SithiR In reply to CrazyGreggy [2012-06-19 16:54:44 +0000 UTC]

I'll say she is. I have just been stepping through the screen into my head-canon and speaking with her. Hannah says that her middle name is Eleanor, after her mommy and that she also has a nursing degree. She has already told me about her husband, Branimir, who was once a Major in the Alfa Group and was later in the Russian Federal Protective Service, at the head of the president's security detail. So, my Shepard is not simply Canadian, but rather she is one of the Russo-Canadians. My Shepard loves foreign cultures and she can speak many languages without a translator including even a major dialect of the Batarians, and in particular she has perfect fluency in a major dialect of the asari. She can even throat-sing a very small number of the words of the Turians, but not enough to be useful -- most such words are not compatible with our soft tissue and vocal chords. That is to say, she has one of the same kinds of voracious fascinations that I have -- the fascination with cultures. My Zhenia pummeled the mind of the racist on Pinnacle station by speaking according to his own lifeways. She quoted the relevant legal ruling of the Turians, that humans could register duels and blood feuds against Turians and thus get official permission to conduct them, in the same way as the Turians did among themselves. For his government would grant permission, because now there were witnesses to his having insulted her honor and that of a fellow soldier, saying both had cheated at the simulation.

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SithiR In reply to alternatepony [2012-04-08 16:52:40 +0000 UTC]

["My" Zhenia answers her, speaking in Tyann'asyárriyhha learned for her sake:]

Every time I kill it is in your name.

Every time I watch you fight, I want to make love.

Every breath I take it is for you, every time I see you I want to write you another love-poem [which in fact I have].

Every breath of your voice I cry at its beauty.

When I saw that bomb I severed their limbs and I cut them into pieces while they were still alive, weeping and bellowing your name [crying so hard I could not see the screen] and the pieces of Vasir, I bit a vein from her and spat her blood and in the sight of the one who sent her there, threw down organs that I had taken from her.

I will find the secret of another Way, if there be no relays. The Reapers teleportation without relays ... I will find it even if I must cut it from the entrails of our enemies. From my Earth, I WILL FIND YOU AND I WILL COME BACK TO YOU OR I DO NOT DESERVE TO LIVE. I WILL. Little blue children. To death and past it. The refugees crying for aid, no trade, no food, no life, no hope. I will help you help them.

I ordered you to the escape pod. You are not a soldier, but a civilian, you were never Sworn as we. But you showed ritual respect to me, though not required by custom. You did not say yes, nor did you say do I have to, nor did you say as you wish. You said aye aye. That will echo in me until my last moment.

I wept. [I indeed did.]

My poems:

[link]

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alternatepony In reply to SithiR [2012-04-08 20:04:59 +0000 UTC]

Wow, that quite the comprehensive reply, I couldn't give a worth reply. Well-thought.

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SithiR In reply to alternatepony [2012-04-09 01:37:06 +0000 UTC]

Yes, you can give one -- you just have not been inspired/don't feel like it/you've convinced yourself you can't do things like that which is a very bad self-lie and very sad. Try not to think negative stuff about yourself. Almost anyone can do almost anything.

It is very hard for me, too. I have no wish to be weird, but I am really good at channeling fictional characters and being them. And I really would love her. I don't tell lies. I felt suicidal after Mordin died, my father was a social worker and he suicided some years ago. I actually started shouting that they should take the real me instead of Mordin. Mordin and Liara are the only ones who would be as intellectual as me, so I really really care about them. Joker, I very much don't like him because he is too informal, and I would have constantly struggled to restrain myself from either disciplining him or hitting him -- DID I GIVE PERMISSION FOR YOU TO TELL JOKES *ON DUTY* YOU UNDISCIPLINED ... ?! In LotSB, when Liara said that Joker had asked her if she and Shepard "would be acting out scenes from some vid called Vaenya," the real me felt so angry that I wanted to break his arm. And that is really saying something, because the real me has a mobility impairment too.

Though it would make me sad, I will understand if it turns out to be too hard for you to tell me what you think about my poems. Still, please tell me wether you read them. It is important to me. When I put things in brackets, it means that is what I was actually feeling when I was playing the game.

