rbear1231 In reply to NekoToTora [2010-12-08 20:55:52 +0000 UTC]

its my letter i have to let you awnser it honestly, and dont worry, like i said all i was trying to do was get her to smile cause a) i used ms. and b) i was telling her to be free, real life is straight forward and bitter at times, unlike many people i dont use drugs or drink simply cause i wish to face that bitterness of life with a clear head, i dont run from lifes harshness, plus politics and organised reliegions are offten the causes of me losing my temper, to much control in general but espesily twards women.

use my name, even if i dont know what the reply is i want to know how she/you and everyone else would reply. its how i judge people i make they make choices, im not judging you or kyoko, i judging the 'fans' by there actions and reactions, its the best way to learn who some one is.

if they dont like it fuck'em. as long as the reply is honest Im cool.

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NekoToTora In reply to rbear1231 [2010-12-08 21:34:27 +0000 UTC]

it´s up...

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rbear1231 In reply to NekoToTora [2010-12-09 23:51:37 +0000 UTC]

its funny i have talked and told and wrote about these things we have talked about, yet no one tries to lisen yet you do it in a way that EVERYONE lisens and wakes up, your art and skill have the ability to do much, my way is harsh and to the point, but in a humain world i am looked down on and treated like a fucking bigot and racist, people see your work and realise. we need more like you, and we need a world where im not needed, thats my hope.

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NekoToTora In reply to rbear1231 [2010-12-10 01:29:46 +0000 UTC]

I guess, everyone does her or his best in the own way. It´s easy to wake people up with comics in a comic-community. If I tried that with the woman who was shooting at you, I would be dead by now, I suppose...

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rbear1231 In reply to NekoToTora [2010-12-10 03:15:35 +0000 UTC]

you would never had been in that situation, it takes alot of work to get to that point, if u didnt have the skill or will to deal with her long before you reached her you would never have got there, your style, the way you think and live, lead you in diffrent directions.

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rbear1231 In reply to NekoToTora [2010-11-27 08:53:31 +0000 UTC]

Thanks dan or id it daniel? I dont know if i can give the humans a break (remeber what 2/3 of the people wanted) ive seen way to much. thanks for reading the info yopur the first to do so and reply, i think the first to do so. again thanks for the comment.

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NekoToTora In reply to rbear1231 [2010-11-29 00:40:36 +0000 UTC]

You are welcome. And either way is fine - Dan or Daniel - take your pick!

I can imagine that you must be very bitter sometimes, but I am sure, that most people here at Deviant, especially those who voted, could never do any harm to people in real life. Also this tie-Kyoko-up thing is nothing more then some fetish-fun. I mean, I was having nightmares about hurting that doomed chicken and me and my wife are playing some quite funny bondage games, sometimes... but it´s simply not something fitting the Kyoko-character.
I think, most people´s problem is that they are simply too superficial. That´s why so few people answer to your journal and that´s why people vote for Kyoko being tied up. They don´t think about it in depth. And who can blame them? I mean, I abolished TV, because I was SICK of seeing people getting killed in the news, while having dinner. I didn´t do anything against it; I simply stopped looking. That´s why I say I am a coward. I built a high stone-wall around our yard and I try not to think about the grief outside this wall. If I would do, what you are doing - looking for missing people that everyone else has given up - I would either go crazy after a while or I would commit suicide, because I couldn´t bare the grief.
I also have the storyboard to your "Letters" ready and it will be the first one, that is not funny. This is my kind of contribution that I can make to try to make people think and to make them be aware.

Take care and all the best

Daniel

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rbear1231 In reply to NekoToTora [2010-11-29 02:31:15 +0000 UTC]

tec i have gone nuts, i havny changed my bio cause im lazy but im not loud to work that work anymore i lost most of my lisenes and permints cause im to mean and inhuman, basicly i was forced to retire do to mental instibility, 'they' wanted me in a white room, the judge just took my permints away, he didnt want to i saw it in his face but in the world of PC i had to, i dont know whats worse seeing what i have seen or knowing its still going on and my hands are tied. corse all i have to do is 'pass' my psyc evaluation in 9 mounths and i can get back in the game, it will be time to rally pile the bs then. oh you should know 5 white coats realised just how hard it is to take down a very pissed off son of a bitch, put them all in the hospital.....lol it was fun.

