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Watch the speedpaint for it here:
youtu.be/nudde7ML0GU

So as y'all probably already know, I played through Undertale again. I didn't know what I was doing the first time around and so I accidentally got a neutral ending. This time I played true pacifist (which was incredible btw) and genocide right after that. I'm supposed to be killing Sans rn but he's too difficult and I'm honestly thinking of giving up..

I kind of regret resetting my game. Like I get that the characters aren't real but it still hurts because the game is meant to make you feel like it is.

Anyway Undertale was a big part of my childhood. (I get to say this because I'm only 17 and got into the game when I was around 13-14 lol) The game was exploding in popularity around the time that I got into it but the fandom seems to be kind of dead now and so many people despise the game because of its popularity. There's something uniquely saddening at looking through all the old Undertale videos I used to watch and seeing that most of them are from about 5 years ago. It feels representative of a bygone era in my life, one where I was happier, and revisiting all my favorite things seems to only conjure up a shadow of the feelings I once had.

The very first piece of digital art I ever did was an Undertale drawing. I remember how happy and excited I was. It was before everything in my life went to shit.

Sometimes it feels like I would give anything just to go back you know? Things have gotten so complicated and I don't know if anything will ever be the same again. Anyway, I digress...

This piece was a real headache. I had to change a lot of things about it before actually settling for a finished product. I struggled with Frisk's face the most since it was originally set at a difficult angle (one looking up which I have NEVER been able to master) so I redrew her several times before giving up altogether. I took a break off of it for a few days (I'm actually supposed to still be taking a break but I always end up crawling back to my tablet for some reason) and since then I have been studying other artists work. One problem I have with my own art is the overly complicated process that yields less than desirable results, particularly the pixelation around the eyes. For this one I tried something new by actually painting over the lineart to render the facial features. I figured it would look better and it would be more efficient since I wouldn't be stuck using so many layers and blending modes.

So I tried this new technique for Frisk's face and I liked it so I of course had to redo Chara so that they would match.

At first I liked the finished product but I don't know anymore. They kind of just look...ugly. Idk if it's because I've been staring at it for so long or if they really are ugly. It makes me feel bad because I feel like after all this time changing my art style every month I've finally settled down and picked one for once and surprise!! The only art style that my OCD ass would settle for is heckin ugly!! *Sigh* At least it's unique. At least I think it is

Anyway, perhaps with a bit of refinement it'll start looking more appealing. The only problem is that I spent extra time on this piece trying to make it look as perfect as my skills would allow because as y'all know, I intend on making it into a poster. I, uh, kind of already spent the money on it so there's no turning back. Knowing me I'll have already improved it by the next piece I do and so I'll be stuck with a print that has fucky faces on it for the rest of eternity. Such is the life of the artist. Pain. Thats what it is. Pain with a capital P.

Description
Watch the speedpaint for it here:
youtu.be/nudde7ML0GU

So as y'all probably already know, I played through Undertale again. I didn't know what I was doing the first time around and so I accidentally got a neutral ending. This time I played true pacifist (which was incredible btw) and genocide right after that. I'm supposed to be killing Sans rn but he's too difficult and I'm honestly thinking of giving up..

I kind of regret resetting my game. Like I get that the characters aren't real but it still hurts because the game is meant to make you feel like it is.

Anyway Undertale was a big part of my childhood. (I get to say this because I'm only 17 and got into the game when I was around 13-14 lol) The game was exploding in popularity around the time that I got into it but the fandom seems to be kind of dead now and so many people despise the game because of its popularity. There's something uniquely saddening at looking through all the old Undertale videos I used to watch and seeing that most of them are from about 5 years ago. It feels representative of a bygone era in my life, one where I was happier, and revisiting all my favorite things seems to only conjure up a shadow of the feelings I once had.

The very first piece of digital art I ever did was an Undertale drawing. I remember how happy and excited I was. It was before everything in my life went to shit.

Sometimes it feels like I would give anything just to go back you know? Things have gotten so complicated and I don't know if anything will ever be the same again. Anyway, I digress...

This piece was a real headache. I had to change a lot of things about it before actually settling for a finished product. I struggled with Frisk's face the most since it was originally set at a difficult angle (one looking up which I have NEVER been able to master) so I redrew her several times before giving up altogether. I took a break off of it for a few days (I'm actually supposed to still be taking a break but I always end up crawling back to my tablet for some reason) and since then I have been studying other artists work. One problem I have with my own art is the overly complicated process that yields less than desirable results, particularly the pixelation around the eyes. For this one I tried something new by actually painting over the lineart to render the facial features. I figured it would look better and it would be more efficient since I wouldn't be stuck using so many layers and blending modes.

So I tried this new technique for Frisk's face and I liked it so I of course had to redo Chara so that they would match.

At first I liked the finished product but I don't know anymore. They kind of just look...ugly. Idk if it's because I've been staring at it for so long or if they really are ugly. It makes me feel bad because I feel like after all this time changing my art style every month I've finally settled down and picked one for once and surprise!! The only art style that my OCD ass would settle for is heckin ugly!! *Sigh* At least it's unique. At least I think it is

Anyway, perhaps with a bit of refinement it'll start looking more appealing. The only problem is that I spent extra time on this piece trying to make it look as perfect as my skills would allow because as y'all know, I intend on making it into a poster. I, uh, kind of already spent the money on it so there's no turning back. Knowing me I'll have already improved it by the next piece I do and so I'll be stuck with a print that has fucky faces on it for the rest of eternity. Such is the life of the artist. Pain. Thats what it is. Pain with a capital P.