azz182 In reply to justthathazy [2010-03-16 17:23:46 +0000 UTC]

ur welcome :]

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azz182 In reply to AidailAniron [2010-02-05 07:18:21 +0000 UTC]

your welcome :] its a pretty pic good quality too :]
im off now to college bye x

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-07-24 15:27:49 +0000 UTC]

lol ye i still got it.
and aww haha d/w me n my mates play sometimes and u can be rly careful and end up gettn the black in.
and aww haha i dno how i walk i kinda walk lazy lol.
and ty lol ye they are a nice family im lucky, we get the odd argument or bad day but everyone does.
mainly its cus of all the tention and stress, my mums illness and now people are trying to take away my mums sickness benifits even though she has MS and can barely walk, they wanna take all our money we get and my mum cant even work cus of what she has and my dads her legal carer thing and hes not alowed to work.
its a complicated situation but the fact ppl are making my mum more ill over this with worry and stress just sikens me. my doctors wrote letters to them playing hell cus my mums blood pressure goes sky high wen shes put under all this stress and worry and she could hava stroke so we have to watch her health alot.

anyway ona brighter note lol ye i am my mates dont go out with me but iv stil been havin fun at home.
gonna meet my mate dan from college this week n chil somewere n stuff cus apart from my mate that passed away dans like my best mate. xxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-07-27 20:25:06 +0000 UTC]

Oh, that sucks!! Why are they trying to take away your benefits?? Thats doesnt make sense, if your mum has MS, then why the hell can they take the benefits away!!
And it isnt fair on your mum. People never take these sort of things into consideration. They're too interested dishing out money to underage mums and drug addicts, and not to people who actually need it.

Thats good Glad to hear that things are going well for you! x

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-07-28 10:32:26 +0000 UTC]

i know ye its annoying wel the governant these days really dont like benifits anymore they wanna try stop it all tgeva but cus they cant get their own way they get these companies to try bend the laws and rules.
we found out yday that my mum was right and this company that gives her the money said she couldnt get her money cus she was late handing in the form, but the week b4 someone in the same company said she gets 2 weeks extention because she needs to ask for her appeal documents cus they denied that my mum needed benifits month or so b4 all this so what shed done was appeal it anyway she sent off the form and they think its late wen she was told she could get 2 weeks. turns out yday she was right all the long and it says all over the websites online that u get 2 weeks extention in my mums situation and it also says in this companies hand book which obv they havnt read.
so shes got these ppl from denbigh that help ppl with this kinda thing to write in and her doctor has aswel and theyl have to give her the money otherwise rly their breaking the law and their own policy.

these days its ok for gordan brown who makes over £90,000 a year to claim money to buy his son curtains and buy house furniture n stuff but for someone with an illness with no job or anythin who wants to buy a new couch or something cant get the money.

xx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-07-29 20:17:54 +0000 UTC]

ahhhh righttt lol
i hate littering so i gues i like em lol.
wel i dno some partied didnt exist a few years ago now their moving their way up.

aww. and do i need one? is it for dudes too? lol i hate needles lol anythin to do with blood or sharp objects nahnah not for me lol.

ahh right ye they do cus im an easy target small, different and weak lol.
ahh i went to the odeon to see wat was on so i mightv passed but i didnt fancy watchin anythin so we played basketball all day lol.

and gues wat! im gettin my hair more maturely cut cus im sick of 1.attracting silly emo girls that dont know what they want 2. everyone in yale has my hair and they make it look way beter lol and 3. im sick of bein seen as an emo just cus of my hair, i will keep the way i dress but my hairs not only anoying and impossible to style but its become anoying cus the only girls i attract are now little emo girls that dont know wat they want, and ppl treat me younger cus it makes me look like im in high skl n u know wat i mean dont ya? it just does no good for me, plus who would hire me? lol.
soooo im getting this style

[link]

mark hoppus from bliiink oh ye lol
that way i can keep my rock kinda style but ina mature and tidy way.

xxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-07-29 21:29:38 +0000 UTC]

Aww. No, its just for girls. Some infections and stuff are passed through sex and can cause cervical cancer. Men cant get cervical cancer. Needles dont bother me that much, just the way they make you feel afterwards.

Oh cool. I love Frankie and Bennys. I ate soooo much. Was so good

Yup, know exactly what you mean. Trust me, loosing that emo look reaaaally changes your outlook on things. I feel so much better now I dont wear that much black or makeup. Just get to a stage where you feel too old for it, and I was attracting some right freaks, mainly emo. And the emo look just doesnt do it for me lol.
Its probably a good choice having your hair done, you will get taken more seriously, and probably wont attract that sort of girls anymore.

I like Mark Hoppus Good choice. xx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-07-31 08:29:48 +0000 UTC]

ahhh right few lol
im an idiot i bet that was so obveous lol but im not very logic lol i dont know anythin lol.

iv never eaten there if its more than £6 for a meal i wotn bother lmao im a tight ass with money lol.
i love the chippy me :] hehe
and yee i know, i like the clothes im not gonna change how i dress mind u though over the years iv gone less emo anyway ye i wear alot of black t shirts but its just my fav colour and i go for skate brands not emo brands i dont like emo stuff much not for lads i dno why lads wear skinnies lol, but rly i dress more casual pop punky like blink 182 iv always stuck to that style rly.
only in winter i look more emo cus i wear alot of black hoodies and shirts but thats to keep me warm lol.
but rly i like black anyway even if i was old id be wearing black shirts lol.
but ye u did look nice b4 but after a while i can now see a more straight forward you. before you seemed more secluded or wateva u say lol kinda like you didnt want people to talk to you but now u do abit more. i think i got that impression cus we had a weird history lol.
but now i feel things are alot cooler and its nice i like writing to u now n again n just chattin its a help for one thing to have a chat and it doesnt feel wierd anymore lol.

