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A week had gone by since I had found out Jaymie's plans for me and for Adam, what she planned on doing to us. And with each day, I grew more and more paranoid, but not so much that it was noticable. Not many noticed a change but some did seem to sense that something was wrong.

I felt an arm wrap around my waist, making me both jump a little and I heard myself let out a small squeak. "Nice to see you, too. Good thing I didn't try to kiss you, I think I would've got smacked." Adam said as I looked at him.

"Sorry, just..preoccupied about something." I told him. He cocked his head as he looked down at me. Yes, there was that much of a difference he had to look down. "Wanna talk about it?" he asked. I shrugged at him, but then shrugged my head no.

He used his arm that was around me to pull me closer to him, wrapping his arms around me. He captured me in a hug, me squeezing back. Here. This is where I felt the safest when I was near him; him making me feel just..whole. Significant. Even if it was just to him.

"Tell me later?" He suggested. I pulled away slightly and looked up him. "Sure thing. I'm not like avoiding you or anything, it's just..something personal." I told him.

It wasn't all that much a lie, but I felt like I should be telling him. Though I already promised myself that I wouldn't. How much that seemed to nag at me..

He smiled down at me, then said, "I know you aren't. I just don't wanna see it bother you." He told me. I couldn't help smiling back at him; seeing his smile made it impossible for me not to do the same. He then kissed me quickly and went to go grab a seat on his bus.

As I made my way to my bus and was pulling out my iPod, someone stood in front of me and wouldn't move. When I looked up at the person, I guess I shouldn't have been so surprised to see Jaime standing there. I shouldn't have been, but I still was.

"Do you mind? I've gotta go." I told her, growing more annoyed with each passing second.

She just flashed this very sly grin and said to me: "Watch your back. You never know who could be lying to you." And like that, she was gone. In a daze, I walked on the bus to fund whatever free seat that I could, by myself.

It was such a simple comment, yet the longer it sat with me..the more I began to question it. What did she mean? And who would be lying? She knew this would bother me, fester in the back of my head, which is exactly why she said it to me. It was gonna stuck wiht me until I knew what she meant.

All the way home I thought about it, just what she meant, and also well into the night. A time or two my mom had to get my attention and it turned out I was completely zoning out. I didn't bother going onto either of my messengers cuz I knew what would happen if I talked to some of my friends about it.

With Anna, shw would say that she would be up with whatever I needed. But in school, she seemed like she really couldn't care less. Kyra, if she was even on the computer, her responsible side would come out and she would just tell me to not think about it too much. Rayne would tell me she'd find Jaymie for me and beat her up, but I didn't want that. And there really wasn't a point in talking to Chloe about it, whenever this subject came up, there was a good than better chance it would turn into a mini-argument.

I didn't realize I was even signing on until I heard the noise telling me people have signed in. At first, I just stayed invisible, thinking about what I would even say to anyone. For now I just left it the way it was and checked Facebook for no apparent reason. Nothing really worth reading. My news feel got so clogged up from hundreds of friends that I couldn't always see what I wanted to.

Adam's page had nothing new, which really didn't surprise me at all. He was hardly ever on to begin with. Same thing with Kyra. And Rayne, she just seemed to lose interest quickly and went to go do something else. But usually three fourths of the time, Chloe was online.

And something that was a bit of a surprise was that she actually had lyrics in her status from about a half hour ago. Lyrics, my guess, that read: When I go to school, I'm still the fool. Life is so cruel. They get to love and I don't? They get to hold, touch, kiss, and see? Is it just me?

Didn't sound like anything I knew, but I still liked it. And after another second of thinking, I got where it came from. Or, at least, why she posted it. One of those nights, no doubt, where it was gonna be her negative side. On top of everything else, I don't think I could talk her down right now. At the moment, I couldn't even hand my own problems. Answers seemed to be the only thing I didn't have.

I just wished all this trouble would go away, that none of it even happened. Seems that there was a short amount of time before someone tried to ruin what I had with Adam. It was always inevitable, wasn't it? That's just it, isn't it.

I just wasn't allowed to be happy, was I?

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The weekend went by flying in a daze, hardly talking to anyone and just trying to solve my one major problem. At the very least, it was quiet for almost two weeks now, so my nerves were starting to calm just a bit.

Not a lot, just a bit.

Today I was actually able to smile and not feel like I was forcing it. It was a good feeling; I knew that me being down wasn't going to do anyone any good. Myself included. My friends and Adam seemed to notice the change in my mood and they were happy to see I was trying to bring myself up. At least some things were starting to seem better.

This day was started to come to an end and all seemed to be calm. No one was telling me about any drama going on, which seemed hard that my school could go more than a day or so without causing any.

It was my last class of the day and I was more than prepared to get the hell out of here. But it seems so that I couldn't be prepared for all the things coming my way. As I was waiting for Adam to come out so I could say goodbye to him for now, a younger friend of mine from the middle school came up and said hi. She walked away the next minute and I looked back to the school.

At that moment I swore that I could literally hear my heart breaking in half; there was Adam, exactly who I had been looking for. But there he was, kissing Jaymie. And you know what was the worst of it all?

He wasn't even trying to pull away.