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NekoToTora In reply to rbear1231 [2010-12-03 00:49:03 +0000 UTC]

I have to admit, that you are scaring me. Why didn´t you let a lawyer do the dirt-work? You would still have your licenses - or am I seeing the whole thing too naif?

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rbear1231 In reply to NekoToTora [2010-12-03 00:59:52 +0000 UTC]

dont ask, just dont ask, its my way my fault and i have to pay the price, i excepted that before i do anything, besides i hate lawers. they get people like that off.

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NekoToTora In reply to rbear1231 [2010-12-03 02:19:34 +0000 UTC]

...lawyers are doing their job, just like people working in a hospital, even it it has those rubber walls... you cannot hate people for trying to make a living the legal way. Also they could have saved your licenses, working for you...
well, it´s no use blaming this and that - just wait until you get your licenses back and then try to make it better next time. And don´t let it get to your psyche - or you might end up going into that hospital voluntarily. And I can assure you: you will NOT have fun in there... I had a friend in there once - he went there voluntarily because he frightened himself attacking his sister. They kept him for oneandahalf years and wouldn´t let him out...

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rbear1231 In reply to NekoToTora [2010-12-03 09:26:52 +0000 UTC]

lawers wanted me to plead guilty to striking a woman, she was selling her daughter to slavery, her lawer even said that his words "true she was selling her daughter, but is that really worse then a man striking a woman"i lost my liscens cause the judge only gave her ten year dispit the fact she had a history of doing that (yes in the US.) i called him several words that even now i dont take back, 10 years my ass i should have shot the bitch thats the last time i trust the courts more then my gut feeling.


anyway cant wait to see the letter, she actually makes me smile, rare thing for me

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NekoToTora In reply to rbear1231 [2010-12-03 12:01:14 +0000 UTC]

woe... you definitely need a thicker skin, as we say in this country... you know, slavery is legal in germany again for three years now: long term unemployed have to work in jobs dictated by the government for one dollar an hour, so that they do not "forget", what it is like to work and so that they are encouraged to go looking for a better paid job. Theses jobs count as community service, but as it is jobs that were previously done by small companies (like cleaning streets, painting community buildings, repairing furniture in community places, gardening in parks, laying cobblestones on streets, and so on), lots of these small companies go bankrupt, because they don´t get these jobs anymore. The communities save a lot of money, of course - slaves are cheap labor - and you cannot do anything against it, if you are unemployed. If you refuse, you don´t get any welfare-money... a nice program: governmental organised slavery. By the way, the original slaves back in the ancient days had it a lot better then slaves nowadays...
I cannot say anything to your case, of course. I am no lawyer and I don´t know, if you got a fair hearing. I didn´t even know what happened. I just know, that there are a lot of very nasty things happening on this planet and all we can do is trying to live a life in a way, that we can look into our own eyes, when looking into the mirror in the morning. As long as you can do that, you will be alright.
In one point I disagree: I am pretty sure that this woman would have suffered more from her own guilt, then she suffered by you hitting her. She would have punished herself for her deeds sooner or later. If you killed her or if you are punishing her instead, then you are doing her a big favour... think about it.

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rbear1231 In reply to NekoToTora [2010-12-03 13:46:59 +0000 UTC]

she had sold more then one daughter in her life to sex slave traders and had made it clear she didnt care, i looked in those eyes she didnt care, and all i did was break her knee with a blackjack when she pulled a gun on me, self defence, i repeat i did hesitate i tried to control my self. my skin is very thick, exsept in one situation, rape abuse sex slave.....anything in that cadigory, i have no tolorance for and i dont plan to grow any i like who i am, and the look in the eyes of the children as i help them and they realise some one actually cared, i can look my self in the mirror every day and smile.

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NekoToTora In reply to rbear1231 [2010-12-03 20:54:17 +0000 UTC]

well, as long as you have this mirror-exchange, you should be alright. I am no judge and I am no lawyer and certainly no saint, so you don´t have to defend yourself into my direction at all. I was just curiously asking, that´s all. I am sure, that you have good reasons for everything you say and do. I just had the feeling that you are sometimes choosing the hard way for yourself, where you could have it a little easier.

