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Ok, I think I owe a lot of people an explanation on my inactiveness for this past years. I do receive some comments that people missed my art and also did received some email people asking about my well being. Ok to begin with ,I am doing fine, just got back from family vacation and getting things back on track again, still recovering from artistic depression that I have been going through for the past years.

Let me explain a little about my artistic depression, it all started around 2008 onwards where my art up began to slows down a lot, business in the office maybe 1 of the factor, but I am experincing a lot of art blocks at that time, unable to imagine anything to draw, and even when executing on it it was very slow, the more paintful part was the response that was not as good as I, someone even commented that a 5 minute sketch gets better reponse compare to my 6 months work, after that I was slowly drawn into artistic depression, feeling that I am not good enough and seeing other people improves where as I am left behind, accepting changes at that time was really tought, and seeing myself not advancing was a severe blow for me, I did try to find inspiration from other artist but the more I look the more I felt I was not good enough. So discourage that in 2010 I hit the shut down button on my art with a defeated feeling I am no longer needed anymore.

It was also on 2010 I took refuge in another Hobby that keep my creative juice running was Gunpla model making, I did gunplas in the past but only in 2010 I decided to go advance in this hobby, then decided to take part in 2010 gunpla competition as my 2010 goal, still going by my fursona name 'alphaleo' I venture into the local gunpla community, met a lot local builders as well as making some new friends, at that time I really feels like welcome and at home. To my suprised in 2010 I actually won first place and second place in the final, and continue on winning in every competition I join.of course I was happy with the wins, I keep pushing myself to improve and try more ambitious builds after builds, I fully turn my work station to a gunpla factory. I was enjoying this hobby so much that I am more than happy to invest my money on it.

But for some reasons after 3 years of gunpla building and in activeness in doing artwork, I began to look back into my roots that was my artworks, I began to missed doing art, and I did have a brief moment that I try to do some simple art and have them upload, what suprised me was I began to received some comments on people missing my art, some more personal one through emails how people was inspired by my work, one even go as far as me being a furry daddy. I took some months to think about myself on how my artwork impacts on people, I began to relaize that I may not be as good as other people but people still inspires by my work, I need not to be like other people, i have my own unique way of impacting people, I won't say my time going through artistic depression was bad, it was during those time I aquire a new skills that was gunpla building, I may slow down in art but my creative skills are still being practice in different canvas, and Iam glad to say that In the lowest point of my life I see myself gifted in a another skills that I did not know about, and the most important part was inspiring people.

Description
Ok, I think I owe a lot of people an explanation on my inactiveness for this past years. I do receive some comments that people missed my art and also did received some email people asking about my well being. Ok to begin with ,I am doing fine, just got back from family vacation and getting things back on track again, still recovering from artistic depression that I have been going through for the past years.

Let me explain a little about my artistic depression, it all started around 2008 onwards where my art up began to slows down a lot, business in the office maybe 1 of the factor, but I am experincing a lot of art blocks at that time, unable to imagine anything to draw, and even when executing on it it was very slow, the more paintful part was the response that was not as good as I, someone even commented that a 5 minute sketch gets better reponse compare to my 6 months work, after that I was slowly drawn into artistic depression, feeling that I am not good enough and seeing other people improves where as I am left behind, accepting changes at that time was really tought, and seeing myself not advancing was a severe blow for me, I did try to find inspiration from other artist but the more I look the more I felt I was not good enough. So discourage that in 2010 I hit the shut down button on my art with a defeated feeling I am no longer needed anymore.

It was also on 2010 I took refuge in another Hobby that keep my creative juice running was Gunpla model making, I did gunplas in the past but only in 2010 I decided to go advance in this hobby, then decided to take part in 2010 gunpla competition as my 2010 goal, still going by my fursona name 'alphaleo' I venture into the local gunpla community, met a lot local builders as well as making some new friends, at that time I really feels like welcome and at home. To my suprised in 2010 I actually won first place and second place in the final, and continue on winning in every competition I join.of course I was happy with the wins, I keep pushing myself to improve and try more ambitious builds after builds, I fully turn my work station to a gunpla factory. I was enjoying this hobby so much that I am more than happy to invest my money on it.

But for some reasons after 3 years of gunpla building and in activeness in doing artwork, I began to look back into my roots that was my artworks, I began to missed doing art, and I did have a brief moment that I try to do some simple art and have them upload, what suprised me was I began to received some comments on people missing my art, some more personal one through emails how people was inspired by my work, one even go as far as me being a furry daddy. I took some months to think about myself on how my artwork impacts on people, I began to relaize that I may not be as good as other people but people still inspires by my work, I need not to be like other people, i have my own unique way of impacting people, I won't say my time going through artistic depression was bad, it was during those time I aquire a new skills that was gunpla building, I may slow down in art but my creative skills are still being practice in different canvas, and Iam glad to say that In the lowest point of my life I see myself gifted in a another skills that I did not know about, and the most important part was inspiring people.