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blaze-huskie β I Still Feel You
Published: 2004-09-16 19:29:18 +0000 UTC; Views: 4281; Favourites: 140; Downloads: 1232
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im sooo emo :c here's the deal... i broke up with my boyfriend Barry (aka Carnage the Skunk) in the beginning of June. We had been together for almost 21 months. He was a major part of my life until curiousity took hold and I wanted to see what else was out there, particularly this guy I worked with. I really was attracted to him, so I took the leap and broke it off with Barry. It turns out that this other guy, Rusty, wasn't what I expected. He was immature, conceited and not my type. I had to figure that out for myself though, because if not I would be left asking, "what if?" I don't regret anything I have done... but its not to say I miss what me and Barry shared. It was a slap in the face this morning, when Kristen, Jording, Jeff and I were on our way to the CTC. We passed the Highschool and I saw him walking to the doors. He was tall and his hair was so much longer and he was beautiful. I felt this surge of emotion, it was good and bad at the same time. It was an incredible feeling because I realized that this guy still had my heart, and always did. I turned around to Jeff and said, "I miss Barry soooo much." From this point I turned back around and started crying. Here I thought I had let go, but a part of me is still holding on. This drawing was theraputic in a sense... I tried my best to spill my emotions on this 8x11 peice of computer paper. The lyrics are to Tool(song title "H") and the irony of it, was that this song was playing when all of this occured. I thought it fit perfectly. Barry's fursona in here is meant to look like a ghost, or a memory maybe. My hands are bloody from a sore heart and the room is dark because I feel lost right now. I guess I need some time to think. I love this boy and I know I always will, no matter what. well... I am done rambling now... enjoy... and PLEASE, no rude comments right now, I fear my emotional stability is far to frail right now to handle any harsh criticism. Thanks. please forgive the poor scanning qualityBlaze's pose inspired from this ---> [link]
Blaze and Art (c) Sarah L. Butler
Carnage (c) Barry Hornberger
Lyrics (c) Tool
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Comments: 91
wow, this pic just called out to me. You can really sense the deep feelings behind it, and i recognize myself in both the pic, lyrics and emotional state. I hope you've found away out of the darkness <3
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O_O wow. this hits me like a brick wall. really awesome job on this. :3
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awwww I'm sooooo sorry! i tried to do this same thing when i found out my boyfriend was cheating on me but what came out was.....kinda scary...and gorey ._. so i didn't upload it on DA
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your picture and story made me cry!
Your emotions are portrayed so well, amazingly done
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This is just absolutely beautiful--the Tool lyrics definitely fit this piece.
*Is a Tool-junkie*
Instant fav!
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Powerful work. I love the pose and the ghostly image of he who is gone. Really wonderful stuff.
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Wow, this is a verry powerfull piece you have here. I love the art but it was the acompanying naration that made me fave it. Well done. Looking at the date I see it has been a while since then, how have things turned out between you and him ?
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Random greetings^^ very cool artwork uve got there i like this one the best i dunno y bye^^
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poor puppy.......here *hugs and gives BBQ doggy bone*
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Such raw emotion..
Such awe inspiring feel to the overall piece.
Simply astounding Blaze...
you capture not only emotion with your bright and vibrant colors and dynamic poses, but you catch other's attention as well. quite impressive.
I give you my condolences for your feelings, but im afraid that is all I can give to you besides my compliments.
feel better. <333
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i know exsactly how that feels *hug*
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i think your picture is wonderful. i feel that it addiquitly depicts how many feel after something like that...
i've been though the "what if?" question before... and broken up with some good b/fs to find terrible ones.... but... things always seem to have a way of working out. i hope only the best for you! feel better!!
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lovely use of colours, and techniques. It looks so beautiful. and te emotions a very strong. I like--Love it.
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Blaze, I can connect to this. I was forced to break up with my boyfriend of 3 years, 1 month ago. This reminds me of how I felt afterwards, but it is not just on one side in this story, it is on both. See, my dad didn't like him because he was soo different from what he "expected" of me, but what could I do? He was my best friend for 5 years and I would've trusted him with my life. He was the only guy who saw the REAL me and not the fake face that I put on to please people and liked me. His family basically adopted my brother and I since I was 12 because my mother was hardly ever there and they were very kind to us. His whole family wants me back and I want to be with them, but since my dad doesn't agree with my decision, I have to wait till I am 18 to even see him again. *tears well up in her eyes just telling this story* I know you may not care or do care, but I just wanted to get that out there. Thanx for listening to me babble. Best wishes to you and your family.
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im very sorry to hear about that. its hard losing someone you've been connected to like that for a long time, and for kids our age, relationships that last one year or more, that is a long time! barry and i didn't work out, but without him in my life, i wouldnt be the person i am today. he taught me how to love myself, and life. i hope everything works out for you hunny. thanks for the comment.
**Blaze
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You are very welcome.
