they werent going to put me there. That was extremely rude, and although I contained myself, mie started crying.

thats just no right for me.

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McHummingbird In reply to LyricaBelachium [2013-07-28 12:01:01 +0000 UTC]

Just failing the written assignments I guess? I just found her telling me with an off handed remark incredibly rude and unprofessional. She wasn't drunk, it was right at the end of MIFA and I had generously (if I may say so myself) obliged her and some other dude to miss out on a screening with the other to help them take down our booth which took bloody ages.. The thanks? A side serving of guilt to end the trip on. Delightful.

I guess the majority of the class hasn't got the same bad experience as you which is a shame, because the shortcomings that a lot of people ARE aware of are actually pretty terrible when exacerbated, like your situation.

man that really doesn't sit right with me, I'm so sorry :/ 

Again, despite all the shit you've had to take for them, I really hope you'll co,e back to finish your degree.. If anything you'll have a bachelor to show for. TAW is only the first step anyway, right?

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LyricaBelachium In reply to McHummingbird [2013-07-28 12:49:02 +0000 UTC]

yeah, not to mention I want to prove them wrong. it seems they spent the entire year convinced that I hated 3D just because I was struggling...(I don't hate it at all).

and even when I told them twice that it wasn't that way, they didn't believe me.

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LyricaBelachium In reply to Esper-Isotopes [2013-07-21 16:41:25 +0000 UTC]

was thinking of filing the occasion :3

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