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alternatepony In reply to SithiR [2012-04-09 02:48:52 +0000 UTC]

Zhenia
I know this is more than unhealthy fascination with me, I can tell by intent behind the poems.No one has express there utter undying love in such a potent way to me before. Maybe I just never took the time to hear them out. You mirror feels similar to how I feel towards Shepard, but I know their is a lot on his plate with shepard.I just so troubled with a decision I do not mean to offend you. The internal struggle within between the my duty as the shadow broker and my possible for feelings of a fulfilling life with either Shepard or you.With you we will be loving equals, its just hard not to be true to my feelings with Shepard, he was the first to truly believe me who wasn't my mothers, he inspired like nobody else could. He should me what was at stake if people sat back and let corruption and fear run galaxy. But he still seems so distant he is a living legend, how do you confess your love to a legend who so many people have strong feelings for. Is wrong to want him all to myself, I fought for him when most had given up on him. But all resources and knowledge I never get another chance like this and even if I stepped down who would take my place, it selfish of me but for greater good I must somebody else might get it wrong. I will decide However, I would be opposed to a in-depth physical examination study of your athletic abilities before I head back to resume Shadow Broker duty on the Normandy. If I remember correctly, it's customary to be intimate with ones you have feelings with before a suicidal last stand mission.

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SithiR In reply to alternatepony [2012-04-09 04:05:00 +0000 UTC]

[in character] I didn't realize that because other dimensions contained other versions of me, there must also be more than one of you, more than one Liara. As you may gather, I am a woman. I will not pursue a version of you that loves a man, I will not betray your Shepard with you, I love you too much. Go get him! You can take a wireless link with you and get off that ship, while you can still be the Shadow Broker. Watch out, Cerberus is coming after you ... I will not insult you by suggesting you did not know already. Success in battle and death to your enemies. I only wish I could have known your mother.

[out of character] I purchased a book on lucid dreaming so that I could spend more time with Liara. The real me could spend YEARS just talking and laughing with Liara about science. The real me once had a long dream of talking about vampire archeology with actual vampires. Zhenia told me that her universe's Liara has learned from her to like pizza. I do know that Thane always hates cereal.

If you do not mind my asking you Jo, what is your native language? You are making good progress with your English. The real me is a man, named Julian (~SithiR). You can call me Julian if you want to talk to Julian and not Zhenia. Her surname is Pastushkova, which -- if you do not know -- is the feminine version of the name Shepard in Russian. Her mommy was from Canada, and her dad was from Serbia. He used to be in Spetzgruppa Alfa, after which he became the leader of the bodyguards to the Russian President, but he made a mistake and was disgraced because of a bombing. Zhenia became a soldier for the family honor. Zhenia is not one of those who falls in love with men.

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alternatepony In reply to SithiR [2012-04-09 04:21:53 +0000 UTC]

Haha my main language is English, I was just jumping around inserting what I thought up of when I was reading Liara dialogue lines and short stories.I got lazy on reading it over for clarity and whether or not it flowed. Also I should of asked you before hand about the character before posting, I just assumed an OC character who was with liara before ME1 a bit and a bit after ME1.

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SithiR In reply to ShadesOfMauve [2012-03-27 21:41:01 +0000 UTC]

I look forward to being able to say the best comprehensively wonderful comments about it after I finish reading the entire work. I enjoy the fact that I can actually understand every single one of your side references.

When Matthews aimed the gun wrong, I would have pulled an Article 15 non-judicial punishment on Matthews, so quickly that the person's feet would not have had time to touch the floor. This would not have been because of anger, but to help Matthews remember, by association with the memory of punishment. Sometimes people must be punished out of our reverence for them, because we care about them.

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ShadesOfMauve In reply to SithiR [2012-03-28 16:01:15 +0000 UTC]

There are a lot of side references peppered in there -- I've probably forgotten half of what I put in early chapters.

Had to look up article 15. There are parts of the story where I can apply quite a bit of real-world knowledge, but the military (and firearms) certainly aren't one of 'em. I try and keep it vague and hope the ignorance doesn't shine through.

