nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to Cutie-Kitty-Pie [2012-06-16 15:54:15 +0000 UTC]

you don't have a right to talk to me. ever.

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Cutie-Kitty-Pie In reply to nowherewarm-phtgrphy [2012-06-17 02:47:33 +0000 UTC]

excuse me? what did i do?

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to Cutie-Kitty-Pie [2012-06-20 15:59:06 +0000 UTC]

You: I've given you a bunch of bullshit all day, I'm on the road to your place but I'm sleeping in this car.
Me: I'll walk over a mile in the snow and freezing weather to find this car you speak of and walk you to my place where you'll be warm - OH WAIT, THERE'S NO CAR, NO STEPHANIE, NOTHING.

What did you do you ask? You seriously have the audacity to ask ME what YOU did? Oh there are so many different things that I could say to you right now to add on to what you did, but bottom line you were just like Hilarie.

You led me on, made me think you cared and EVEN WORSE than her, you made me think you'd left your country on a tour for your disease and had left the tour to come see me and you didn't. You LIED. You made me love you and then ripped my heart out of my chest and stepped on it with a fucking smile on your face if I had to guess. Were you even in the US? Do you even remember? If not I hope to hell I refreshed your memory. I remember your face. I remember what you did. I remember sitting at home at like 4 - 5 AM after I got back from walking in the freezing cold for over two hours, hoping to God I wouldn't lose a toe to frostbite.


If you still feel like you have a right to talk to me after all of that, be my guest, I'll talk to you. I'll be civil and maybe, MAYBE, one day we can be friends at least. But don't expect me to forgive you without an explanation and time to decide whether I still hate you or not.

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Cutie-Kitty-Pie In reply to nowherewarm-phtgrphy [2012-06-21 10:44:51 +0000 UTC]

yes, you deserve an explanation. that is true.
i also feel that doing this on DA is not right.
the words i want to say might be misinterpreted. that's not what i want for either of us.

you've obviously kept all the information on our relationship.
how am i like hilarie? whatever happened between you and her was/is none of my business.

i did love you.
yes, i was in the US. i wish i had an excuse for you but i do not. the time in the US is a blur to me. i know that i did the wrong things that caused to damage to our relationship and ultimately ended it. i know that i lied, hurt, damaged and caused pain to you. i know that my actions are what caused you to be angry with me now. especially since i led you on. i made you believe something that wasn't true, wasn't real.
i do not have the audacity to ask you what i did wrong, i'm sorry.
never should i have said anything to cause the pain you are currently experiencing.

i do not ask for your forgiveness. i do not deserve it, especially after everything that has happened between you and i. no, i do not have any right to speak to you. i have no right to communicate with someone that i have inflicted pain upon.
as i said before, i do not have some fake story that will make you change how you feel. i only have the truth.

i wish that this was not the form of communication used but i know that you would not want to hear my voice. i only wish i could apologize to you for everything i have done to you, the right way.
having not spoken to you in 4/5 years, i do not know what you are like. i'm sure you have grown up to be a lovely person.

please; if there is anything that i can do, please tell me. be brutally honest. i want everything out in the open. no secrets.
again, i am sorry for everything. nothing can fix the damaged i have caused you.

stephanie.

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to Cutie-Kitty-Pie [2012-06-21 16:15:08 +0000 UTC]

I can't talk to you over the phone because of how much international calls are but I have skype. If you have a mic and a username we could try that.

I just want to understand what happened and why you did it. I'm glad that you seem to be being honest with me and it's good to know that you were at least truthful about being in the country.

I know that it's going to take me a while to forgive you, but I want to forgive you. I don't want to end up dying suddenly or something and regret not making amends when I had the chance.

I'll send a note along to you with my skype information as well as my cell phone, we can at least text so long as you're able. I have unlimited messages until sometime next month. If nothing else we can text over the phone and IM on Skype until I decide whether or not I'm ready to hear your voice again.

I kind of have an emotional trigger with kiwi accents now. It just reminds me too much of you.

