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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to ??? [2008-10-20 03:48:13 +0000 UTC]
Steph...you think ALL my pictures are good XD but thanks for saying that! I was getting all depressed about htis one cuz I didn't really think it hit standards. omg, I'm freaking over my french poster cuz It's due tomorrow and...I left it till the last minute...again. I've been slaving all day
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musicmaniac247 [2008-10-19 06:07:23 +0000 UTC]
lqtm, that's funny. I think it's better than a lot of the crap that other people boast about, so don't worry. You at least have something that's worth looking at, and you're not boasting. (The opposite, actually...) That's a good thing. Give yourself a little credit, though, Hitsugaya is hard to draw...
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-10-22 03:00:56 +0000 UTC]
Hmm. I can never get his hair quite right, but sometimes I can get the eyes... And then not have the right color... Grr... I hate it when that happens. I don't have photo shop or anything, so I have to do it the old fashioned way and use markers or something like that. It's a pain in the ass, but that's how a lot of artwork in museums are put there! Either that, or by painting 'em. (And don't worry; I just kinda skimmed it)
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-10-23 04:45:59 +0000 UTC]
No kidding. That's why I'm really proud when I can do an actually good drawing, like the raven one.
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-10-24 03:22:13 +0000 UTC]
lulz, but I hate it because most people are only good/better at ONE of them, not both. it's like, either only traditional, or only digital. I think that since I have been doing traditional and it's a lot more casual with me, I'm a lot better at traditional stuff. sigh...it sucks that drawing is so hard sometimes though! XDD
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-10-26 04:08:15 +0000 UTC]
Yeah, especially when you have this amazing picture in your head and you can't get it on paper. That has to be one of the most annoying things in the world.
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-10-28 21:15:08 +0000 UTC]
No kidding! Like when I was listening to the Birthday Massacre's song Blue, I got this amazing idea for a picture and possibly story, but I couldn't get it on paper. It was so damn frustrating!!
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-10-29 02:04:15 +0000 UTC]
heard of silverstein? if not, look up smile in your sleep by them. It's like the only song I like of them (except for November, you'll love that one) but yeah! you should check it out
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-11-01 00:53:59 +0000 UTC]
lmao, ALL GUYZ...'s hands are big! and YEAH! i'm so happy for you...which I shouldn't be. well, not about the being happy for your, but for the fact that I'm happy he broke up with the slut. oohh, poor poor slut...see? I just KNOW I'm a sadist now, great! that's just great...
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-11-03 04:21:25 +0000 UTC]
It is great. Makes life entertaining. See, at least you're making an effort at being civilized towards them. They always mistake my being polite as sarcasm, when really, I'm just chanting in my head 'must not kill' over and over again. I am polite on the outside, though. They go away faster.
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-11-03 23:40:20 +0000 UTC]
ahh yes, keep that positive motivation up! we dont' want u in jail just yet. or more or less a psychological ward, but whichever. it's weird that i have so many slutty friends. goodness, it's odd thinking about this...now that I mention it, I dont' really HAVE one group of friends really. more like a whole buncha groups. I have a cpl of friends in the druggy group, a cpl in the pretty group too, quite a few in teh druggy slightly emo popular group, friends with I guess the 'left over' group, the cool popular guyz, the hilariously out there group (my group) annndd...yeah. what is THIS?!?!
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-11-04 01:14:15 +0000 UTC]
What do you mean by 'this'? I'm intruiged. But yeah, I get where you're coming from there. My friend Nickki is like that; she's friends with at least someone from every group, except for the obsessed-with-getting-an-A-even-if-I-have-to-look-at-your-answers-to-do-it group. There's a long name. Seriously, I thought it was going to be a small group, but there is tons of them! They're so annoying! I mean, being worried about your grade is one thing; cheating to get the highest grade possible and then bragging about how smart you are is another.
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-11-04 02:50:10 +0000 UTC]
OMG, we totally don't have that group but if we did, they'd seriously only last ten seconds in our school. nobody likes a person who needs to cheat to brag. if they're so desperate to do that, then I am genuinely assuming they do not have ANY talent whatsoever.
By this, I mean my weird attraction for these ppl. why do they even bother sticking with me? XD I feel as though I really don't have A personality, I have too many and I need to release them all by having friends who are girly, for my sad romantic side, need friends who are hilarious for the obvious, need my helpful friendly and smart friends for intellectual discussions about PRE-CAL! DX and etc.