but ye i hope i dont attract weird ones anymore lol. my mum says i attract em cus im nice from the start of a relationship and do too much for em so then they take advantage and use me for money which they realise i dont have and dump me lol.
im not bothered anymore though tbh i mean ye id like a gf its nice but i dont get down not having one anymore.
im just enjoying staying at home playing basketball and goin wrexham with my mate to play.

haha hes awsome unless u meant like as is mmm check out his candy ass bitch lol *that was a black woman accent btw* lmao.
xxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-07-31 21:26:33 +0000 UTC]

Aha, awww Im sure you know lots of stuff

Lol. Frankie and Bennys is awesome! And really cheap aswell tbf. I payed £8 for a large coke, main meal and dessert. Was very impressed! Thats only the lunch time menu though, the prices are a lot more at night time :/
I love the chippy too

Oh cool. I quite like lads who can pull off Skinny jeans, so I cant really complain about them lol. I think theres too much focus put on labels though, specially emo. Everyone seems to be emo these days. Tis very annoying lol.

Yeah well, in my first year of Yale i wasnt in a decent frame of mind. The worse my frame of mind went, the more "Emo" I seemed to get. It was easier to hide behind the hair and the makeup lol. But now Im happier, and now I dress better and have kick arse hair And yeaaah, we do kinda have a weird history lol.

Awww, the right girl will come along soon Well thats what I tell myself about finding a lad lol. And theres nothing wrong with being nice, but I can see where your mums coming from! Its good that you dont feel like you need a girlfriend. Often needing a girlfriend scares girls away. One thing girls hate is having a needy boyfriend. Freaks them out.

Had your haircut yet then? xx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-08-03 15:51:46 +0000 UTC]

hello wow too much to say lol

and ye i had my hair cut
she cut it abit short though but itl grow like it is in that pic i showed u hopefully. except mynes now black again.

sooo bored tday tbf :/ parents are begginin to anoy me tday i dno if its my teenage hormones or wat lol but im keepin out the way abit cus im ina mood tday dno why lol.

xxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-08-10 17:27:20 +0000 UTC]

Ahh i see. Hairdressers always cut hair a bit too short, it will grow back soon enough.

Aha, yeah I get that too. I think its just down to spending so much time at home. Be glad to go on holiday next week, get me out of bloody wrexham lol.

How you been then? xx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-08-13 09:52:51 +0000 UTC]

aww lol
were u goin?
i havnt hada holiday in 4 years maybe more lol
buuut wev spent money making the garden look deeeeaaaad nice its still not done i dont think itl ever be done u gotta constantly replace plant over the years n theres always something to do.

iv been pretty good ty.
went to rhyl with my friend amy but it was boring lol then yday i went to my sisters new house to see her and her BF and my baby neice :] lol
their doing rly good fair play to them. not doing to well with money saving but their doing ok.
her bfs gotta good job as a security gaurd so he gets enough to feed them all n do a bit extra now and again.
and other than that ive been gardening like an old man lol and lifting stuff into the loft and putting table tgether for my mum n dad.
and iv turned my loft into a music room so its all good.

howa u?
xxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-08-13 16:08:02 +0000 UTC]

Off to devon. Hopefully the weather will be better than what we've been having. Hasnt really been much of a summer. And then last week, when it was sunny. A few of us sunbathed in my garden, and i think we were on an ants nest or summit cause we got covered in bug bites. Bad times. Lol!

Ahh sounds fun Awww how olds you neice?

Im having throat problems lol. And because Ive got a problem with people touching my neck, its making it even harder for people to look and see whats up with it lol. I'll be fine though, just having some tonsil trouble lol.

Other than that, i havent been up to much. Went to the cinema to see the proposal the other day, been working quite a bit and other than that, I seem to have turned very lazy lol. But I dont mind, now Im not in college and dont have the work to worry about, finally got round to reading all the books that i never had the chance to read. And all my uni stuff has started coming through, like my timetable, info about my fresher week, what to expect from courses. So its all getting there slowly, getting pretty nervous now. Once I find a few people I'll be fine. Its just the fact I'll be there on my own that worries me..

So are you in Yale for another year then? xx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-08-13 19:59:02 +0000 UTC]

aww kls i went there on hols once :]
was quite nice, there was a rly nice town rearby i cant remember wat it was called but it was apparently the only place in the UK with black swans lol.
ahhh dam i hate bugs lol.
my mate sat on one once and loadsa ants were running up his leg and he hasa fear of em lmao.

shes about i dno lol i never count months but shes around 5 months i think or 4 months could be even younger lol.

aww hope its ok :/

and kls i went to see that "the ugly truth" it was so feminist and at the same time sexist to women i hate that kinda thing it always brings up the same argument over whose better. i dont bleve theres a better sex its about the person individualy. i know alot of asshole guys and bitchy girls. so i win lol.

aww dam id be petrified lol
i got another 2 years inc the one il have wen i go back ;/ lol
cba.
but i have to then i think uni isnt for me i know ppl hava go and say go cus it makes u get a better job but i dont wanna spend another 3 years in education then get a job i dont want or one i cant find. it sounds odd but i dont wanna hugely payed job or anything i want something i enjoy thatl giv me the chance to still start something of my own. aslong as im happy and putting food on the table im fine.
i know it sounds lazy but im not being lazy lol i just have trouble describing what i mean lol.
basicly uni isnt for me and even if i take a loan il be paying it back for years after and i dont want that.
xxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-08-13 21:05:45 +0000 UTC]

Oh cool The place Im going to, is the place I want to live one day. Its called Exmouth. Its a very small town, but is near cities aswell, so plenty to do
Urgh, hate ants. They just irritate me. All bugs are annoying! Flies and Wasps are the worst >

I'll be fine, just eating a lot of soothers. I used to suffer a lot with tonsilites when I was younger, and still get a lot of sore throats these days. Just really annoying lol.