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SithiR In reply to ShadesOfMauve [2012-03-28 19:06:21 +0000 UTC]

I cannot tell wether you are seriously denigrating yourself, seriously claiming to be ignorant. If so, everything sparkles about the story and about you, and you are so intelligent, and everybody can have fun learning new things.

I loved the part were Moreau mentioned that the psychological problems of recently reanimated people did not yet appear in the version of the diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders which they had reached by that time in history. It cracked me up and it excited me because you are smart like me. It makes me wish that it were possible for me to ask you out.

My father was a social worker. He suicided in '07. I got all confused in my heart between Mordin and my dad. At what befell Mordin I wept and was suicidal for three days and shouting take me instead of Mordin, out loud.

I always play femshep and I always burn for Liara, because no dishonor (not a service-member) and so smart and silly and nice and captivating gorgeous interesting. Days and days of just talking about culture, science, and all her/my/our learnings. My learning disability has a tendency to switch off my ability to see shades of gray or to be funny, without warning. I could never violate honor by courting, or being courted by a service-member, for if I were Shepard I would be a service-member. Nor could I touch someone who had ever accepted money to kill others without lawful orders from a legitimate political authority.

For me, it shook me when I told Liara my dear one to go to the escape pod and she actually said aye aye. My mouth dropped open and I started to weep and I said out loud you are a civilian you don't ... you don't have to respond with the same procedural words as if you were one of ... you are not sworn ... and yet you do me the honor ...

Little blue children.
To death and past it.

I wrote the part of the trivia here that concerns the salutes.

[link]

May it please you, if Your Ladyship wishes to look at my ME poems, they are here.

[link]

Please, I beg you to tell me what you think by means of a review.

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ShadesOfMauve In reply to SithiR [2012-03-29 04:34:41 +0000 UTC]

I don't mean to be overly modest; I think knowing one's own limitations is a good thing, and so I'm careful when I write about things I haven't experienced (the military, guns, etc). And you're very flattering, but my boyfriend would be hurt.

I'm so sorry to hear about your father, and how deeply the game affected you. When they made it so grim, I wonder if they realized how engaged we get? It is DESIGNED to pull on your emotions, even more so than a book or movie.

I will happily read your poems, but I'm afraid I don't know anything about how to review poetry.

Have a lovely day (or evening, whenever it is wherever you are).

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SithiR In reply to ShadesOfMauve [2012-03-29 21:40:19 +0000 UTC]

Thank you! Perhaps I should not have used the word "review." It probably left entirely the wrong impression. Did my poems make you feel anything in particular? If so, what? If you have no criticism or encouragement of any sort, it would be okay with me.

Actually I would not have guessed that, as you put it, all of the crap Joker gets is stuff you learned from experience. If you ever want to tell me what those [deleted] Western biomedicine people say you "present with," I would be honored to know, if not, that is obviously up to you.

So, looking at your signature icon thing, do you study the violin? The article 15 thing, it was just to evoke making you curious so that you would look up something cool. I am sure Rhi came up to face a few nonjudicial punishments, or missed them narrowly. Some people say that the scabbard which went with Excalibur was named Rhiannon. There is, of course, more than one name for Excalibur, but it may well be that you already know all about such subjects. Are you in school, or what did you study? I have a BA in Asian history and minored in Spanish. I work in a chocolate shop. All I know is academic matters. I do not want to bombard you with information that might not interest you, so I will wait to see what questions you may have. I do, however, love to talk and answer questions.

I have well over 10,000 words head-canon about my conception of Shepard and her friends. But those words are mostly their so-called "service jackets," numbers, statistics, emotionless data. You have not asked, and after all you are busy. It feels as though the very best creative stuff happens when I miss my meds. Being bipolar-II, I kinda don't want to do that. Most of my poetry, is after all extremely agapic and chivalric love poetry. I also drew a portrait of Arthur High King and a portrait of Guenhumara. Did I mention that you are lucky because you have a dear one?

