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Published: 2008-09-10 17:14:38 +0000 UTC; Views: 440; Favourites: 3; Downloads: 5
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I am so sorryYou are so amazing and I dont deserve you
I only bring you down and hurt you
I do it to save people from getting hurt
It happens anyway
I open my mouth and get yelled at
I only try to help you but you wont listen
I feel as if I am talking to myself
Why wont you trust me?
Trust what I tell you please
Listen to me at least once
You ask why I wont trust you but I do
I ask why you wont trust me
I do not say things to hear my own voice
When you dont listen I feel at a loss
Like I am alone in this world
But dont worry about me
I am used to being alone
I am used to being ignored
I feel as if you just use me sometimes
I feel as if you listen when its convinient
And not at all times
I do not say this to hurt you
I say this to help you
I do not like seeing you upset
If you wrote a story of my life
It would be a sad short story
About the kid who is always alone
And has had his heart broken many times
I just wish the chapters that get written
From now on all involve you
You would see a complete turn around
In my life
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Comments: 18
Awwww
I am listening Jake.
And not just when it is convenient for me, even if it seems that way.
And I wish the chapters in both our lives entwine until the end, and I am proud to help you turn around... and Im glad that you are helping me to be a better person. It is just hard to change something like that, but I am doing so, just have patience.
I always have our future at heart, Jake.
I love you.
And I am always listening.
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I love you too, but thats how i feel about things stephanie
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I know, I'm sorry, I really am, that's why I am trying so hard to prove myself!
I would never have asked Dad those things this morning if it werent for you, even with him in a good mood I was a little nervous but I pushed forth because you are more important than my petty fears lol. 
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but you shouldnt be afraid of him at all, seriously
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I know, and I am actually much much better than I used to. And especially after talking to him again this morning, he just called to tell me to relax about this weekend, and i asked him, and he was very nice to me. Im starting to not be so scared of him, he hasnt done anything to harm me directly in .... forever. And now that I am 18 also, I really am not as scared of him.
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harm you directly? how so? and what does he think of this all?
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Like as in yelling at me getting directly after me, and he didnt really say how he felt, he mostly just listened to my propositions and agreed that talking to me and then you would be good he thinks it is a smart idea instead of shunning you like mom wanted to. so he didnt have much input he mostly listened to me.
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alright, and last time he did it was when we didnt say hi...remember?
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Yeah *rolls eyes* but nothing since. And he did apologize for that, thank goodness.
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yea, i just really wonder what he thinks about this, i mean really, and he actually cares to hear my side, unlike your mom
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Maybe when you are over we could ask him together what he truly thinks. And yes, the way she sounded it was like they werent ready to hear you out, and i didnt think that was nice and so when i asked dad i didnt know what to expect and he was like sure, actually thats a great idea. i think me telling him that you havent spoken once yet except through me helped him decide.
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yea hopefully, and yea your mom doesnt like me at all and like doesnt want to hear from me does she?
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She said she would sit down with you, just not now.
I think she blames you for the email. And she blames me for Aunt Jen not talking to her.
Meh.
But Dad is wearing the pants at home lol so he is the one that matters anyways
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just not now, so when? and i didnt send the email, your the one that did it, and well caitlin ruined her and your aunt, not you, and like wouldnt the email have ruined them? which would then mean that i ruined them
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I think a week or two.
And I know lol. I sent it, not you, and yes them not talking was not us in any way it was because mom jumped the gun and called her that name and it would not have happened if Cait had kept her trap shut like she promised.
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cait is just vindictive and now we have to try and convince everyone it wasnt us, but so your mom wanted to wait to talk to me? i want to talk NOW, i may not be able to talk in a week or two, i mean i might start working weekends we dont know stephanie, your mom needs to not put this stuff off, she got mad at us for putting it off
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Good point very good point!
Well you get to come over on Friday we can see what happens eh?
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yea but your mom is gonna be at the game already i think, i dont get off until 7
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