Ahh I want to see that film too. I really like the man in it, he was in PS I Love you aswell. And I like the trashy chick flick thing lol. Most girls just wanna see that film to see if that really is what goes on in Guys heads lol! But yeah, depends on who the person is really. Girls have the stereotype of being bitchy. And boys are seen as arseholes who are all after one thing.

Wow, another 2 years?! I couldnt stay at Yale that long. I practically ran out on the last day lol. Couldnt wait to leave it. So what course are you doing in Yale?

Ahhh i see. Well its totally your choice, Uni isnt the be all and end all of life. I didnt want to go, I dont even know why I applied. I still didnt want to go when i was filling my application in. But the closer it gets, and the more definate it gets, the more excited I'am. I mean I would really like to get a good job at the end of it, I dont really want to be here forever, I want to live abroad. But I want to meet new people, enjoy the experience, and hoppppefully meet a decent lad atlast lol.

Yeah the loans are a blag, I dont qualify for a huge loan. 1) Im still living at home when I go to Uni and 2) Me, my mum and my dad all work. So like Yale, I doubt I even qualify for EMA lol

xx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-08-14 10:13:34 +0000 UTC]

aww wel i hope it goes quick then :]
ahhh nah i hate those sorta films lol not cause ther chick flicks i like stuff like the notebook n you have mail i think they have a rly good story and meaning.
but these ones that just bitch at eachother nah i hate it lol you see enough of it in reality.
if i wanted to watch two people bitch eachother il watch jeremy kyle lol.

and im in media now and goin onto national.
and wats made it worse is i know i have to stay two more years to feel like ive achieved something and i want to learn more but i hate the teachers lol.
and yale is so corrupt tbh.

and ye wel some people like uni some dont. and even my parents said for what i want in life il be taking a risk. plus noone can see me getting on in uni, for any uni i was interested in id have to move out to liverpool or manchester and live in a dorm wich i just couldnt do im not social at all and uni is about fun aswel and its how you fit in and i hate it lol. id be such an outcast with nothing to do.

aww haha dam wel atleast u still get to live at home though thatl help you with money situations in uni.
xx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-08-22 21:25:52 +0000 UTC]

Aww I love The Notebook It made me cry a lot lol.. I really want to go and see The Time Travellers Wife now. The film My Sisters Keeper was possibly the saddest film ever made! There is just trauma after trauma!
Aha, I love Jeremy Kyle.

Wow, 2 more years?? Thats a long time. So is that like a media A Level? What sort of stuff do you study in it??
I actually passed my exams, so the only time I have to go back to Yale is to collect work (Y)
Yeah Yale is corrupt. And shit, and I hated it.

Yeah Uni aint for everyone. I have all my forms to fill in now. Im kinda looking forward to it now. The fact I dont have to move away from home is a plus, so I dont have the whole dorm thing to worry about. The money situation doesnt really bother me, Im employed, Ive applied for EMA/loans and both my parents work so the money isnt really an issue for me. Thank God.

So what do you want to do in life?? xx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-08-23 09:37:01 +0000 UTC]

aww lol
hey i was worried u wouldnt wb lol i saw u wernt on my myspace anymore and i thought id done summit lol.
oh ye i think my mums renting that sisters keeper from tesco lol.
and i dont like chat shows like jeremy kyle but cus im nosey il watch em anyway lol.

yeeer i know lol but i guess i wouldv spent 3 years in uni anyway.
and ye its an A level equivelent course.
i dont know exactly what wel be learning cus i origianaly took media cus i wanted to go onto the course my mates just finished cus it was awsome it was lotsa kl practicle work and was a rly good course. but this year just as im about to take it after putting up with 2 years of courses to get the grades to go onto it, they change everything and now the course is gonna be more written work again like the one i just finished. aparently there will be more practicle than the one iv just done but the teachers have only had the summer to plan what will be in the course. but its said to be similler to what im doing but better and more practicle, which im not gonna beleive from my teachers until i see it lol, most of our bloody time is took up with useless key skills crap that noone will ever need.
but ye the course is said to have most of what we have now like video, photo, radio, digital story, ect and the new stuff aparently is web design, graphics, and i dno any others tbh lol.
then we were told we were gonna have this teacher called karen who shadow directed films like lesbian vampire killers and some other film with simon peg and ros from friends. and we couldnt wait cus shes a great teacher but the other class are having her instead so were yet again stuck with tony pugh and steve bellis.
their not too bad of teachers but theres this girl in our class who is a grade A swat and shows off all the bloody time and noone rly likes her for it but the teachers give all their attention to her noone else in the class gets chances like she does or gets tought, she is the only one thet care about cus theyv found a star pupil thatl make em look good. noones jelous of her cus in media everyone has their own personal good skill but she tryed to beat ppl at everything.
anyway iv said too much this message is too long lol.

and i dno what i wanna do 100% tbvh.
i wanna do photography but its knowing were to go and what to do and im a little lost lol.
and cus im not from a household with much money i wanna know i have a safe career and alot of photography i wanna do is like 50/50 chance of getting anywere. and i also like writing films n stuff but again big job to look for without much money. i accept the fact id have to be a tea boy for like a year before anyone would give me a chance to do much in a tv company. but i wana know i have a safe job.
i like too much stuff thats my problem and there all rly hard jobs to get lol.
im gonna find somewere like a shop who wants me to design something like do photography and graphic stuff n all that.
but its gonna mean i get a normal job for a bit whilst i look.
xxxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-08-23 14:16:34 +0000 UTC]

Ahh aww lol. Nah Ive been on holiday the past week, and because I never use bebo or myspace anymore, I just cancelled them both when I got home. I only use Facebook these days. Much easier

Yeah true. You can spend up to 5 years in Uni, depending on the course. And you only get accomidation on site for the first year. After that you're kinda expected to get your own place. So fun place, but not a place to go if you dont really want to take the risks. Which is a risk a lot of people dont want or need to take tbh.