It's very tiresome though. I sometimes envy you who only has to worry about just one group, one that you can relate to all the time...or most of the time, whatever
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-11-08 07:09:26 +0000 UTC]
Not necessarily. The reason I stick with one group... well, there's a lot of reasons. One is that I can't relate to anyone, and I don't go looking for someone like myself, because they simply don't exist. Piecing myself together by relating to different kinds of people is, to me, a frightening process. I don't want to have to look at other people to find myself. For some people it works, but not me. I'm way too independent and anti-social for that. Plus, I'm not the type to go out and make friends; I usually end up scaring them off. While I'll admit it's comforting to know there's someone like yourself out there, who knows what you're going through and how you handle things, I don't like people knowing what my thought process is. And in addition to that, it's constantly changing, so I don't think one, or even many, people or person could keep up. I'm just... not normal. The way I act and dress, as well as think is far different from everyone else.
Besides, I like to be different. Looking at everyone else's lives and the kind of people they turn into honestly makes me want to be even less like them. Yeah, they might be content, but I don't want to be content. I want to be thrown into adventure, and have to work my way through. I want to have to fight for my life, and the right to be what I really want to be. Which, if I told you what that was, you would probably laugh. Maybe I read too many books...
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-11-09 20:55:35 +0000 UTC]
You know I wouldn't laugh at you. especially when you're really talking from deep in your heart (god so cliche...I want to gag. I have a tendancy to talk like a script out of a bad movie DX) I was acutally smiling while I read what you wrote. I understand, but really you're more social than you think. I mean, you porbably can't remember but I have a knack for remembering things that are so pointless, but the way we met, YOU actually initiated us to be friends ^__^ I can't honestly thank that enough because we've been such good friends after that. Lmao, I already know what you want to be; a spy! or or agent, or something equally dangerous. I support you 100%! It's true that I can't confide everything about myself. I never actually have to one individual person. If everyone I knew spoke about what I'd told them, they might have generally 80% of my life. Though I don't say everything about myself, I DO need to rely on others. kills me, but it's true. some emotions just need to be let out for me.
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-11-10 06:37:08 +0000 UTC]
That's why I keep a journal; I call it a thought book, because really, if you read it, I actually talk to whoever is reading. And honestly, I don't think I've ever lied when I write in that book. All of my freaky psychic experiences, all of my embarrassing girly moments where I just need to be a teenage girl, all my dark thoughts, if I ever need a vent I just write in it. Sometimes, when I read through it again, it's hard to believe that it's me. I honestly sound like a maniac. (Which is, apparently, what I am. Eh, can't complain; it's more interesting.)
Oh, and the spy or something thing? That's actually only part true. (Embarrassing moment, but here it goes...) I want to be somebody's hero. I want people to look up to me and come to me when they have problems. An unusual thing to want to be at my age, don't you think?
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-11-10 22:46:54 +0000 UTC]
Aww! honestly, I'm SUCH a gushy person at heart (which infuriates me to no end...) but the whole hero thing is really melting my heart! it's so sweet. don't worry, you're my hero ^___^
I can't write anything in any journal. well I could; my mom encourages me to do so, but it's my paranoia that gets in my way. I mean, I could just NOT put everything-EVERYTHING in a book that someone could just open. I'm possibly too paranoid for my own good (espcially at this age) but I can't just doing that. reviewing those embarassing, or moments intriguing in my life through my head till I get bored of it, is what allows me to vent. that or talking about it to one individual, and then another problem to another that I trust equally. I never really tell everything to one person-but, seriously? you're probably the person who knows most of my secrets. it's quite frankly creepy. no offense, but i don't even know you in real life, we talk over the internet, but yet I feel as though you relate to me most >.<
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-11-11 18:22:20 +0000 UTC]
Interesting, isn't it? I feel pretty much the same way. On Gaia, this guy that I know only as Chris calls me sis, because he feels like I'm his sister. My heart almost stopped when he said that I was like a sister to him. I think I scared him when I mailed back 'A sister? Like, an older sister?!' Because, you know, I'm the youngest in my family, but I'm probably the most mature. I always wanted a little sibling, so I freaked out and got all excited. Now I get to tell people not only that I have a little brother, but that my little bro's a ninja, because he is. He took stealth classes. Cool, huh?
