necromantress In reply to AnalyticalYoung [2012-06-14 06:45:32 +0000 UTC]

Thank you!

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necromantress In reply to darrengart [2012-05-20 13:20:15 +0000 UTC]

It is hard for me to not be so negative about myself, I was confident at one point in my life but I lost it over a ridiculous line of thought I became obsessed over and finding it made zero sense in the end. That confident part of me is no longer in control. I am instead mostly controlled by this very irrational, nonsensical part of myself that fears being judged, fears being proven for once and for all that I am stupid... Very few times I've been judged directly, the problem is that I interpret things not directly aimed at me as criticism. Such as - if someone harshly criticises something I like, I will take it as being aimed at me. It makes no sense but I have so far been unable to not be affected by it. So I feel as though everyone in the world must loathe me and wants me to kill myself for being so idiotic/useless/ridiculous/irrational/unoriginal/ungrateful/normal/etc. I fear being told these things directly so I feel a compulsion to tell that I KNOW I am those things in a pathetic attempt to ward off such attacks. Not that it makes any sense to do so, I am not claiming that. At least this is my theory (I know that is not the correct term but I don't know any that would fit better) as to why I am this way, it could be wrong.

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darrengart In reply to necromantress [2012-05-22 09:08:36 +0000 UTC]

It is quite sad to hear someone so low. I am a good listener and if you want to vent frustrations or any emotions, you can vent them to me. There is a quote buy a director of an art college in New Zealand, (I don't know if he made this up or whether it belongs to someone else but 'The only dumb question is a question not asked'. This changed the way I look at life. Most interpretations you take from people have other variants of the original thought. Perhaps give yourself a few options of any word that you take personally. None have to be right but I think you need to create a bit of room inside your mind to create options. Some people think that helping is based on telling you what is wrong with this, this looks out of proportion etc. They do this directly or indirectly but they are looking at you rather than themselves as to how it might come across. It is hard to be positive as the world is today. I think change is a slow process. Identify what you like and if you want someones point of view, ask. If they offer up advice are you brave enough to say I didn't ask for advice and it upsets me. As an artist I see my own mistakes and don't need them pointed out to me unless I ask. I have friends and family that do this to me too. We are not perfect and others need to understand, stop trying to make us perfect when you are not yourself. I hope this helps a bit. Don't forget, you can chat to me as often as you like. I'm on facebook so you can look me up darren gosling. The image will show me with a black beanie on my head,lol. Invite me as a friend and you can link up with Kaz and chat with her. I'm not sure if she is a physchic.She is into spiritual stuff. Kaz Whitchie.... can't think what she calls her last name. She is good to talk to.

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necromantress In reply to darrengart [2012-05-28 22:02:29 +0000 UTC]

Okay. I've been having trouble thinking of a proper answer that makes sense and lahhlhrealrefha I can't even think of words for the simple thing I'm saying. I managed to get myself to answer this instead of procrastinating it until infinity, even if just to say that I did read that and if/when I manage to think of something sensible to reply that with I will. I hope I'll be able to do this in the future also when the same situation presents itself with different people...I'm just not all that good at communication and sometimes I find people intimidating despite there being no reason for it that makes any sense. I'm sorry. Sorry. Perhaps I'll manage to get to answering this. I just thought, that maybe answering this in a way that isn't really even a proper reply would still be better than saying nothing at all (which is just making me feel like crap though this is too but less), hard as this is I still seem to be managing it right now even if I'm nervous as hell. Okay. Sorry. Ending this now. Sorry.
deviantART muro drawing

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darrengart In reply to necromantress [2012-05-30 23:38:27 +0000 UTC]

Hey, don't apologise. You've got to do things at your own pace. I do appreciate that you took the me to reply. Words come when they are needed so don't force an answer that doesn't come freely. The artwork you included makes me think there's quite a bit of turmoil in yor life. Confusion also. I think as long as you believe your own thoughts then you begin to understand what is going on around us you begin to see and make sense of your thoughts giving rational grounding ,although still the unspoken word, to what you think.

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necromantress In reply to ForestWanderers [2012-05-11 01:51:36 +0000 UTC]

I also thank you for those favorites - that was unexpected!

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ForestWanderers In reply to necromantress [2012-05-11 01:52:48 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome! Your characters are neat!

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