Ahh right I see. They change the courses a lot in Yale. The examboards are constantly trying to make the courses harder or more interesting. So you not into written work then?? Ahhh key skills, I know it well lol. It was the biggest load of shit I ever did. All mine was done in photography, there was loads of research, essay writing and presentation. It was sooo dull.

Ohh I know that film, Its called Big Nothing. Its a low key indie film. What Ive seen of it is pretty good. Hated Lesbian Vampire Killers with a passion though. Is it Karen Bird?? I had her in AS. The course sounds good though

Ahh I see. Have you seen the careers woman in Yale? She's really helpful. She'll tell you what sort of work experience you'll need, where to go, how long it will take and stuff like that. Really helpful, and so so sooo nice! If you want to get into the media buisness on your own, its probably a good idea to send CVs and letters of interest off. I mean I have to start doing it in Uni.

Nothing wrong with getting a normal job and working your way up though xx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-08-25 11:12:56 +0000 UTC]

ahh kl did you enjoy it? :] were did you go?
ahh good choice lol altough i dont have facebook eva i just would delete all of em lol.
i hate them i only go on em incase someones messaged me now its full of rlllly bitchy ppl that have no life off the web lol.
i mean i dont have much of a social life but i have stuff to do other than bitch about friends n stuff on bullitens lol.

yee i didnt rly know that lol wow good job im not going i know i couldnt afford it :/
my mum feels guilty if i even mention uni cus she feels responsible if i cant have something in life cus of money. but i know she cant help it so i dont take it out on anyone.
and no i hate written work unless it means something to me. i will do it though cus i know i have to.
ahhh dam that sounds hard :/
mind u we had alot in our last course it was like 3 vids in a year lol and only one of them was intirely our own choice. the rest of the course was esseys and research which quite frankly i am completely against cus i think if you need to know something you know you should research it, and i think teachers waste alot of course time getting you to research stuff you arnt covering anyway and noone bloody reads any of it.

ahh right yeah its a good film i didnt mind lesbian vampire killers but i was probs the only dude that liked it for the comedy not for the fact there was lesbians lol but lesbians just dont turn me on lol i dont have much against gays they can fuck what they want aslong as its not me lol but i dont like watching two girls it doesnt have an effect on me.
and ye shes the one ye.

if its the one i saw last year im not going lol. i hate carreers wales with a pasion every person iv dealt with from there has fucked things up lol in high skl my work expeirience was shit and the careers wales guy couldnt find me anything for ages and a week later when he asked me what im doing i said nothing atm i found a place but my teacher said he not insured and he said oh wel you shouldv found something by now but i found loadsa places that were eva taken or not insured and he was meant to find places anyway.
then last year in college the woman i saw basicly told me that theres no point doing graphics cus its impossible to get a job in it these days and kinda put me off then gave me a bunch of crappy leaflets about graphics in chester or something and told me for those jobs id have to move to chester and be able to drive and i cant afford any of that without a bloody job lol. then she told 2 ppl in my class who were colour blind that they wont make it into any art based job cus they are colour blind, and pady played hell with her lol.

im gonna take that year off even though im not going anywere anyway lol and during that year find something to go into so its not so much a break but time to look for something.

and im glad you said that cus iv been gettin rly put down by ppl about uni my ex mate was all like ohhh you gotta go to uni or youl never get a media job ect and its ok for him hes got the money, then this girl i know said id become a hobo if i didnt go and yet again her parents are loaded and pay for everything.
x

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-08-30 10:42:38 +0000 UTC]

Sorry about the late reply. Been really busy sorting all the Uni forms out.
Yeah I did thanks. A place called Exmouth in Devon. Love it there. Plan on moving there when I finish Uni. Too fed up of wrexham and the people here these days lol.
Haha. Well bebo lost its appeal when my sister got it :L And Myspace, well I've never been a fan of that anyway.

Yeah Uni is expensive. But you can take out loans which you dont have to pay back until you're earning a certain amount. So its not all bad really. I dont mind the written work too much, Im not really a fan of practical. The only reason I enjoyed the music video and photography was because my mate was willing to do all the stuff in front of the camera. If it wasnt for him, I would have hated it more than usual lol.

Wow, you're like the first guy Ive ever met who doesnt like two girls doing stuff lol! I didnt like the film, I didnt find it funny. And I dont think it was worthy of being called lesbian vampire killers. "Girls who hold hands vampire killers" would have been a better title.
Matt Horne was good though, but only because I find him hot.