Thanx for listening to my story. I don't like telling it much though.
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Emotions are streaming everywhere. As I looked at this picture I began to think alot about everything including past relationships that were broken off. I know how it fells to have those fellings. I sometimes wish things where the same but I rather keep going on in life then look back on what was, because all its going to do is make the feelings you had worse. Sorry if this is a really really late post, I just wanted to say a few words. Hope everythings great now.
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I just found your gallery.... and wow. What an amazing picture. I had to +fav! I get that way... with my boyfriend. He lives in another state, and I love him so much, it kills me. He feels like a ghost... a shadow... something I can see but can't touch. I feel so alone, but when I hear from him, it's like it all falls back into place. I wish he were here, or me there, but that isn't possible unless one of us from away to be together. -sigh- I've thought about that often, but something holds me back. I hope in the end, we'll be together, forever. I love him that much.
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Hm. Never give up on anyone youΒ΄re really happy with. i couldnΒ΄t even imagine letting my Gemmy go for any guy on earth. <3 At least the pain we must sometimes suffer lets us create wonderful art, such as this. Have strengh.
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This is so moving. I don't know whether to cry or applaud you first. I'm going through a similar stage.. I have an understanding of just how much this hurts, and though I don't know you, I -really- hope things get better for you. Time is really a heart-mender and I hope time treats you with great care and respect <3 take care of yourself
-almost forgot to comment on the piece X) Beautiful lyrics (they fit perfectly), wonderful perspective, <3 your hair, and I love the symbolism
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Tis amazing... nothing else can be said!
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What an incredible piece.
It made me cry, and I don't cry.
I don't even have words for this right now.
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The what if's allways get people in the end. I love the picture and the emotions It brings up in me.
Good luck, but yourself, your art and life in general.
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This is a really beautiful piece. I don't even know you, but I can still feel and see the emotion that was put into this.
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it has a big effect on me...i lost someone recently...he' the most important in my life.i love your picture.i hope you'll be well.
Charlotte
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I see a lot of anthro drawings which are really emotionless and boring. But your picture is fantastic. It could be about me and a boy who is the most important person in my life. I almost cried when I saw your picture. I hope you will be well...
and i'm sorry if my English is not the best.
Charlotte
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mrrr, poor blazey. I have been through simular things. it's lonely.
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my god this picture is beautiful, im amazed.. and the story behind it makes my heart hurt. I know exactly how u feel, to lose someone u love so much. Even tho we dont know eachother, i hope to god you feel better soon because nothing hurts more then heartache.. i wish you the best of luck 
and, im faving this picture because i can relate to it aswell, it was drawn and colored so perfectly, and i love the lyrics. great job on this
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wow, this is really beautiful and inspiring. i love her expreshion and he really does look like a ghost/memory.
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The emotion displayed in this picture, is captivating, enthralling and heart-wrenching at the same time,
Artists who have the talent/skill to portray what they are feeling through drawing are special.
Well done Blaze, even though you dont know me from a bar of soap, I would still like to say that I'm sorry for what
has happened, and I hope it all comes good in the end...
(btw, the coloring in this is most excellent too.. and the pose!)
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Shit man, I'm sorry that had to happen like that...
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*huggles* i hope things turn out ok. Though i think this peice is really stunning. I adore your pink nose and the coloring.
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this made me cry...its so beatiful and sad!
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God.... how many times us chicks and guys have been there....
I could feel my own heart breaking al over again just by looking at this.
You are incredibly talented sweetie.. and noone could create this emotion and not be totally sincere.. i hope everything works out.
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*flexes ears back* A beautiful peice... with so much meaning and feeling...
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This picture truely is amazing. All the details you put in it, all the emotion. Im not good with words but, people make mistakes like you know, and I hope you feel better soon. <3
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stunning work as always Blaze. the emotion is really present in this piece, i esp love the ghost figuer and the smoke. awesome background as well, and the hair is really very well done indeed. i hope you feel better soon.
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This is so beautiful, Blaze. Its so emotional and well done. I love how you drew his ghost-like form. Augh I dont know what else to say but this is really awesome.
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This is amazing. LOTS of emotion shown in this piece, I love how you drew the silhouette, and the colours go perfectly with the mood. I know I'm just some random devwatcher, but I know what it's like to still have feelings for someone after it's over, and I hope that things work out for the best. <=3
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Oh god I know what you mean. This picture is beautiful and portrays your emotions perfectly. I feel for you, babe.
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DONT BE SUCH A GAY EMO!!!!!!! Screw Love... see all it do is hurt people!!! If you where a viking Warlord like me u wouldnt have to love... you'd just pillage the nearest village if you felt lonely.... or if you was pissed...
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Oh man... I am A viking warlord... Join me and together with my norse warriors we will pillage the small town of Palmyra.... Love is for the weak!
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I seriously feel tears in my eyes, I dunno really how to comment... so I'll tell you that I love this piece, forgive but never forget.
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