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Cutie-Kitty-Pie In reply to nowherewarm-phtgrphy [2012-06-22 08:47:34 +0000 UTC]

i understand. it is extremely expensive contacting someone overseas. ):
yes, i do have skype. i will send you my contact details too.

i want to be completely open with you. no secrets, no lies, only truth.
i've learnt a lot in the time we have spent not talking. i want to prove to you that i've changed.

unfortunately, unlimited text messages do not exist in new zealand. however, i shall put money on my phone so we can communicate. if i run out of money, i'll text you via skype. it is understandable that you do not want to hear my voice; it's a trigger. you are in control.

how many other people have you met that are from new zealand?

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to Cutie-Kitty-Pie [2012-06-22 14:22:35 +0000 UTC]

Got them, accepted your contact request.

its all i ask for is honesty and openness to trust that if you tell me everything, i won't hate you forever. just the fact that you're trying to help me understand now shows you've changed at least a little.

okie! i got your text and replied and again SO sorry for texting you so early, but i got your text at like 3 am or so, so i guess we both kind of did it, xD

i haven't met anyone else from nz, but watching a lot of television (espectially shows where they travel world-wide) you run into an episode or two with an actor/actress whose speaking like a kiwi~

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Cutie-Kitty-Pie In reply to nowherewarm-phtgrphy [2012-06-23 02:22:18 +0000 UTC]

thank you. :3

honest and openness is what you will get. i understand, completely.
i want things to be okay between us. more than anything.

don't worry; i don't sleep very well. however, no message arrived. ):

i still don't believe i have an accent though.

what are you doing with your life?

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to Cutie-Kitty-Pie [2012-06-23 05:20:45 +0000 UTC]

Lol, you do have an accent it's just you've grown up speaking and being around people who speak that way. English is the language, we just all speak it differently because of the difference in the areas we grew up in.

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Cutie-Kitty-Pie In reply to nowherewarm-phtgrphy [2012-06-23 05:51:32 +0000 UTC]

do you remember my voice?

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to Cutie-Kitty-Pie [2012-06-23 09:02:15 +0000 UTC]

Clearly as if I just spoke with you. Then again it might have changed in 5 years.

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Cutie-Kitty-Pie In reply to nowherewarm-phtgrphy [2012-06-24 01:50:07 +0000 UTC]

<3.

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to PirateFairy [2012-06-15 01:22:03 +0000 UTC]

np

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to PirateFairy [2011-06-17 16:56:14 +0000 UTC]

Awww, D:
Thank you so much!

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PirateFairy In reply to nowherewarm-phtgrphy [2011-06-17 22:40:13 +0000 UTC]

ur welcome!

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to capricordestin [2011-03-18 17:35:43 +0000 UTC]

Sorry, but I like discovering things on my own. I gave her a view though, so if nothing else she'll have one more view.

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capricordestin In reply to nowherewarm-phtgrphy [2011-03-19 15:09:50 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for the effort, and I'm sorry to have bothered you.

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to dinawanaojt [2011-03-18 17:35:47 +0000 UTC]

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to StregattaPuponzi [2011-03-18 17:35:50 +0000 UTC]

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to ryoshi-un [2011-03-17 03:53:08 +0000 UTC]

P.S. I went through the rest of your gallery and fav'd the ones I liked the most, : )

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to CuttingRoom [2011-03-17 04:05:47 +0000 UTC]

P.S. Checked out more, saw quite a few strips that caught my eye, : ) Keep spreading the awesomeness, lol.

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CuttingRoom In reply to nowherewarm-phtgrphy [2011-03-17 11:44:05 +0000 UTC]

Hey, thanks for all the favs. Looks like you're the one spreading the awesome.

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to CuttingRoom [2011-03-18 17:40:15 +0000 UTC]

Haha, no problem, : )

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to xDMelissar [2011-03-13 01:19:31 +0000 UTC]

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to StregattaPuponzi [2011-03-13 01:19:50 +0000 UTC]

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nowherewarm-phtgrphy In reply to roguearcanis [2011-03-05 18:37:17 +0000 UTC]

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