I understand what you mean about the journal thing, but I always hide mine when I'm done writing in it. Another thing you could try, if you wanted to write a journal, would be to keep several of them and write a different subject for each book. That way, if one of them was found, the person would only know one or two things. Make sense?
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-11-11 23:43:11 +0000 UTC]
It does. for teh journal thing, it really makes me feel like a spy. (which is partially sad) If I'm hiding something, I take it VERY extreme. try, the tinies crack in the house, try using the lead of hair trick at the door.
stealth classes, huh? that's awesome! I always feel somehow queazy and uneasy when I'm hiding. I just naturally suck at being stealthy...well okay, a lie. I am fairly good because I'm really small, but the feeling I get isn't my personal favourite.
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-11-12 04:49:08 +0000 UTC]
Really? It's one of my favorite feelings in world. I get this huge adrenaline rush, and I can move really fast, and I feel invincible. I haven't really figured out another way to get that much adrenaline, without getting caught doing something stupid. Although, at times that sounds like a good idea, just to open peoples' eyes. You know what I mean? Just, do something out of the ordinary to see how they react and remind them that I'm here.
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-11-16 04:49:30 +0000 UTC]
Oh well. We all have our hobbies, I guess. Hey, have you ended childhood?
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-11-16 23:26:37 +0000 UTC]
I dunno...I like to think that I'm catching up on the childhood I never really had. You see, even when I was young, I never really hung out with my friends out of school and rather had liked to stay in the house (much like I do now) but at least now I'm actually LEAVING the house once in a while? 0.0 I like to believe that a childhood can last for eternity, but there's a feeling that that's just naive
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-11-18 04:52:57 +0000 UTC]
That wasn't really what I meant, but it is an interesting view. I was reading a book called The Name of The Wind, and I came across this passage that was describing losing your childhood. It was talking about how when you first look forward and have thoughts of the future, of looking after yourself, that you've lost your childhood. That when you become independent you've moved past that stage to the next. Does it make any sense to you?
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-11-18 05:23:59 +0000 UTC]
I think so ^___^ it's true though, time flies by and you dont' even realize that it's gone. though how completely ironic and such a cliche thing to say, it's true.
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-11-19 05:19:38 +0000 UTC]
It's also kind of hypocritical in my eyes. Most parents are saying 'you should be a kid while you can! I know I'd like to go back to being one!' But at the same time, they're always telling you to look for your future and make plans. 'What school do you want to go to? Have you looked into any scholarships yet? You're going to college, remember? That's only four years away.' Maybe it's just that my parents have high expectations. Not that they really have to worry.
If this defination of childhood ending is correct, than I lost my childhood at a little younger than five. Sad, huh?
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-11-20 01:31:50 +0000 UTC]
lol, nah. but I feel as though it really IS something to contemplate. what really is the 'final end of your childhood?' my parents have...actually, I dunno, they're pretty-ooh, forgot the word. starts with a 'c' I think. like going one way but 'c-ing' themselves by saying the exact opposite...psh, the words I actually need always have a tendancy to disappear when I actually need them >.>
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-11-23 02:06:54 +0000 UTC]
Contradicting? Yeah, my parents do that quite a lot. I don't really blame them, though; they never actually look at the world for what it is. They're the type of people who think that god is going to save them.
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-11-28 00:34:57 +0000 UTC]
Unfortunately. *sigh* It's hard to believe that humans are the superior race sometimes. Don't we seem incredibly stupid to be doing things like we constantly do? It just doesn't make sense to me. Dolphins are almost as smart as we are, and you don't see them going around to hunt down their own species. They're quite peaceful creatures. I think that we've just got too much time on our hands, and we've lost what's really important. For example; where did the rumor of magic come from? All stories have some sort of truth to them. What was the truth in that? There has to be something.
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-11-28 20:51:24 +0000 UTC]
interesting sentance to me 'I think that we've just got too much time on our hands, and we've lost what's really important'. I can't agree more. all these wars and everything else-half of the time it's because of our human nature and our need to be superior over others, and the other times it's because with peace, nothing would change. I'm pretty sure some people out there would rather want to cause chaos than peace. that's where our problem as a society and a race lie
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-11-30 02:53:05 +0000 UTC]
I can understand looking for excitement; I do it myself, but there is a line. Chaos is fun, but not entirely worth it. But at the same time, war doesn't bother me, because I think the world is too over-populated. That's kind of what I meant when I was talking about magic and things; what if there really was magic at a time, but we, being stupid humans, have lost how to use it? I actually believe that to be true. There's all kinds of stories that tell of things like magic, that actually seem believable to me. And, in all reality, I still believe that magic is real. Sounds like something a little kid would be talking about, and all the scientists in the world would probably want to hunt me down for saying such a thing, but still.
