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ShadowMagpie — Struggle
Published: 2018-03-28 04:05:02 +0000 UTC; Views: 315; Favourites: 24; Downloads: 0
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Eeeeeeeeeeeeh yeah so this is fun. Kinda a vent drawing, kinda an ill drawing etc etcBelow is more of just an open vent thing, skip it if you like, there's no real point to it
Sometimes I feel I put too much effort into things, I tend to try and put my all into things, and it gets tiring, real tiring when I feel like I'm doing it with no effect. It can be across all walks, my art life, work life.. anything really. I've felt it a lot more recently, and it doesn't help I keep getting migraines and illness and such lately, and it's really hard to deal with if I'm honest.
I wanted to try and take up running, and was doing it for a little while, before my knee gave out, and now it's painful most days, so I've had to stop. I feel like I have little time for things, and it's just a big ball of things happening lately that make me feel like I'm just constantly trying for nothing.
As for art, I try to draw for myself, as I've found recently trying to draw for other people tires me out, especially when I know that the style I've tried hard to improve/get rid of, sticks around and just simply isn't purchasable. Would I commission myself? Lol no. And I think about that a lot honestly, it's hard to enjoy what you draw, and draw for others when you know it's not even that fantastic. It's also kinda combined with really being the only person I feel that gets involved in the stuff I do with the passion that I do but *shrugs*
I guess sometimes I just struggle
my baby Palla 5055 was used here
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Shadow, I may not know the words that will make you feel better, but I at least want to try and help by saying this:
When it comes to things like feeling as if you're putting too much effort into things and it's all for nothing, you're not alone. I try to put a lot of effort into my art and work, and sometimes I feel like it's not enough and it's underappreciated, even by myself. However, you shouldn't feel that way about your works. Everything you draw and post on here, whether it be for yourself or for someone else, it is for something much more than just 'nothing'. Even when you don't try, you still have an amazingly beautiful talent to draw, a talent that definitely shows through your artwork 
In all your walks of life, things happen. Whether they be good or bad, things always happen. It does get very stressful and hard at times, but you know what? It's up to you to push through those times, to get through to the other side and show how strong you really are to make it through. You can always find the good in things, and I believe, no wait, I know that you can do just that ^^ Look back on your life and see where it's led you. How far have you come? What sorts of life-changing events happened to you that turned your life towards the better? Think of all the obstacles you've overcome, the inspiration that got you to this point in your life, and just imagine how easily you can get through this next one. That big ball of happenings that make you feel like you're trying for nothing will be a mustard seed if you have faith in yourself and overcome. For things like your migraines and illnesses, stress will cause those, especially the migraines. Doctors can help, but to help prevent those ailments further, getting rid of stress will be an excellent step. Start with extinguishing the stress and see if that helps
I really hate to see others put themselves down, and there is no reason for that. Shadow, you are an incredible person! When you say everything you do makes you feel like it has no effect, I find that a little funny. You may not think it has an effect, but it really has a HUGE effect! It was literally because of you and Lemonfizz that I really got pulled into the Cars fandom! When I barely began to like it, I looked at fanart and came across your profile first. I instantly fell in love with your art and characters. I then found Lemon next, and it was after seeing both of your works of art that I decided to get into the Cars fandom. Your art was so good and your OCs so well-made, that it inspired me to get into the fandom and start trying to draw vehicles. That definitely sounds like your efforts have an effect to me! There was that and the kukuris that you have inspired me with. So please, don't put yourself down and do try to pursue through the hard, struggling times. You'll always come out okay and happier on the other side
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I know exactly the mood you're in, I think I'm there a good 70% of the time. You have big plans to create something amazing and it just seems to fizzle out and flop before you've even begun.
The nine to five day is so predictable you get bored without realising to the point you're screaming inside your head but it never makes a difference.
People tell you to cheer up because you have many reasons to be happy... but hearing that just pisses you off because if you could be happy you would.
I love your art style, it's yours and it's iconic, everyone who follows you loves it too I'm sure. It will change it just takes time... which is depressing to hear but eeeh and honestly, no one pays for art because everyone thinks we do this shit in our sleep and we don't deserve a living wage. I think it's always going to be that way...
your art is fantastic and I would commission you sooooo shutupIloveyouok
you are more my family than my actual family, sometimes life is like a constant uphill battle but you don't know why...
also I wish I could kuku like you so I could join in more but omfg I find them so hard and I want to chop off your hands and swap them with my own so I may animal like you.
I am support
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Shadow all the effort you put into stuff is never truly for nothing. You are improving bit by bit with everything you do! Every piece of art you make is amazing to look at and it will always make others happy to see your wonderful works. You are an inspiration to many and you continue to inspire them with every art piece you put out.
I know at times things may seem hard and that it’s all for nothing. But that isn’t true, everything we do in life is for a purpose. Look at how far you have come as an individual! You’ve become a really popular artist! You met the love of your life! You moved an entire country over and have been successful ever since! You’ve found a good company to work for too! All of this has come as a result of your hard work, so it’s not all for nothing. You’ve faced many trying obstacles and have overcome them and achieved a hell of a lot in your life so far! You are a very strong person and you are a fighter. I know that you can keep pushing on and get out of this funk that is affecting you.
You have Dusty and Wren and all of us to back you up as well! You are not alone in this and we will continue to support you and help you!
Don’t give up hope! As I said before you have come a long way! So everything you do now is not for nothing, all of your work and your fight is never going to be for nothing. It’s only going to help you get better and progress further on in life. I know things are stressful for you right now, and I understand that’s its weighing down on you and wearing you out. If you need to take a break from DA or even a break from art for a bit than take it. Your health is the most important.
Just know there is always something to keep fighting for and that all you have done and are doing isn’t for nothing. Know that we are here and will always be here for you Shadow, whenever you need us.
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Well you never battle for nothing... we fight together to push through our obstacles, as we've done from the start. I've always used you as my strength, as I know you've used me. We all have our low points, but you've found a company you want to stay with a long time, we've crossed so many bridges, and while there's still battles to be won, we do it together, always together. I love you so much, and know that together we can pull through practically anything. Xxxx
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