I think that Zhenia would agree with Rhi about the friend with batteries. Just not the casual cursing or ever having mated with someone she knew ahead of time she was not going to marry. It is dumb, however, that The Art does not constitute a league sport with teams, commentators and everything. As for Zhenia, she thinks of herself as being highborn. if asked why she chose Liara as her first, besides adoring her, Zhenia would say that she had never met anyone who was worthy.

Do you also keep a pet animal other than an H. sapiens sapiens?

EDI: That was a joke.

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ShadesOfMauve In reply to SithiR [2012-04-10 01:53:58 +0000 UTC]

Oh, I'm not shy about the medical stuff, though I won't answer all those questions on this public forum. The big one is that i have a fairly significant limb length discrepancy and had surgery for that and related issues in my teens.

I do play violin; mostly traditional Irish and Quebecois fiddle. And I have two kitties, who are siblings and terrors of the household.

I'm afraid Rhi's cursing is only *slightly* worse than mine, though I don't have some of her other bad habits.

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SithiR In reply to maqeurious [2010-11-15 19:45:45 +0000 UTC]

You are *very* welcome, and you are also very beautiful if I may say so. It would be a wonderful crossover to have a Yautja in Shepard's squad. There is Yautja known as Scarred Face, and he appears in the console game called "Predator: Concrete Jungle." Perhaps you know of my friend, Scarred Face? I only have a Macintosh, but I have seen the game on the Internet. Never have I encountered so much data as in this game, so that I could understand in detail how their honor code works, with an actual list of precepts and everything. Could you and I talk more about this? I have written down some interesting conclusions, and would love to know your own. I think that if we talked more, it could be fun. If you agree, my e-mail address is jgarb2@comcast.net

Julian
(~SithR)

I think that Yautja must have astrology.

Hey, and what about:
Wether asari have aureoles
Wether asari evolved in the sea
Wether asari have vestigial ink glands
Wether asari breast-feed babies
Wether asari give milk, or black ink with nutrients and antibodies added?
Wether asari have baleen?

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maqeurious In reply to SithiR [2010-11-15 22:14:32 +0000 UTC]

Awww shucks thanks very much

No i've never heard of Scarred Face or played Predator: Concrete Jungle. I'm still trying to learn about the Yautja culture and such for my fanfic. Their customs and such are so plentiful, a lot more so then I originally thought.

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SithiR In reply to maqeurious [2010-11-16 01:32:12 +0000 UTC]

Below is an extremely crude summation I have written about "my friend" Scarred Face, who is "trapped in a video game," as it were. What I have written below uses some strange terminology borrowed from the pen-and-paper roleplaying game system called GURPS® (for example TL is an abbreviation for technological level). I don't play GURPS either, nor do I have friends who play it. It just helps give me a mental shorthand to write down notes about creative stuff.

Here

[link]

are some of the martial maneuvers used by respected friend Scarred Face. He is just practicing. Nobody else is there, so it is good because one can see clearly, and there is no horrible violence.