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-11-30 19:32:10 +0000 UTC]
lol, well personally I don't think anyone should be hunting anyone down because of those reasons. It is your will of what your believe in, is it not?
I know what you mean. Our world is so over-populated and people don't realize that if they get rid or war, what are we going to do with everyone else? having complete peace isn't the right answer, but neither is complete war and chaos. I think that war is something that is needed...but I think our methods of the weapons we choose such as the nuclear bomb, isn't such a good one...Sometimes I wish we could go back to the simpler times with horses and knights, and we wouldn't have to worry about those stuff
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-12-01 00:58:02 +0000 UTC]
Tell me about it. I've always wondered what it would be like to live back then. At the same time, I think that's how it was supposed to be. Kings, knights, the whole fuedal system makes sense to me, even with the imperfections like lack of freedom. It's all natural selection. With our advanced medicines and technology, we've been cheating death for a long time. We shouldn't have been given a chance to get as far as we are now, and still people are pressing forward. Forward isn't always the best direction to go.
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-12-01 03:25:16 +0000 UTC]
That and how doing this actually doesn't create a better society. Even though our life expectancy is greater...is that really such a good thing? what will happen to our economy? the rate of homeless people and starvation will drmatically increase because our population is too great.
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-12-02 03:46:45 +0000 UTC]
Yeah. That, and there won't be anywhere that isn't populated by humans. The animals will die out, and all the things that could have happened like living with them will never actually happen. I think that animals are more interesting than humans, mainly because they have a different way of living that I don't understand. Am I making any sense?
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-12-02 23:29:06 +0000 UTC]
You are. and I think that their way of life could possibly be more 'beastly' but it's probably the best way to live. it's cruel-but it works the best. not only will they die out-we rely on them. Not only do they provide food, the provide food, for OUR food's food. the whole food chain will be disrupted and we will eventually starve ourselves. if you ask 'what about the plants? we can still live' well personally I do not want to be a vegetarian. I mean them no offence, just I personally would not want to be one. plus, our pollution will destroy them so.....
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-12-09 03:34:17 +0000 UTC]
Exactly. If we kill out the animals, then the plants will follow. That's just how this world works. Everything is supposed to work together, not against each other. It's also survival of the fitest. That's one reason why I don't like how much we're advancing; all of these cures for diseases are just us trying to cheat death.
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-12-09 05:58:48 +0000 UTC]
and by cheating death; there's a high price to pay. ourselves. we'll die eventually-that's guaranteed, however, whether we live to our full expectations and potential is a different matter. we might die before we possibly could in the future. but that's that's for the best. Nature can work out the kinks and troubles that we left behind
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-12-17 02:03:31 +0000 UTC]
Exactly. People don't seem to accept the fact that all of us will die at some point. In some cases, a lot sooner than later. The reject it, because it scares them. Really, I doubt there's anything to fear.
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-12-17 02:46:45 +0000 UTC]
Exactly. We'll all die. and has anyone of those people read Everlasting or whatever that cheesy love story book was called, or tales based on people striving for living for eternity? nothing good ever comes out of that.
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-12-19 23:10:30 +0000 UTC]
No, nothing does. (I've read that book; it is the epitome of all things clich`e) Usually the immortal ends up hating him/herself, and doing anything in their power to kill themselves.
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Anime-Angel-180 In reply to musicmaniac247 [2008-12-20 18:31:32 +0000 UTC]
lol, I would never have read that book but it was mandatory for school, a looooonnng time ago. They even made us watch the movie like right after T___T cheeseh
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musicmaniac247 In reply to Anime-Angel-180 [2008-12-21 05:41:57 +0000 UTC]
My mom made me read it when I was... eight, I think. She said it was a 'good book' and that I 'would really like it'. I really doubt my mother's taste in literature at times. Then again, sad endings are my favorite and she only reads happy endings.
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