Ahh Uni isnt the be all and end all. Depends what you want out of life. I want to work in magazines/newspaper etc. And it would be virtually impossible to even get a look in without and English degree. And seeing as Im a double honours student, I have the media course aswell. So they will have no option but to hire me Lol! But you wont become a hobo if you dont go. Thats a shallow thing to say to someone. And lots of people get jobs in media without having a degree. Just the part of media i want to work in, needs the higher education bit. xx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-08-30 15:35:02 +0000 UTC]

aww klskls :]
im sure ive been there you know not since i was 10 though.
i wanna move to yorkshire somewere quiet its so friendly in the places iv been there and i feel at home.
plus my dads side of the family started in yorkshire so itd be nice to start again there.
im also sick of people round here i honestly like a handful thats it, not even my mates are my mates anymore lol wel theres u, my friend amy, dan, and about 5 others posibly most other people just piss me off and they all have to be the same.

i heard about that loan but i dont wanna be in a position were im paying it back im kinda too indipendant that way lol i like having everything done myself.

haha, ye wel im not like most guys tbh i think thats why i dont have many guy mates anymore.
haha ye it should be called that. and haha thought u would i think most girls do, black hair blue eyes its like heaven to a girl haha. im the complete oposite naturaly im dark blonde brown eyes lol.

wel for what ur doing id say uv made the right decision going cus like u said it is really hard to get into that kinda thing with no uni grade.
id like to do alot of things in media its just finding the right one thats the hard part.
i dont want my job to take over my life eva it sounds abit soft but id like to be more of a family kinda guy than career guy.
but obv have a decent job to make sure they were fed and well looked after. xxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-08-31 20:35:05 +0000 UTC]

Oh cool. I love it down there. We went for a drive, and theres little village that looks like its come straight out of a photograph. I didnt know places like that actually existed these days lol. Cool Ive never been to Yorkshire. I know how you feel, I was sick of people in Yale. But now Im not there, and have met a couple of nice people who are going to my Uni, so Im happy

Ahh I see, you can still get EMA aswell in Uni. They have to have the loans and EMA available, because theres people coming from allsorts of backgrounds. I get what you mean though..

Aha, ive always prefered darker haired lads. But personality does play a large part. I think to just like someone because of how they look is silly. I didnt know you're naturally dark blonde. Im naturally blonde, so I have my blonde moments So Im naturally blonde hair, blue eyes. The perfect match really, just a shame the blonde didnt look right on me lol.

Ahh well theres no hurry. Some people take years to find a job they really like. All part of the experience. And besides, how do you know whats right for you unless you try it.. All depends on when you want to achieve your goals. I'd like a family at some point, but I want my career sorted first. That way I dont have to balance starting a career and a family at the same time. But hey, who knows whats going to happen. I could fall pregnant next week and that whole plan goes down the drain. Just have to wait and see what happens xxx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-09-05 12:07:37 +0000 UTC]

lol pregnant? haha i think ur a little more sensible than that haha.
couldnt see u getting knocked up.
not that ur not good lookin i mean ur sensible enough.

annnd i have a car now :] my dads mate gave it me it needs some small mechanical jobs that me n me dad are gonna do soon and ive got to paint some bits but nothing huge thankfully, then my mum said if she gets this disability money back shes gonna pay for a lesson a week for me if i give a fiva twards it aswell cus i think shes notivced im being rly patient and stuff but i have a passion for wanting to be able to drive espesh now i have a car. its hard sometimes cus all my mates are driving but im used to waiting lol.

its nice though its a white vauxhall cavalire SRI (cant spell it) and its 2 ltr and its the sports version cus its SRI its the same age as me but the fact its sports with 2 ltr engine is god and bad, its good cus its better looking and has a rly good powerfull engine so its reliable but the insurence will be higher.
but i wont be driving proply till im bout 19-21 probs.
xxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-09-11 16:57:33 +0000 UTC]

Ohh sounds nice Have you had a driving lesson before? Or havent you started at all?
I havent even sat behind the wheel of a car, so the fact you have a car and are planning on getting lessons shows your miiiiles ahead of me lol. I have no interest in driving, I'll just wait for someone to pass and they can drive me around

Started back at Yale yet? xx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-09-12 15:06:36 +0000 UTC]

lol and nah not yet cant afford it just yet :/
mum said shed help pay for one a week if she gets this disability money back but they havnt even decided weather to let her appeal yet.
so might not ever get that.
so im looking for a part time job cus i have tuesdays off college. and il have weekends although i could do with some of them. espesh now iv been asked into a band with my mate from college and a bunch of guys that were in difrent wrexham bands last year.
when are you in uni? is it september you go? wel late september?
college is worse this year for its organisation n stuff, we now have to pay £20 just to be registered as a student then on top of that the £75 trips and workshop fees.
but my course fair play seems alot better this year but only cus tony, paddy, karen and steve have like their own team thing goin on and they dont want much to do with the rest of college theyv goten just as fed up as us.

i had a shock yday aswel lol my best mate wel apart from andy but my best mate whose alive if u get me is dan from college hes alot like me humour wise so we get on awsome and yday i found out hes a dad of a 1 week old baby with his gf i was like waaaaa lol i couldnt beleive it. hes happy about it now though cus hes over the whole shock and parents finding out and fair play hes stil in love with his gf and wont leave her. but ina way although he was also irrisponsible i cant help but wonder if she trapped him :/ cus shes only 16 and shes extremely obsessed with dan, i can be clingy n stuff but christ she has to txt call or be with him like litraly every minuite. i can be bad, i like to text once a day or something to say hi and stuff but i couldnt do that itd do my head in lol.
but their happy tgeva luckily, it was just such a shock i didnt think he would end up in that situation, but it could happen to anyone.
xxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-09-12 22:42:44 +0000 UTC]

The other reason why I dont want to drive, is because it is sooo expensive!! And then even after the lessons you have to pay for the theory and the test. Its not for me at the moment, I've become too used to spending my wages everyweek on clothes and dvds
Alot of places are after xmas staff now, so you're much more likely to get a job! Depends what sort of thing you want to do?

