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Published: 2017-09-13 05:07:51 +0000 UTC; Views: 2139; Favourites: 16; Downloads: 0
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alt title: family dissapointmentmy mother looks at me
"you ask for too much"
i look away, and stop askingΒ
"you still ask for too much"
i quiet down, and fall behind in the trek back to the car
"why do you hate me?"
my sister looks on
i dont answer, its simply a lie
i bite my tounge
"you're a lazy peice of shit!"
my stepdad's voice booms
i sharpen my glare
and force the tears to stay inside
"you draw yourself too much"
i put down my pen
the judging eyes keep stairing
i throw away the pages
"stop asking for the doctor amelia! i havent gone in forever"
i shut my mouth
i go a mile a minute in my head
i dont ask for a refill on my prescription
i do all you want, its not all about you amelia, why cant you realize that youre not the center of the world, not everyone cares about what your problems are, youre not interesting, youre problems are trivial compared to the rest
you need to shut up
you beg and whine for a doctor
cause those fake little 'illnesses' in your head are bothering you
cause you cant go a minute without feeling like you messed up
you always mess up
you take too long to do everything
you dont try hard enough
god youre so fucking shitty
why cant you just be better
why cant you stop being so selfish?
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Comments: 6
This piece, along with the poem and dialogue, really tugs at my heartstrings. You used colors that worked well and put yourself in a pose that really fits with the poem.
I'm sorry you're going through all this. People never seem to listen to our cries for help, only realizing too late. Stay strong hun, there are people here and everywhere that really care about you. Find some people you can confide in and make you happy. That is what is important. If you feel selfish, remind yourself of all the selfless things you've done, no matter how small. I hope you feel better and get the help you need
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when the horrible things people say to you eventually become this voice in your head that you can't run from.Β
For me personally it helped to try and look at what makes the people bullying you so unhappy that they need to take it out on you (though i don't think that helps everybody)
Try to look for people to talk to, isolation is pretty much the worst when struggling with mental illness
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you're not selfish!Β
don't think like that!Β
you're really important and you're problems are important too! ;A;Β
we all love you and we will always help you with problems that we can help ;AA;Β
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A lot of people are here for you!Not me if needed ;w;
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