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Helloooow~ Long time no see, dA! //youbet

This is a redraw of this painting I made on 2013 >> fav.me/d5t1ndg

In case you're interested, here's the step by step >> sta.sh/017nczmsijyc

And this is also an early bday gift from myself for myself XD I rushed this because I won't have time to draw in the upcoming weeks due to work and study. And I reallyyyy wanna post something on dA again. I've been away for too long, sigh.

Honestly, I was so sad when I checked my gallery only to find out that I haven't finished anything in 2017. I was always torn between quality and quantity, should I make a better work with significantly better effort or just make a lot of casual ones? I've been really interested in painting and semi-realism style and it takes so much time to finish, I try hard to produce something good but despite the time I spend on a single drawing, I'd eventually end up so far away from my expectation. And I keep thinking, "Well, dude, why are you so messed up?"

I feel like I never put enough effort on anything I do. I always come out with 'good enough', but I can feel my work that special at all. Like on this one, I used brush for the leaf, I used free stock pasted on the moon, I used model reference, and I left it so messy because my hand already hurt from rendering. The lighting is also all over the place and the characters feel out of the background. But I was too lazy and unskilled to fix and give it more drama. Ooh, how I hate myself.

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I have a non related to painting daily job that consumed most of my time, that in the end of the day or the week I'd left out feeling so tired to do anything. In a way I'm thankful that by having non art related job, when I create art I can solely focus on my own satisfaction and use it to heal myself. But in another way, I hate to barely have any time and energy to do the thing I love.

I really want to draw more, create more, making more story and illustration of my characters because I love them so much.. I have to keep learning and practicing so I can draw them properly and give them stuff they deserve.. ;__;
I hope this year become a good year. Since I'll undergo some sort of job training and I'll continue my study this year I might find it hard to keep creating, but godspeed! There's a silver lining in every affliction. I hope what I experience will shape me into a better person, and a better artist..

Sorry for the rant! Thanks for stopping by, I hope you have a good day!

Oh, and if you're interested to see my daily sketches (and rants lel) please kindly visit my instagram : eloirien.

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Ragna Azure and Aaron Wilder is belong to Eloirien (me)

Description
Helloooow~ Long time no see, dA! //youbet

This is a redraw of this painting I made on 2013 >> fav.me/d5t1ndg

In case you're interested, here's the step by step >> sta.sh/017nczmsijyc

And this is also an early bday gift from myself for myself XD I rushed this because I won't have time to draw in the upcoming weeks due to work and study. And I reallyyyy wanna post something on dA again. I've been away for too long, sigh.

Honestly, I was so sad when I checked my gallery only to find out that I haven't finished anything in 2017. I was always torn between quality and quantity, should I make a better work with significantly better effort or just make a lot of casual ones? I've been really interested in painting and semi-realism style and it takes so much time to finish, I try hard to produce something good but despite the time I spend on a single drawing, I'd eventually end up so far away from my expectation. And I keep thinking, "Well, dude, why are you so messed up?"

I feel like I never put enough effort on anything I do. I always come out with 'good enough', but I can feel my work that special at all. Like on this one, I used brush for the leaf, I used free stock pasted on the moon, I used model reference, and I left it so messy because my hand already hurt from rendering. The lighting is also all over the place and the characters feel out of the background. But I was too lazy and unskilled to fix and give it more drama. Ooh, how I hate myself.

--

I have a non related to painting daily job that consumed most of my time, that in the end of the day or the week I'd left out feeling so tired to do anything. In a way I'm thankful that by having non art related job, when I create art I can solely focus on my own satisfaction and use it to heal myself. But in another way, I hate to barely have any time and energy to do the thing I love.

I really want to draw more, create more, making more story and illustration of my characters because I love them so much.. I have to keep learning and practicing so I can draw them properly and give them stuff they deserve.. ;__;
I hope this year become a good year. Since I'll undergo some sort of job training and I'll continue my study this year I might find it hard to keep creating, but godspeed! There's a silver lining in every affliction. I hope what I experience will shape me into a better person, and a better artist..

Sorry for the rant! Thanks for stopping by, I hope you have a good day!

Oh, and if you're interested to see my daily sketches (and rants lel) please kindly visit my instagram : eloirien.

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Ragna Azure and Aaron Wilder is belong to Eloirien (me)