Spiritsoulknight In reply to roxaswantsacupcake [2019-03-28 21:59:54 +0000 UTC]

It was my Birthday on that date, ; ^; Thank you so much!! I feel bad I missed this! 

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roxaswantsacupcake In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2019-03-29 05:48:45 +0000 UTC]

it's ok! i'm just glad i got the date right uwu hehe

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 00:02:29 +0000 UTC]

Same as before, nothing really. Yourself? 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-11 00:08:42 +0000 UTC]

Going slowly insane being unable to get a job. Doing critiques and what not for people, drawing, writing really crappy things for money because I'm broke.  Stranded - UnpaidIt was a warm summer day off the coast of Florida. A group of moms in their late thirties to early forties were enjoying a few drinks on a private boat they borrowed from their husbands.
Grace's stomach rumbled, she rubbed it to try to settle it down again, "Hey Charlet, is there anything left in the cooler to eat, my tummy is rumbling?" Grace asked pouring herself the last of the white wine. Her cheeks were a little rosy and her blond hair fell in ringlets around her shoulders.
"We finished off all the stuff for lunch an hour ago, you know that." Charlet replied. Her own stomach rumbled. She, too, rubbed her stomach "But yeah, my stomach is complaining too." Her green eyes peered at Grace from behind a pair of designer glasses. She raked her fingers through her brown and blond streaked hair, annoyed as the wind had blown it into her face. "Rose, why don't you start this baby up and take us back home, I'm getting hungry, plus the men will be looking for us. We all k 

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 00:13:17 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry to hear that. Recently had trouble myself with my old laptop overheating and frying the hard drive. It was dead beyond saving sadly. 
Someone like you shouldn't have to lower themselves to do unwanted things for money. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-11 00:16:40 +0000 UTC]

I can't get a job.... there's really nothing here, and what is here they don't hire me and I don't understand why. When I get to 7K words, I'll get $70. It's just really hard to write because every third sentence she needs to have a rumbling tummy, pat it, then whine about her tummy.... 

You always had issues with overheating laptops. Speaking of laptops, when did you get a drawing tablet?

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 00:18:34 +0000 UTC]

Wow people don't know how to-...Ugh.

And drawing tablet? It's been about a month now. I lost all of my sketches though when my laptop died. I didn't back it up with a flash drive because I didn't account for it happening. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-11 00:20:55 +0000 UTC]

ALWAYS back things up... especially on a laptop. Laptops are so crappy they fail so often...

What sort of tablet did you get? 

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 00:23:05 +0000 UTC]

It's an Intuos Wacom. Like the next step up from a Bamboo, cause I think they discontinued Bamboo tablets, I"m not sure. But it works just fine and I like it. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-11 00:24:50 +0000 UTC]

I want to get one of those nice ones that you can see the screen on. However, right now I'd be happy getting my old bamboo tablet back so I don't have to share Ryan's Bamboo CTL-460. Plus I miss the normal mouse extension. 

Hey, how are your parents? Are they still together or have things gone to hell again?

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 00:29:04 +0000 UTC]

Things have gone nothing but south since my mom moved back up here, to put it simply. It's just a domino effect each week where another one falls. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-11 00:31:02 +0000 UTC]

I had a feeling it would... I believe I advised your mum that it was a bad idea, but I respect she wanted to stop being with her mother with how much screaming there was.

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 00:33:43 +0000 UTC]

She came back up here for her kids, not my dad. But we all saw how that ended up, and everyone is borderline miserable in that house. It really saddens me to see the condition in that house every time I go for a visit. You can literally feel the sadness. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-11 00:35:12 +0000 UTC]

No. You never "stay together for the kids", they were better off separated. I'm so sorry that your sister has to live like that because your parents wanted everyone to be able to be together...

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 00:38:52 +0000 UTC]

I do my best to make that little girl happy. I can only do so much. I also go her a drawing tablet for her birthday, she was asking for one since last year and my dad never did. 
Same model too and she loves it. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-11 00:46:29 +0000 UTC]

I'm glad you're being so kind to her, your dad is a real shit.

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 00:53:50 +0000 UTC]

Yes, we all know. *shakes head* 
But if we could, would there be anything happy we could talk about? 
Or, perhaps I could draw something for you, might take some time, but I wouldn't mind doing so. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-11 10:11:39 +0000 UTC]

Well, Nuada somehow turned into my husband so I don't write/draw with him anymore because he's no longer in my head but outside my body... I've been working on Cyra's design. 



maybe you could try drawing her

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 14:32:10 +0000 UTC]

I'll give her a try, no promises she'll be done soon or colored.
interesting enough, her hair is almost as long as my Princess. ...It's a long story. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-11 19:46:00 +0000 UTC]

Why don't you start?

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 20:21:30 +0000 UTC]

You mean my story or on Cyra? 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-11 20:22:19 +0000 UTC]

Your story.

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 20:34:43 +0000 UTC]

spiritsoulknight.deviantart.co… <- Well if you haven't seen yet, This is Princess.
So, as it starts. 

I was playing Runescape trying to acquire something called a "Boss Pet." Boss pets are miniature versions of the boss monster you kill many times over. Some luckier than others to get them at low numbers, rather than ridiculously high numbers. My boss pet in question was the Queen Black Dragon, hence why she's "Princess" because she's so small.

