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HabbyRabbit — Already Dead [Tsukishima x Reader] [Mercenary!AU]

Published: 2015-06-25 03:01:12 +0000 UTC; Views: 8663; Favourites: 82; Downloads: 0
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Just a moment.

“They’re surrounding us.”

Wait.

“Hey Tsukki, are you listening? If you are, please get the fuck out of here.” Her voice sounded serious, but he could tell she was smiling.

No.

“I’m happy I met you, even here. I wish we could have… I don’t know, married? Had kids? Haha, that sounds cheesy and kinda stupid.” Sometimes, the gunshots were too strong, but the blonde understood every word.

“Tsukki!” Someone harshly grabbed his shoulder. “Come on, we have to leave!”

What kind of friend are you, Yamaguchi? I won’t leave.

“She has been training hard for all this time to save you! Don’t let her effort go to waste!” The jet haired male took his friend’s arm and started walking, dragging him as if he were a rag doll.

I can’t leave her.

His headphones were still on, he could hear the sound of fire and the subtle moans of [Name], who was distracting the enemy at the other side of their base. It was a rescue mission, the Crow squad was there in order to save one of their best brains, the leader of the intelligence division.

He. Him. Tsukishima Kei.

And as much as he wanted, he couldn’t say a word. He was thirsty, his knees were trembling, his body felt weak. Four months without light and barely any food made that to him. Actually he was surprised that he still recognized the other’s faces.

“Please, just a bit more, Tsukki.” He could feel the freckled boy’s nervousness and the force he was using to get him out of here. Knowing Daichi, they were outside, with a pretty well-armed convoy, waiting for him.

But what about her?

I won’t leave her.

His legs stopped moving and he fell into the floor. Pathetic. But hey, what else could he do?

Tadashi almost falls on top of him, but managed to stay balanced. He looked around in panic, shifting his gaze from his bespectacled friend to his surroundings, and the door that lead to their presumed freedom.

“It’s so close… Fuck, come on!” Tadashi did his best to carry his comrade in bridal-style.

What the actual fuck, Yamaguchi? Get your ass back there.

But he wouldn’t stop. His steps were slower, but he was making an advance. Neither of them were a part of the assault divisions. They weren’t that strong physically. What made them special, however, was their agile minds, just like [Name], who was risking her life back there in the fire line.

“S-she... [Name]-san did her best… these four months…” Yamaguchi could barely speak, every three words he needed to take a breath. “She really wanted to… save you.”

Go get her instead, idiot!

The exit was near, and Tsukishima felt he was going to die. If he left that building, he was sure he’d leave her. And he didn’t want that. The last time they talked was before the ambush, months ago. The [h/c] haired female was happy because she changed sections with her partner and got to be with him. He never understood why, but she seemed to enjoy his company.

And the blonde could never admit he felt the same.

He could picture her, mastering the rifle with Sugawara and practising hand-to-hand combat with Kuroo. Her petite form. nearly fainting, still wanting to continue. That was how she was. Kei felt a sudden urge to smile at the idea, but he was unable too. Even the muscles of his face felt tired. He was surely at the border of death.

“Just… a bit more.” His friend was talking more to himself this time. And the sounds echoing on his mind seemed to get louder and louder.

“Hey Tsukki― um… Kei.” It was the first time she used his name. “You should be outside by now, yes? That’s good. I’m glad.”

Don’t you fucking dare, [Name] or I swear―

“There’s only three of us here and― I don’t think we’re going to last that long. Kageyama has done a great job supporting us from outside, please thank him later.” Her voice was trembling, he noticed. When she mentioned the jet haired sniper, he heard a faint laugh. Even in a moment like this...  

Suddenly, his sight became white.

He was outside.

They made it out safely.

“I think I made myself clear enough, but you're really dense so; I like you Tsu― Kei. I like you.”

He saw hands all over his body, he recognized his captain's face. An unknown subject placing a bottle on his lips, forcing him to drink something. A crown of silver, and lips moving.

“Everything’s gonna be alright.”

It isn’t.

She’s still there, and she won’t make it alive.

But none of them took off the headphones Yamaguchi gave him when he found him.

“I like you Kei. I like you― No! You ok!? Damn it!”

Why.

“I like― no. I love you ok? I love you so damn mu―”

Her voice abruptly stopped.

He knew already, but he understood when it was too late. A suicidal mission wasn’t something new for them. Sometimes, sacrifices had to be made.

Why did you fucking save me?

The humvee started and he saw the building he spent months as a prisoner disappearing within the distance. Her voice wasn’t there anymore, and after some meters, he only heard a static sound.