I start on the 21st, which is a week on Monday. And Im soooo excited Even though Im still in Wrexham, Im no where near Yale which is fine by me Im ready to move on and meet new people. And the people Ive met who are going there I get on really well with, so I wont be as nervous on the monday. All you do the first week is get drunk and . . . get drunk some more anyway, the uni's organise all these events. And I havent been drunk in ages because Ive been on medication, so its all guuurd

Ahhh the paying up front. I know that well from photography. It sucks. Especially paying for the trips, because you dont even know if you're even going to go on a trip. I didnt pay my trip money for photography, they didnt notice. And even if they had I had been on the trip with them, and wouldnt have paid if they asked. So tough on them Im soooo glad to be out of Yale. How come you have to pay to be registered?? Thats a new rule

Oh god. Did he not mention it at all the past 9 months? It is kinda something you think someone would mention atleast once lol.
Its good thats he's standing by her though, I mean relationships at this age have enough stress on them as it is. But good for him for standing by her!
Yeaaah she does sound pretty clingy tbh :S Very clingy actually. It all depends on the person I guess. Because Im not a clingy person, someone being clingy to me is an instant turn off. But then again some people like the attention. Totally depends on the individual. One persons heaven is another persons hell and all that xx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-09-14 06:16:28 +0000 UTC]

ahhh yeah wel luckily iv been thinking about that lol ive made sure my plans right.
iv decided im staying to do A level and finish hopefully have a part time job too so i can save up for driving lessons and save allll my money for it. or atleast 80% of it. cus i dont plan on driving til im 21 anyway and thats how old il be nearly when i leave yale. cus insurence is cheaper when your 21 and cus il still have the same car n stuff itl be quicker for me in the future to have my no claims bonus. unless i damage my car ina accident which i prayer dont happen lol.

yee haha wel im not paying til they ask either lol.
i payed the £20 otherwise i wouldnt be going back tday its conpulsery on the first day.

and ye it shocked me. i think he was scared of his mates judging him hes only told me though and possibly his other mate steve. but i dno. he did say he was glad i found out though cus its probs got it off his shoulders abit telling a friend.

and yeeerrr im weird cus as u know i used to be clingy but since my last gf which was ages ago now ive just not been bothered about getting a gf, i wouldnt turn one down if i knew someone liked me enough but im not like doing what i used to. and tbh i think one reason im not bothered was cus i was actually scared all summer of liking someone when i knew they liked me cus i was so sick of having the same excuses and breakups i didnt wanna go through it again.
xxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-09-14 21:36:49 +0000 UTC]

Well thats good Atleast you know exactly what you want, and what you need to do to get it!!
You're less likely to crash aswell if you do it when you're 21. You'll be a lot more responsible, and most accidents happen to people who have just passed their test and are 17.

So is this paying £20 a new rule then? Its a bit of a stupid rule. Then again, thats cheap compared to the amount of money I've had to fork out for Uni. And its nice that your friend told you. Shows he trusts you enough

Yeaah, you have had a pretty hard time with relationships. When the right girl comes along you'll know it. Theres no point looking for them, because they always find you. Im quite happy to just date and have a laugh now. Thats what Im after in Uni. If I meet someone I really like, perhaps a relationship could start. But whatever, Im happy to wait

xxx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-09-15 09:08:09 +0000 UTC]

ye i dont know exactly i have to say i can wake up the next day confused about everything again.
it didnt help yday lol cus i was on the bus goin home from college and my friend got off and then this new girl came to sit were my friend sat on the other side to my seat when she couldv stayed were she was or sat anywere else and i was imediatly confused cus i dont read signs very wel, i dno if i was meant to talk to her or what cus im reaaaaly shy especially when theres other people around. and i was listnin to music and she was and i could just be getting the wrong impression u know, maybe she just fancied sitting at the front lol but she seamed nice and was cute lol but im really not good at saying hi n stuff. its been bugging me cus i can never break the ice and i cant keep finding them after online to talk.
i just felt guilty after cus i thought shit what if she expected me to talk lol. or sat by me for a reason.

and ye its a new rule which sucks lol.
yerr tel me about it lol actually scrap that frase haha.
ive gotta say i couldv been more carefull ok so i didnt know how they were gonna end up with me but i couldv stoped my feelings for abit just to take time to see them inside who they really are.
but when i like someone i become too trusting.
im not trusting at all when i dont like em lol.
it just annoys me cus what i wanna know is how do girls like being approached? lol its so complicated im scared if i go up to someone and say hi and start asking questions theyl get freaked out. like the girl on the bus if id sat by her and tapped her and say hi would she think im a freak or something? lol i dno how girls work haha. i know if a girl did that to me id be freaked out but ina good way as in omg a girls talking to me this never happens haha.

wel im glad ur happy and stuff just be carefull when dating n stuff ur still my friend so id hate for anything to happen to ya.
i know how guys who date can be and their after one thing.

xxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-09-15 14:38:03 +0000 UTC]

I think perhaps you're reading a bit too much into the situation. And by reading too much into anything small, its no wonder that you get so confused. You know, maybe she just wanted to sit down, recognised you and sat there. It doesnt necassarilly have to mean anything. Like if a girl smiles at you, it could just be a friendly gesture. People can be nice to you, without having to want to have a relationship or hurt you. I think when you stop reading too much into things, you'll become a lot more relaxed. But you know, no1;s confident around the opposite sex.

Honestly. Girls have noooooo idea what we want lol. We all have these ideal men in our heads, and we want a man to be everything. We want them to be shy, but also outgoing, to be romantic but not clingy, chatty but not arrogant. Seriously no man can possibly try to be what a girl wants lol. Same with being approached. Each girl wants something different. Just because how you approach one girl doesnt work, doesnt mean the same method wont work with another girl. Seriously, just be yourself. Totally depends on the girl herself. If I were you tbh, I would have just smiled at the girl when she sat by you. Thats all the situation would have needed tbh.