Yautja Language (native) (very hard)
Cultural Familiarity (Yautja)
Gesture
Claim to Hospitality (non-hostile Yautja)
Ambidexterity
Savoir-Faire (Clan Precedence)
Status 2
Appearance (Hideous to most non-Yautja)
Toughness +6
Hard to kill +2
Strong Will +3
Very Fit
Extra Fatigue
IQ 12
DX 30
Hysterical Strength
Strength 35
HT 19
Penetrating Call
Inconvenient Size +1
Weakness: Cold
Stealth 20
Tactics
Yautja Martial & Hunting Art 27
Break/Rip Neck/Spine 20
Power Blow
Trained by a Master
Mountain Heart
Light Walk
Sensitivity
Sticking
Taxidermy
Grab/Throttle
Moxibustion (Yautja equivalent)
Astrology (Yautja)
Hit Location
Acrobatic Dodge
Dual Wield
Kiai Bellow
Jumping 20
Running 14
Acrobatics 25
Break Spine Over Obstacle
Wall Smash
Grip/Burst Skull
Immovable Stance
Double stab (polearm)
Spinning Attack (polearm)
Knife Art (TL3+8)
Telescoping Spear Art (TL3+8) defaults to Net -3 or Spear -3
Net Gun Art (TL3+8)
Exoskeletal Suit Art (TL3+8)
Yautja Bladed Staff & Polearm Art (various, kisctí’pá’har discipline) (TL3+8) 20
Disciplines of Faith: Ritualism & Animism (Yautja)
Meditation
Responsive
Engineer: Bombs and Traps
Pilot (starship)
Scrounging
Intuition
Acute taste and smell
Temperature Tolerance (Heat)
350 pounds, 7 feet tall
Disturbing Vocalization
Extreme Fanaticism (Clan)
Loner
Combat Reflexes
Code of Honor (Yautja)
stay out of sight, engage on your own terms, strike fiercely
honor requests for mercy if they come from worthy people
take only the worthy prey, consider amount of respect deserved
exchange trophies to show respect and non-aggression
worthy hunters who helped you, but who are without support, may be adopted into your family
show respect by making trophies of the strongest prey
give the strongest prey the ritual courtesy of seeing you face to face
to minimize harm to the innocent, accept duels with enemy leaders
hunt selectively, devise plans in advance
respect womenfolk and your elders
help the needy, leave supply caches for urgent need (even by strangers).
That is, you never know wether, after you leave a place, another yautja will come there who is hurt or has an emergency. So, you should leave supplies in prearranged hiding places, and everybody in the same clan would be trained from childhood and would know where friends would be likely to leave such emergency supplies. Those who play the game Predator: Concrete Jungle can see that when Scarred Face has a problem, Scarred Face repeatedly searches out places where emergency supplies were left behind by other Yautja who visited Earth before Scarred Face did. Human rules are somewhat like this in that we have laws saying that many buildings and other place are required to have fire extinguishers, first aid kids, etc.
move well or die
dishonor is worse than death
avenge all insults
destroy dishonorable Yautja (“bad bloods,” i.e. Yautja criminals)
DO NOT ALLOW YOURSELF TO SURVIVE HUMILIATION
if you must die, take the adversaries with you
help the humiliated to end their suffering
et al.

Pacifism (Cannot Harm Innocents)
honorable comrades who have assisted in battle
the defenseless (the unarmed, the old, the pregnant, the very young)
Sex Appeal +2 (Yautja only)
Intimidation
Bloodlust
One Shot Attack (Blows self up) -- five mile diameter laser-triggered micronuke
Stress Atavism (Frequent, Severe)
Lucid Dreaming
Jumping 20
Running 14
Acrobatics 25

Breath Holding
Breath Control
Longevity
Drug Factory (anti-agathic)

noisy respiration

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SithiR In reply to ValerioN7 [2010-10-25 00:52:09 +0000 UTC]

::: J. Eleanor Shepard :::

::: snaps to :::

::: salutes the artist perfectly :::

::: to Liara, speaking Tyann'asyárrihhya :::

When the first Normandy fell and I told you to see to the evacuation 'because it was a matter of honor' 'ábtal ensyyeríheb méshnehe hasárha' tan'ahan'hylíwa,' you up spoke and answered to me 'Aye aye.'

You were not a sworn guard of sheep as I, you had never formally stood in Reserves or on Active Duty of any world's muster, but yet a focused dervish of terror in battle! So help me ... you ... you a noble one ... civilian archeologist ... yet more ... you said ... you ... you s- said to me 'Aye aye.'

In your language, literally 'Death before disobedience to My Shipmistress.'

::: remembering ::: So help me, the hair stood all over me and I/Julian strained for my eyes not to show tears.

:: continuing to speak in Tyann'asyárrihhya without a translator :::

It is for thee that I wrote this, crownéd one.

<<[link] >>

::: drops back into being Julian (SithiR) :::

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ValerioN7 In reply to SithiR [2010-10-28 15:04:17 +0000 UTC]

I would like to thank you again for the new fav, but... i'm scared for the response jking

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ValerioN7 In reply to SithiR [2010-10-25 13:05:11 +0000 UTC]

.............. *shocked face*

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