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crushasphyxia — love is for chumps
Published: 2009-10-21 02:02:54 +0000 UTC; Views: 531; Favourites: 15; Downloads: 3
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secret zerozero one

all i want is to not want.
i want to not care. i want
to be totally nonchalant
feeling hurts too much.


today i want

to get lost to be found
to go crazy to make sense
to go out to go to bed
to stay up all night to take a nap



              love isn't
perfect. it isn't fun all the time. it isn't easy, it's not always happy. it isn't all kisses on the lips and entangled fingers. love isn't looking at a girl and wanting to shred her clothes off. love isn't crying yourself to sleep every night. love isn't worth the time. love is not big boobs and a big ass and some nice curves inbetween. love isn't your heart feeling like it's collapsing in your chest. love isn't jealousy, or anger.

            love is
gorgeous. it's hard. it's the scars on your knees and the sore throats you get when you won't put on a sweater. love is leaving the house even when you feel a lot more like crying. love is waking up and remembering you have something to wake up for. love is heart tremors and hand shivers. love is watching cartoons with your baby sister on a saturday morning in your pajamas like you're a kid again. love is awkward first kisses and asking for a hug everytime you see your sweetheart. love is drinking sweet tea when it's hot and black tea when it's cold. love is runny mascara, smeared lipstick, disheveled hair and chipped red varnish on your fingertips. love is fucking over showers so you get to school on time. love is worth searching for. love is ripped jeans and holey teeshirts and mud caked on your eyes.

love is you and me
          whoever you are
                 times everything we've ever cared for.
          love is infinite.
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Comments: 27

stormclouds-gather [2009-10-28 21:55:51 +0000 UTC]

!!!!

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crushasphyxia In reply to stormclouds-gather [2009-10-29 01:29:38 +0000 UTC]


teehee. (:

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The-Bad-Hatter [2009-10-22 20:12:58 +0000 UTC]

This sums up perfectly how I'm feeling right now. Thank you.

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crushasphyxia In reply to The-Bad-Hatter [2009-10-22 22:54:17 +0000 UTC]


aww, i'm glad you liked it. (:

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little-van [2009-10-22 17:15:05 +0000 UTC]

wow..this is (in my opinion) the best thing you've ever written. I absolutly love it!
i cant really explain why...maybe it's the contrast? maybe it's because there's a piece of happy?

but now, i feel like the world is okay. THANKS!

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crushasphyxia In reply to little-van [2009-10-22 22:53:36 +0000 UTC]


haha aww, thank you lovelyyy...
and yeah, i really liked it too
even though it has no structure
and stuff

haha aww!! that's so sweeettt.
thank youuu, times eleven, and
there's always hapiness in the
world! everything is always okay!

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little-van In reply to crushasphyxia [2009-10-23 07:32:03 +0000 UTC]

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losingmyfaith [2009-10-22 02:00:32 +0000 UTC]

aw

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crushasphyxia In reply to losingmyfaith [2009-10-22 22:47:41 +0000 UTC]

hehehe

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GlitterNarcotic [2009-10-21 23:38:48 +0000 UTC]

i always favourite without commenting,
because i can't find the words to say
about your writing. i love it
so much, &i so wish i could
write half as good as you.



again,
amazing work.

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crushasphyxia In reply to GlitterNarcotic [2009-10-22 22:47:34 +0000 UTC]


i wish you would try.
i always love your
comments. and please,
i fucking love your
writing chickaaa. it's
flawless. always.

i love ya.

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GlitterNarcotic In reply to crushasphyxia [2009-10-23 02:14:47 +0000 UTC]

okayokay,
i'll try.

& pshh,
yeah right.


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alexisasylumxm [2009-10-21 22:10:23 +0000 UTC]

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crushasphyxia In reply to alexisasylumxm [2009-10-22 01:30:06 +0000 UTC]


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xxbrokenmemories [2009-10-21 21:22:20 +0000 UTC]

this is gorgeous, especially the two last stanzas. fantastically done.

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crushasphyxia In reply to xxbrokenmemories [2009-10-21 21:54:46 +0000 UTC]


aww, thanks darling.

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faithaholic [2009-10-21 20:27:57 +0000 UTC]

Love!

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crushasphyxia In reply to faithaholic [2009-10-21 21:54:36 +0000 UTC]

good! :'D

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ersatz-moon [2009-10-21 09:27:07 +0000 UTC]

contradiction is beautiful
though the words sound terribly familiar.
in my mind perhaps.

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crushasphyxia In reply to ersatz-moon [2009-10-21 21:54:27 +0000 UTC]


they weren't the most original words i've ever written.

glad you liked it.

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L-forever [2009-10-21 03:57:04 +0000 UTC]

i agree with you. i really, really do.

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crushasphyxia In reply to L-forever [2009-10-21 21:59:27 +0000 UTC]


i'm glad i'm not the only one

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L-forever In reply to crushasphyxia [2009-10-22 18:42:28 +0000 UTC]

me too.

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NightlyLies [2009-10-21 02:41:25 +0000 UTC]

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crushasphyxia In reply to NightlyLies [2009-10-21 03:29:58 +0000 UTC]


P:

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Solaces [2009-10-21 02:12:18 +0000 UTC]

Lovely.

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crushasphyxia In reply to Solaces [2009-10-21 03:29:47 +0000 UTC]


iiii'm glad you liked it

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