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Hello, everyone ;u;

Thank you so much for all the b-day wishes and for everyone who participated in my last adoptable raffle!

I just wanted to post a commission I've been working on for the last few weeks when I was trying to fight anemia before I go back to my current commissions and attempt to finish them before the 31st. I'll also try to finish CG samples for my art raffle later this week, as there will be more art prizes
I need to reply to r3nisa 's and Michelle's messages, too I'm so sorry for being such an introverted scatterbrain that takes forever to type something

I had a lot of fun with this commission because of the creative freedom I was given. Being able to design oriental costumes is kind of a dream of mine (this is why I keep drawing Meiwu Xing adopts )
Laura linked me my own adoptables for the costume ideas and color palette, so design-wise, it was pretty fun to do. The more difficult portions were capturing her family's likeness and having a presentable composition. And while I did really like the background I created on the left, as well as the 1st version of the commission, I'm glad that I was able to learn a little more about capturing likeness with my own stylization with the 2nd draft. It took me quite a while to ink and CG everything but I'm glad that I conjured up enough strength and had enough drive to finish it properly for Laura.

And this is rather personal but I wanted to strive harder on this commission so that I could improve by even a tiny bit to fix older ones. That came from my own sense of inadequacy, because last year and this year, I felt looked down upon. At the first Artist Alley I sold in, many people did not want to share with me beforehand, and when I was able to buy a table, they suddenly flocked to my dA. And, I admit, although I had bad sales that year, one artist selling adjacent to me did not have to rub it in my face while chatting with one of the bouncers near the con. I understand that she was young, but it was still rather hurtful. If not for my extremely considerate and encouraging table partner, Min, I would have given up trying to sell anywhere afterwards.

This year, I was determined to draw a bit more, because online, I did get discouraged by some people who were arrogant towards me but loved basking in the limelight otherwise and often made me feel like I was worthless as a person and an artist. It's surprising what a simple phrase would trigger if you're an overly-sensitive person. And so, I unwatched those people and tried drawing more often after my last finals. At the local con, even though I was a bit nervous sitting there when my friend LaBFind and his sister taytaykudo had to go home, I was very grateful that I was able to sell a lot more than I expected and were given nice comments, because there comes a time when you do get some self-confidence and are just joyous at the mere fact that yes, people do like what you create. Even if it's less than a dozen people, or just one person, there's someone out there encouraging you and supporting your work.

And, this part really touched me right here, but one of the Campus Gamer club members at my uni actually bought one of my Zelda prints at the local con. I have gone to each public event outside of the "Extra Life" charity events they have held for the last 3 years because I'm not a hard-core gamer and can't play anything for more than 3 hours Q^Q, and they have always done such selfless things. So selfless, that the club actually rented out a booth at the local con to sign up people for the gaming charity event taking place in October. I really wanted to do something to help out Campus Gamers after AX.

This leads me to AX, where, despite a whole bunch of horrible things happening (health-wise...and not getting prints shipped on time despite paying extra for rush delivery), it was rather fun. Being able to meet Haley, Jude, Ren, Mango, Tan-chan, Resa, and Rins helped me cherish enough happy memories to last years. I can't wait to meet everyone again next year (I'm actually saving the con details for a journal entry that I'm still writing )

But the point is, despite me being discouraged by a multitude of things, I do want to improve in order to help out people and causes I really care for. I know that I'm not super-influential or popular, but I don't want that to discourage me from striving harder for art, especially when my art professors, more than any family members ever have, also encouraged me.

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To everyone who has ever been discouraged by anyone else in any form, please know that you're not alone--these people can hurt you once or a few times, but you're the one who endures, and you're the one who can improve. Never let the negative feelings linger long, because you do have the ability to better yourself.

Thank you to anyone who had enough patience to read this until the very end!

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Description
Hello, everyone ;u;

Thank you so much for all the b-day wishes and for everyone who participated in my last adoptable raffle!

I just wanted to post a commission I've been working on for the last few weeks when I was trying to fight anemia before I go back to my current commissions and attempt to finish them before the 31st. I'll also try to finish CG samples for my art raffle later this week, as there will be more art prizes
I need to reply to r3nisa 's and Michelle's messages, too I'm so sorry for being such an introverted scatterbrain that takes forever to type something

I had a lot of fun with this commission because of the creative freedom I was given. Being able to design oriental costumes is kind of a dream of mine (this is why I keep drawing Meiwu Xing adopts )
Laura linked me my own adoptables for the costume ideas and color palette, so design-wise, it was pretty fun to do. The more difficult portions were capturing her family's likeness and having a presentable composition. And while I did really like the background I created on the left, as well as the 1st version of the commission, I'm glad that I was able to learn a little more about capturing likeness with my own stylization with the 2nd draft. It took me quite a while to ink and CG everything but I'm glad that I conjured up enough strength and had enough drive to finish it properly for Laura.

And this is rather personal but I wanted to strive harder on this commission so that I could improve by even a tiny bit to fix older ones. That came from my own sense of inadequacy, because last year and this year, I felt looked down upon. At the first Artist Alley I sold in, many people did not want to share with me beforehand, and when I was able to buy a table, they suddenly flocked to my dA. And, I admit, although I had bad sales that year, one artist selling adjacent to me did not have to rub it in my face while chatting with one of the bouncers near the con. I understand that she was young, but it was still rather hurtful. If not for my extremely considerate and encouraging table partner, Min, I would have given up trying to sell anywhere afterwards.

This year, I was determined to draw a bit more, because online, I did get discouraged by some people who were arrogant towards me but loved basking in the limelight otherwise and often made me feel like I was worthless as a person and an artist. It's surprising what a simple phrase would trigger if you're an overly-sensitive person. And so, I unwatched those people and tried drawing more often after my last finals. At the local con, even though I was a bit nervous sitting there when my friend LaBFind and his sister taytaykudo had to go home, I was very grateful that I was able to sell a lot more than I expected and were given nice comments, because there comes a time when you do get some self-confidence and are just joyous at the mere fact that yes, people do like what you create. Even if it's less than a dozen people, or just one person, there's someone out there encouraging you and supporting your work.

And, this part really touched me right here, but one of the Campus Gamer club members at my uni actually bought one of my Zelda prints at the local con. I have gone to each public event outside of the "Extra Life" charity events they have held for the last 3 years because I'm not a hard-core gamer and can't play anything for more than 3 hours Q^Q, and they have always done such selfless things. So selfless, that the club actually rented out a booth at the local con to sign up people for the gaming charity event taking place in October. I really wanted to do something to help out Campus Gamers after AX.

This leads me to AX, where, despite a whole bunch of horrible things happening (health-wise...and not getting prints shipped on time despite paying extra for rush delivery), it was rather fun. Being able to meet Haley, Jude, Ren, Mango, Tan-chan, Resa, and Rins helped me cherish enough happy memories to last years. I can't wait to meet everyone again next year (I'm actually saving the con details for a journal entry that I'm still writing )

But the point is, despite me being discouraged by a multitude of things, I do want to improve in order to help out people and causes I really care for. I know that I'm not super-influential or popular, but I don't want that to discourage me from striving harder for art, especially when my art professors, more than any family members ever have, also encouraged me.

---

To everyone who has ever been discouraged by anyone else in any form, please know that you're not alone--these people can hurt you once or a few times, but you're the one who endures, and you're the one who can improve. Never let the negative feelings linger long, because you do have the ability to better yourself.

Thank you to anyone who had enough patience to read this until the very end!

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