Yeah I know how guys can be after one thing. But girls can also just be after one thing. I know what Im doing and letting myself in for. So I'll be fine. I just want a bit of fun

xxx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-09-16 05:55:10 +0000 UTC]

ahhh i see lol i know im a pain in the arse lol.
i always look deep into something straight away its annoying.
ty anyway i will take that advice into hand this time lol.
i wouldv smiled but she looked shy cus she was smiling to herself now n again if i looked over and when she sat down she was sorta like covering her face with her hair abit like she was shy.
i dno she might be a drug using whore for all i know but she looked like a nice shy girl tbh but hey they can seem like that then all of a suddern im wishing they were whores cus they turn evil on me lol.

ye wel aslong as ur doing what your happt with its kl :]
i would dispise the fact if u did drugs to be happy or something but u dont so were kl were kl ;] lol
ahh im bored i got college tday which i dont mind atm but the units seem wellll boring :/ we have all research and interview units again :/
but some interviews might be fun, last year it was always old people but this year tony was ona bout bands n stuff which would be awsome and hopefully zebrahead happens to be in wrexham central at the time lol.
but we only have one video unit and one experimental photo unit and experimental photo is always bloody pinhole photo.
why we dont go out with an slr and take pics of what we want i dont know.
xxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-09-17 21:44:27 +0000 UTC]

Aha, you're not a pain the arse lol. Everyone looks into things. I do it aswell. Just somethings can be totally harmless and meaningless

Haha, i would never do drugs anyway. Im proud to say Im one of the few to have never tried weed or a cigarette So you dont have to worry about me doing drugs lol..

Whats an interview unit for then?
Ahh pinhole photography. Luckily I managed to get out of doing that. I always worked with SLR's. I think Im going to join a photography group in Uni, just because its quite fun. And I want to meet as wide a range of people as possible

Prefer this course to your last one then?

xxx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-09-18 17:23:41 +0000 UTC]

thats ok then lol
damm i have sucha headache yakno :/
never had one this bad, i think iv had too much on my mind ontop of colleges new work n stuff and on the bus home it was rly sunny in my eyes so that didnt help.
i came home a right grumpy arse lol. i think i came to realise how people can be today. my mates from last years course apart from dan have ditched me for the new populer kids and their stuck up with me the new ppl.
and already my tutors anoying me again this year.
something funny happened yday but it turned unfunny tday cus i was already ina mood lol, theres a new girl in my class shes really nice fair play and i didnt think much of her for the first few days cus i couldnt tel what kinda person she was.then we got talking in the LRC when we were working together on something with this other girl my friend ceirwen and i thought she was bein deaad nice to me which she was and we had alot in common and then she shows a pic of her and her bf to the other girl lol i laughed about it after cus i thought omg its just my luck that haha its funny again now but christ when i was in class tday i was like ahhh bloody girls why do i like em so much lol not saying there bad i mean i always get myself into a situation with em lol.
and i dont think the girl on the bus that time was interested cus i moved near her actually it was by accident and she moved to the seat behind her lol.
abit aragent but hey.
ah wel, im nt exactly upset just had alot of let downs this week just when i thought i was ok.
but i stil am rly.
it helps talking to you cus wel ura friend and your clever and listn to me so its alot of weight of my shoulders.
anyway enough about me i always talk about me lol howv you been? still looking forward to uni?
dont loose contact with me when u go :]
i dont expect to see u or anythin but the odd message helps :]
ul have to give me ur new number when you can, wel if u want u dont have to obv lol.
wb soon
xxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-09-22 14:52:15 +0000 UTC]

Ive been good thanks The weekend was a mixture. Saturday I spent all day and most of the night with Al. Last time I see him before xmas ya see. He's off to a different Uni :/ Ah well. Its pretty obvious how close he and I are. So I know we'll be fine
And Ive started Uni, and I lovveeeeee it sooooosooooosoooo much Its a fresh start I reaaaally needed.
Im kinda glad Im working tonight, I dont think I could manage another night of drink and dance. Works giving me a break :L
It really is soooo much better than Yale. I was in Yale this morning, and its still pretty damn shit. Even the new paint in the reception hasnt had much impact lol!
And the people are much better! Like they've grown up. Theres still the odd idiot, but some people just are lol! But Ive got quite a good group. Both male and female.
Hows things for you?

xx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-09-22 15:42:29 +0000 UTC]

aww kls wel im glad ur havnt a good time n stuff :]
iv started gettin bloody prank calls again :/
so iv kept my phone off.
gotta get a new one anyway and wen i do il only give my numba to people i trust.
pretty bored lately, college is boring again this year rly, its all interviews n crap like that, and its not even interesting interviews its all about batry farming n stuff.
n me and my mate have been discussing it for ages that were gonna make a horror movie, were gonna do it handheld cus personaly i think some horrors hand held are not only easyer to do cheap budget wise but they can be more effective depending on what story you use.
were stuck between ideas though, dans rly into slasher films and i love ghost films, but weve agreed if we do a horror its gotta be original nothing like scream or amityville cus its all been done b4. and deffo no zonbie films, i like em but theres way too many.
were working on a rllly tight plan no money tbh and only a few possible actors but we know itl work. wel do a storyline that only consists of a few charicters.
its gonna be sereous aswel not all this typical college shit. we wanna make a decent low budget film.
they did it with blar wich and look how succesful that turned out. only wed probs actually make a better script cus blair whichs ending was sht lol.
sooo we cant wait to get started. but were still researching, iv been watching behind the scenes and stuff on my horror dvds.
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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-09-22 21:40:59 +0000 UTC]

