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Managed to get some practice in today since my mood's been alright and it's been easier, just experimenting with colors. I like how this turned out so I might try to use colors more often instead of injecting them with filters on my work.
I've been stressed out and lethargic lately these past few days and trying to get my head in the game and do some drawing so I don't lose muscle memory. I don't trust myself to work on commissions in that state so I'm sorry that your art is coming in slow. Hopefully I'll be out of this environment soon. It isn't as bad as it was on the 10th-17th but I can't really risk going through that again.

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VENT INCOMING

Essentially what happened was my dad came home and started breaking and throwing stuff at the wall, trashing the place. With how he was acting, I assumed we had gotten in trouble and were about to be evicted. It turns out, my "summer job" of keeping the house clean and watching the kids wasn't literally a summer job and instead of talking to me about it he would rather just pitch a fit. And still not talk to me about what was wrong. The days after that were pretty stressful too. He was being really cruel to the kids and his general moodiness kept me and everyone else tense. I assume he told my brother to shut off the internet to spite me and I was only really able to contact 3 people who could only tell my other friends why I suddenly got quiet. The next day I walked to a starbucks to let everyone know where I went in case I wasn't able to get the internet back on. He also started making passive aggressive posts about getting me to pay rent, which isn't really fair considering my 21 year old brother doesn't pay for it either. Now that the kids are going back to school I have become essentially useless to him and now he wants to use me for money. Awesome.

He has still been acting a little out there. I learned from one of his exes that he is manipulative and will throw a fit to scare you into getting what he wants and then acting sad to pull you back in out of empathy. A lot of the men on my dads side seem to be really good at pulling tears out of their ass. Whether he is actually sorry or not, I couldn't care. I don't have the strength for people like that anymore and I wouldn't shed a tear if he died. He has been known to abuse the women in his life, including my mother.

It's really been hell here. I cannot wait to leave.

Description
Managed to get some practice in today since my mood's been alright and it's been easier, just experimenting with colors. I like how this turned out so I might try to use colors more often instead of injecting them with filters on my work.
I've been stressed out and lethargic lately these past few days and trying to get my head in the game and do some drawing so I don't lose muscle memory. I don't trust myself to work on commissions in that state so I'm sorry that your art is coming in slow. Hopefully I'll be out of this environment soon. It isn't as bad as it was on the 10th-17th but I can't really risk going through that again.

www.facebook.com/lllannah

lllannah.tumblr.com/

VENT INCOMING

Essentially what happened was my dad came home and started breaking and throwing stuff at the wall, trashing the place. With how he was acting, I assumed we had gotten in trouble and were about to be evicted. It turns out, my "summer job" of keeping the house clean and watching the kids wasn't literally a summer job and instead of talking to me about it he would rather just pitch a fit. And still not talk to me about what was wrong. The days after that were pretty stressful too. He was being really cruel to the kids and his general moodiness kept me and everyone else tense. I assume he told my brother to shut off the internet to spite me and I was only really able to contact 3 people who could only tell my other friends why I suddenly got quiet. The next day I walked to a starbucks to let everyone know where I went in case I wasn't able to get the internet back on. He also started making passive aggressive posts about getting me to pay rent, which isn't really fair considering my 21 year old brother doesn't pay for it either. Now that the kids are going back to school I have become essentially useless to him and now he wants to use me for money. Awesome.

He has still been acting a little out there. I learned from one of his exes that he is manipulative and will throw a fit to scare you into getting what he wants and then acting sad to pull you back in out of empathy. A lot of the men on my dads side seem to be really good at pulling tears out of their ass. Whether he is actually sorry or not, I couldn't care. I don't have the strength for people like that anymore and I wouldn't shed a tear if he died. He has been known to abuse the women in his life, including my mother.

It's really been hell here. I cannot wait to leave.