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Published: 2006-09-15 03:43:09 +0000 UTC; Views: 60; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 0
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All you have to do is lie
They will never know
Everything will be okay

A safety net
All I ever was to you
Just a precaution
Just to be lied to

Sickening
My daily life
Every single day
Sickening since then

Murdered
Everything taken away
Nothing left here
This pain won’t go away
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Comments: 6

redheadviolinist [2006-09-15 10:55:22 +0000 UTC]

This is very beautiful...

but it does make me worry about you a bit

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blacknskulls [2006-09-15 08:28:48 +0000 UTC]

O.o um, i guess i shouldnt say much here....i sleep at school...lol

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OursIsDead [2006-09-15 04:46:15 +0000 UTC]

i promised myself i wouldnt reply to these but you're worrying me.
I loved you adam. more then you will ever know.
Yes i lied to you and hurt you and i am so sorry, sorry is all i ll ever be able to be! Don't think that my life is all
so fantastic because its not. I am alone, all i do is work school and sleep.
I know its nothing to what you are going through
but i hate to hear you like this.
I won't go out with you again, though you probably dont want to go out with me....
But if you ever want to talk and try to get happier, unblock me and talk to me.

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adamh23 In reply to OursIsDead [2006-09-20 09:34:19 +0000 UTC]

Uh huh.

Loved me so much it seems pretty easy for you to 'move on'.

All you do is work, school and sleep... and get drunk and fuck other people?

You'll never know what I've been feeling for the last 3 months. Hell, for the last 9 months even? To feel you slip away.

I'll never want you for what you've done, I had given up on ever contacting you, I suppose somewhere in me I wanted to hear from you though.

I don't see what we'd ever have to talk about now. Besides, don't try and tell me you didn't block me a long time ago.

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OursIsDead In reply to adamh23 [2006-09-20 14:24:27 +0000 UTC]

Hahahahaha drinking and sleeping with someone has nothing to do with moving on, trying to escape maybe, but not moving on.
and i actually dont plan on drinking again, my doctor has advised me against it since its a depressant and being depressed is already stuffing around with my chest.

I've felt myself slip away and fall apart and ive watched you hate me.
I don't like the way this has gone...i HATE the way this has gone!!!
i spent what wouldve been our 2 year anniversary crying with all the stuff you ever gave me wondering about what the fuck i gave up to sit around alone. You hurt me too...ok it was a two way street.

i was just offering you another someone to talk to. ok? and maybe i wanted someone to talk to too...thats all...i meant nothing bad by any of it..

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adamh23 In reply to OursIsDead [2006-09-21 08:29:37 +0000 UTC]

Your way of 'dealing' or 'escaping' or whatever the fuck tore my fucking heart out.

So now you listen to your doctor huh? Now, after all this bullshit? Congratulations.

I doubt you watched me hate you, bcause you couldn't even look at me, instead running to everyone, or rather, anyone around you.

This has gone exactly the way you chose for it to go, I gave you every single opportunity to do something right, and all you ever did was lie, I have trouble even believing the girl I loved ever even existed at all except for inside my head anymore.

I never did anything intentional to hurt you, and when you finally actually told me I began to tear myself apart, literally. You made decisions that caused this, I just fucked up because I didn't realise.

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