Thats why I changed my number. I gave it out loads in AS, and ended up never speaking to most of the people again. And I kept getting phone calls off people I dont know. So now I hardly ever give it out. And Ive had no phone calls or silly texts. So changing your number is probably the best Plus I love my new phone
Oh right.. Why are you just doing interviews all the time??
Cool cool. Horrors a pretty difficult genre tbh. We studied it as part of A2 Media. I prefer slasher. But Im not a horror fan anyway. Plus if you're on a budget, slasher wouldnt be the ideal.
Blair Witch had the success because when it was released no1 knew if it was a true story, or fake. So the mystery drew people to it. Ive never seen it, but yeah, Ive heard the ending is shit.
Its good you've found something though
Im gonna try get back photographing once Ive settled into Uni. Winters coming, and is my fave time of year. So look forward to photographing in it xx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-09-23 06:13:46 +0000 UTC]

aww shit lol id be well uncomfortable ina class when i dont know which one is pranking me lol.
mind u im abit uncomfortable now cus it could be anyone pranking me and i could be passing them everyday it annoys me.
i remember i used to get em alot over xmas in 2008 i think it was, telling me to kill myself and all this shit and bein dead threataning. turned out to be a group of scenes from denbigh cus one was my ex that cheated on me on prom night i told u a while ago i think.
i just put the phone down now its just stupid to argue with em they think their hard on the other end of a phone.
i dno tony pugh just has a boring taste in media lol.
ye its difficult to come up with an idea but easyer to make than action, iv done action routines b4 and bloody hell lol even without special effects its bloody hard to get each shot right and theres a 180 degreese rule were if someones running you cant film from the left and then film from the right cus the audience get confused to the direction the people are running.
but ye should be cool hopefully dans come up with some ideas tday cus i havnt lol iv been wel bussy and still havnt gotten any work done for tmoro :/ my printers out of black ink so iv not been able to do it yet. was gonna do it tday but i got my times mixed up i thought i had time off in the morning.
ye thats the main reason it was famous tbh it was an ok film i watched it when i knew it was fake and i loved it first 2 times. but you cant watch it more than 3 times or youl get bored of it and get disapointed in the ending. another reason it got well known is cus they i think were the frst to use first person hand held cameras ina horror film. which i love. one of the beeeest horrors in my opinion is quarentine its bloody awsome, its about infected people like zombies i gues but its not cle che at all its completely unique the way they do it its amazing and its all hand held.
the acting helped alot though they look genuinly scared.
aww ye kool :]
i like winter not so much for the weather i prefere warm but not hot weather, but i love xmas and im like a kid lol but i love xmas time when its snowing its just amazin lol and makes good photography :]
anyway glad ur having a good time in uni and glad ur still writing lol and hope u hava good day n stuff talk soons.
xxx

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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-09-23 15:49:34 +0000 UTC]

Ahh I see. I seem to have settled in rather well. Im ill now, so cant do much more freshers until Friday. But I used to hate being with people I dont know, but its gone rather well. I havent started my classes yet. Cant wait though.
Yeah I know the 180 rule, theres looadds of camera rules. I cant film, I hated doing filming. I prefer theory and analysing peoples work. Thankfully thats when my screen studies course is in Uni.
Meeeh horror isnt for me. I dont like being scared. And if i do watch horror, it has to be slasher. They arent scary, just twisted lol. The last none slasher film I saw was Ju-on. And well, I didnt sleep that night, so i really hate hate haaate horror lol.
When do you think you'll start filming?

xx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-09-24 06:18:11 +0000 UTC]

ahh klkl
i watched trinity last night i pray ur uni is nothing like it lol.
its put me off em even more haha.
cant stand rich snobs like the guys on trinity.
ye sadly there is haha i hate rules in video its just ahh lol. its ok to know about em im like ahh right i understand then when you film youve gotta be extremely careful with shots even if youve got a shot plan.
awww haha i dont get scared easily so luckily i can watch any horrors and not get scared, il get abit freaked out or jumpy but i havnt been scared since the grudge that was only cus i have a fear of demoinic kids lol.
i think its cus i watched the exorcist when i was 10 lol my parents were like noooo ur not watching it its too scary for u but i begged and begged and they thought id get too scared after 10 mins and leave but i didnt haha i was scared but now that films just rly funny to me haha it should be a comedy now its just lost its scare.
urmmm dno tbh cus wed only just come up with a comfortable idea were probs sticking with yday, its gonna be a slasher film but make sure its atleast jumpy and i love film that give you a frighful adrenalin so i want to give that mood to it aswel, basicly cus we are rly limited on actors were using teens, probs ourselves aswel lol, and basicly these teens bully this one teen whos like the reject and isnt all there n stuff and abit bothic/emo, and they chase him through woods throwing shit and all sorts rly give him a hard time and home life isnt much better for him so one day he hangs himself and he somehow comes back to life and starts to kill off all the teens that bullied him one by one. we dont know all the details yet but were gonna call it hangman cus we thought it was clever lol cus he also hangs his victims after killing them cus he hung himself.
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Pandoras-box1 In reply to azz182 [2009-09-25 10:59:27 +0000 UTC]

Aha. I never saw Trinity, so I dont know what its like. Unis fun though. You just seem to drink, dance. And study what you acutally want to study. I love it! Im going to see the cheeky girls on wednesday. Should be hilarious! Lol.
Ive been ill since tuesday though, so havent been able to do most of the uni stuff. Been sitting at home with a sore throat and a chest infection. Bad times.
Ohh sounds good. Got any people to star in it yet then?

xxx

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azz182 In reply to Pandoras-box1 [2009-09-25 18:25:32 +0000 UTC]

aww gdgd glad ur enjoying it :]
nnd aww *hug* hope u get better qick.
haha kls :]
urmm wel i funny enough was talking to dan and we were origianly gonna ask people we knew but i decided to stop worring about if someones gonna be reliable cus il have this trouble in the future if i go on to direct bigger stuff. so after i write the script were gonna open auditions for drama students for the film.
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