Anyway forward onto the story; I was drawing the Queen as if she were a human, in some form of the word. I had the picture half done when I set it aside and called it a night that night.
In my dream though, I 'woke up' in my dream only to find a small child at the foot of my bed, curled up in her long raven-black hair, wearing something of a royal dress and half kimono.
At first I thought I was just dreaming, lucid huh? But due to my shifting on the bed, it woke her up, as she began to wake she gave a cute yawn, which sounded like a "Raaaawr," but tired and childlike. She looked up at me with tired eyes, rubbed her eyes with her very long sleeves and went "Good morning, Daddy." 
At this point I was mentally freaking out, until she gave a little "flare hiccup" where my dream thought it wasn't a dream and overall confused me so much. But the fact she curled up with me, hugged me and just felt safe in my protection, and being called "daddy" on top of it, I was so heartfelt that the idea stuck with me since then. 

Now that I think about it, I think you may have influenced it in some way. Or it was just purely coincidental. But regardless, that's my story. She makes me mentally happy when I'm depressed at work, so, I just adore it. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-11 22:06:20 +0000 UTC]

It's really cute. 

That story is really cute too. I'm sure she's lovely to think about while you're working

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 22:08:44 +0000 UTC]

I'm glad you think so. ^_^ Even if she's not real, she feels real to me. I don't think I"m ever going to forget that Dream.

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-11 22:10:48 +0000 UTC]

I know what you mean. :3 I'm really glad that you have her. 

I wrote a journal...

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 22:18:46 +0000 UTC]

I see, so that's what that means. Now that I think about it it seems about right to be honest. 
Though I'm sorry that condition is a burden to you.

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-11 22:21:05 +0000 UTC]

It's been better, but sometimes it comes back pretty hard. Today I was reduced to tears.... It happens.

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 22:23:06 +0000 UTC]

I'm sorry though. I hope it's something that can be controlled one day where you don't have to worry about it coming up.

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-11 22:33:06 +0000 UTC]

Most likely not. It's a life long condition. I was at level 5, I'm down to level one now, which is as good as it gets. It's just... now I think my dad did it, he won't talk to me... I don't know. I just feel down today. I think I'm heading to bed, it's nearly midnight and I have a sore head and feel like crying.

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-10-11 22:37:15 +0000 UTC]

I know this is a stretch, but I do hope you feel better then, hun.
Good night. :c 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-10-12 10:40:31 +0000 UTC]

Thanks. It was sorta a crappy night for a while. Feeling a bit better. slept late though. 

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-09-30 21:39:38 +0000 UTC]

I still care, despite the long absence. Welcome back then, hope everything is alright. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-09-30 21:43:31 +0000 UTC]

I noted you a long time ago and no reply. I expect comments and faves  

you our probably think I'm a bitch or have a gf or moved on totally by now... I'm surprised you messaged back actually.....

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-09-30 21:47:17 +0000 UTC]

I noted you back actually and waited on your reply, I think. I don't remember. I really have forgotten about a lot of things. 
I've come to the understanding that "what you did is your own life matters, and I have no more part to play in it." So, bygones be bygones. 
And no, I'm still single. There really is no one here in Boyertown for me. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-09-30 21:49:03 +0000 UTC]

I would t want you to end up with anyone in Btown, you're too good for any of those girls anyway...

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-09-30 22:01:50 +0000 UTC]

Now why do you say that? Or is it that we all know that Boyertown is mostly filled with "Trash"? 
Anyway, I don't know if I'll date again soon. Kind of lost what I wanted to be, only to end up a lonely mess. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-09-30 22:03:26 +0000 UTC]

It isn't "trash" it's garbage. Very few decent girls there. 

What at are you doing anyway?

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-09-30 22:07:19 +0000 UTC]

At the same miserable job I had when you left. Made some..."Friends" I guess. Or just work associates since I don't talk to them outside of work. 
Finally reached the pit line of being depressed. So, it's kind of weird that you would show up at the time I'm having depression. 
...Oh did you mean right now or in general? Cause nothing right now, trying to draw if anything. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-09-30 22:08:39 +0000 UTC]

Zachary and Nick might join you soon.

draw Cyra if you need an idea.

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-09-30 22:11:26 +0000 UTC]

To be honest I don't remember any of your characters, well what they look like. Wasn't Cyra the character you had for Black Butler? 
Kind of gave up on Rping any more so most memories were lost. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-09-30 22:12:53 +0000 UTC]

Yes, undertakers daughter... 

So I guess your family and Nick hates me?

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-09-30 22:15:05 +0000 UTC]

I don't know. As angry as I was, I could never really draw myself to hate you. I think Nick might cause of how made I was, but I kept coming back with remorse than hatred. My family, eh, I'm sure they don't care either way. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-09-30 22:17:49 +0000 UTC]

I know Nick hates my guts. I had to block him like the day after I stopped talking to you. 

It wasn't you you know. I needed to finally address my PTSD and talking to you was making it worse.

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-09-30 22:22:32 +0000 UTC]

I know. I realized I was becoming an issue when I wasn't able to help in ways you needed to be helped. So, all things said I am sorry that I failed you. 
If anything I'm glad your life was set back on track. I may have moved on, but I'll still always be around. To say the least. 

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SolarLunix In reply to Spiritsoulknight [2015-09-30 22:24:33 +0000 UTC]

Thanks. 

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Spiritsoulknight In reply to SolarLunix [2015-09-30 22:28:09 +0000 UTC]

Guess I'll let you go. It must be late over there. 

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