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rbear1231 In reply to NekoToTora [2010-12-04 03:19:49 +0000 UTC]

'If its easy its not right' i live by that, keeps me sharp on an edge needed for this job and to servive life.


ask your self this? if you meet a woman thats just plan out easy, never sys no to anything, would you really screw her?


if a offer seems perfect with no catch, would you trust it?

would you want to live in a world were everything ws handed to ya and you didnt earn it, would you trust it or enjoy it?


Easy is a dangerouse thing, 99.9% of the time if its easy it never comes out right, and i have other peoples lives in my hands, and there souls

I see and deal with the worst the human race can do, if i wasnt strong willed i woud lose, and if i lose some one loses more. thanks for the concern, and the talk.

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NekoToTora In reply to rbear1231 [2010-12-04 13:31:54 +0000 UTC]

I have the feeling that it´s getting a little colder here... I didn´t mean to offend you and if I did, I am sorry. But with such an extrem opinion you should be prepared that people might disagree with you or your philosophy or that they have different approaches for solving problems. Everyone´s trying to manage life her or his own way.

Thank you for that very insightful view of your thoughts and your experiences. I am glad that I do not have to deal with the things you have to deal with every day, because I don´t have what it takes to cope. You made me appreciate my life a whole lot more. Thank you for that.

p.s.: I would screw her but I wouldn´t marry her. I would trust an offer without catch, because I am assuming the positive side and I am not afraid of being disappointed again and again; for that ONE person that I might meet in life, who DESERVES the trust - perhaps one of the kids you are saving?
I would indeed want to live in a world where everything comes out right and where things come easy, because that would mean, that I can take these things and create something great without danger of hurting anyone or anything and I don´t have to worry about violence, rape and forced opinion - because I am the busy type and not the lazy type and I would make sure for myself, that I do not fall into the trap of decadence - Creative people have no time for decadence or lazyness.
If I choose "the easy way" it doesn´t mean, that I do not care. I don´t have to dig over the field, because I want to bake a bread. And I don´t have to learn to fly because I want to travel. And I don´t have to wake the dead, because I want to learn from history. Nowadays I can use the same energy that I need to clobber a mammoth quite more effectively to feed my family.
Actually, some people that we are meeting in our lives are trying to HELP us. If we misapprehend these attempts of help we might interpret them as attacks against our person, our freedom or our rights - also we tend to project all sorts of criticism directly on ourselves and feel offended automatically. This is called "paranoia" and it is VERY dangerous, especially if sustained by people who are physically very strong and used to use force or violence. The problem is that the people who ARE criticising us usually are the ones who care and therefore the ones that we love - if paranoia strikes, they are the ones who get hurt in return for their attempt to help you. Be careful that you do not step into that trap - no offence...

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rbear1231 In reply to NekoToTora [2010-12-04 18:45:02 +0000 UTC]

your the only one thats actually awnsered in such aclear point thank you, me easy is always the fastest way to mess up, if its hard and takes alot of effort it gives me time to think and find where im making the mistake plus it makes me appresiate the possitive outcomes better, i was raised in a place where everyone wanted and demanded easy, wanted well fare cause they were to lazy to work, wanted everything yet paid for nothing, blood sweat tears, i pay with those and so i know its pure and i earned it. i had an easy life but found it was pointless. this is not a life i encourage its ghard you have to have an iron will and be prepared to be alone alot. i had a wife, she died of cancer, but when i met her i pushed her she wasnt easy she made me earn it, every inch. and i found it so much better then the cheap easy girls. there was passion and love, not just lust. to me easy just dosnt work.


now when i wrote that letter i was hoping to be the first person to use 'ms. or miss' like she wanted i was hopping to make her laugh and feel good some one paid attention.......kyoko makes me smile she really dose.

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NekoToTora In reply to rbear1231 [2010-12-05 01:13:15 +0000 UTC]

As I say, "no offense!"... I thought that there was quite a portion of tragic behind your bitterness - there had to be. And believe it or not, I am sorry! I don´t even want to think about what it must be like to lose the person in the world that means the most and I can only repeat, that I do not want to trade lifes with you. I couldn´t handle what you went through. I have great respect for people like you and I wish that you will find some peace of mind for yourself - the sooner the better. Your "Letters" is next and it will be the toughest job I´ve ever done

Take care

Daniel

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rbear1231 In reply to veika [2010-11-06 04:00:18 +0000 UTC]

np

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