I’m already dead.
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Comments: 21

e3eevee [2020-05-02 02:14:31 +0000 UTC]

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TrashCan22 [2016-05-04 02:05:30 +0000 UTC]

WELL THERE GOES MY HEART  

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52heartfilia [2015-07-30 03:45:31 +0000 UTC]

Well. I didn't need my heart, you know.

Stupid Youtube playlist. It was on "Still Here" by Digital Daggers. I WANT TO KILL THE SCREEN RIGHT NOW.

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staryice In reply to 52heartfilia [2016-07-14 18:29:20 +0000 UTC]

Oh i know that song...damn, that must have hurt ;_;

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Macaronz [2015-06-28 12:03:46 +0000 UTC]

SCREAMS BC MERCENARY!AU
CRIES BC TSUKKI MY POOR BBY

holy cow this was beautifully written ;o;

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HabbyRabbit In reply to Macaronz [2015-06-28 19:00:24 +0000 UTC]

mervenary au more like my personal hell. yes, welcome
aaaaa thank you so much♥♥♥ ; v ;

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caeilius [2015-06-26 22:56:37 +0000 UTC]

i have no words to describe how i feel but I'm still going to talk anyway because THIS WAS ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC. I've been trying to write a story like this for months. This keeps you on a thread, wondering what happens to the reader, and what the hell is happening to Tsukishima. It starts off slow, like hey what's going on, and then it pulls you in by dragging you into the action and in Tsukishima’s thoughts. I like how it was paced, and I love tje flow of dialogue with the reader's confession, and especially how you kept everything MOVING. Like I felt like Tsukki. Am I dying? What's happening? Oh. We're outside. Where is she? Where is she? I LIKED THAT. I WAS SO INTRIGUED WITH THE WHOLE STORY AND IT WAS WRITTEN SO WELL. I love the angst and the heartbreak. Tsukki couldn't let go and he died inside and he didn't even get to tell her how he felt. This was a wonderful story okay. I'm ecstatic that I had the opportunity to read it. Thank you for writing this I am so happy.

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HabbyRabbit In reply to caeilius [2015-06-27 00:35:12 +0000 UTC]

it WASNT OH MY GODDD
you are so fucking nice i cant even
im feeling really down and alone but yOUR COMMENT MADE ME REALLY HAPPY? 
AAAAAAAAAAA THANKS♥♥♥
i still think it's shit but you almost made me think it isn't. 
the angst kami is satisfied with my work aaaaaa so happy~♥

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JazzyKatLovesHetalia [2015-06-25 23:15:35 +0000 UTC]

I feel so emotional right now.

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iwaizumihajimeme [2015-06-25 13:11:13 +0000 UTC]

frick
frickfrickfrick

NOOOOOOO

wait yama has green hair what

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HabbyRabbit In reply to iwaizumihajimeme [2015-06-26 00:41:30 +0000 UTC]

yamaguchi has black hair often portrayed as green.
in the sopor of the moment, i just wrote it as green.

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iwaizumihajimeme In reply to HabbyRabbit [2015-06-26 02:06:08 +0000 UTC]

aaah, okay xD

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infinitydust [2015-06-25 08:33:07 +0000 UTC]

*sobs for five hours straight*
but why?
poor tsukki
all I want is the bae to be happy

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ShinoXx [2015-06-25 04:02:56 +0000 UTC]

Well, shit..!
Even though this got my poor ol' heart quivering with all kinds of awful feels, I really adore the whole idea behind this!

I bow to your stellar skills!

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AMarionetteMaid [2015-06-25 03:36:50 +0000 UTC]

I really like the emotion here! The plot is very interesting, and the words are absolute eye candy, great job!

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VersicolorQuasar [2015-06-25 03:14:34 +0000 UTC]

why tho ; v ;

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HabbyRabbit In reply to VersicolorQuasar [2015-06-25 03:16:17 +0000 UTC]

had to

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VersicolorQuasar In reply to HabbyRabbit [2015-06-25 03:20:12 +0000 UTC]

The dinosaur jokes are going into my Tsukki fic for sure then > v >

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the-TomatoBoss [2015-06-25 03:11:33 +0000 UTC]

This ain't shit! This broke my hear dammit this is wonderful!!!!!!

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HabbyRabbit In reply to the-TomatoBoss [2015-06-25 03:12:50 +0000 UTC]

"depressing fanfics" omg
thank you friend ; v ;

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the-TomatoBoss In reply to HabbyRabbit [2015-06-25 07:12:57 +0000 UTC]

Yes yes yes!!!

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