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New Shot. One of my most personal photographs to date as in what it means so take the time please to read on Im opening up for once...completely.Actual Idea . yes i can cross it off on the list i have.
Thought of it yesterday and this time. IM EXPLAINING IT.
So lately, I have been clouded with many thoughts and feelings about love, inspiration, life, photography, friends, where im going and who im going with. Well Im not in a good state, that's to much at once.
Maybe it's making me go crazy, who knows!
So busy you may think... the picture that is (well and my mind). But each of it's own has its own meaning and idea. Given reason why i shot it at this angle and with these things in the background and around me.
First the clothes. This symbolizes on many aspects and points of view how i feel and how my state of thought is. Crowded and blanketed with no room to breathe or escape from these thoughts that haggar my brain. No matter where i go, they are still there, i have to remove them myself but i've let them invade me so much that it is now a neverending load of thought that shield me with this clutter.
The bed. For me this symbolizes my process of thinking. I lay on my bed, sometimes in tears, i won't lie you can be a man and cry. I lay on this bed and think and think and think some more. So much infact that im now thinking of hundreds of different things and i become crowded with solutions that are being matched up with the wrong thoughts. I need some organization. The empty matress with no sheets symbolizes how empty and bare i feel as a person. I feel as if i gave people my life and they stole it away. This empty feeling is enough to now go on to the pillow that pretty much trancends the empty feeling into the feeling of suffocating my face when i want to scream. Out loud and angry because of all the things that have brought me to this level of thought and destruction.
Than there is me the body. In the middle of everything and nowhere to go. Each direction of its own leaves me with sadness or regret. So im stuck, If i float, im only so far above the issues but they still can pull me down and im right back where i started. The cigarette in my hand is my getaway of frusteration. Though i am trying to quit, i might be putting that off. It seems to me that i may need that crutch to help me get through some things as i do feel broken. My hand....the lovely hand. Well that to has a symbolization. My attempt to achieve and want help. I need it, but who can help me ? Can anyone ? I'll leave this hand open for so long hoping one day someone will pick me up, drag me out and take me from this mess that i've created. Than again, Im not the only one that has caused this mess, many factors have but im the one that has let it get this far. It's to hard to turn back time.
Advice for some....
IF you see an extended hand of a loved one or a friend, throw yours into it and give them a lift, they do need it and its not just a dramatic form or gesture.
I hope you read this, cause maybe it will help ALL OF YOU understand where I am coming from. I think lately my issue with my photographs is people don't understand. This may be wrong but if your a photography lover and you sometimes have issues understanding elements, its nicely described above, so don't be lazy and read.
I took my time to explain it, now take your time to see it, feel it and be in my position for atleast 10 seconds in your own mind to see where im coming from.
P.S - I put my kit lens back on i think i fell in love all over again even tho it is a P.O.S
Thanks and Enjoy
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You just described my life. Thank you.
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Great shot, I kinda like it more right-side up .... I hope you feel better, it sucks to feel like that.. actually that's kinda how I feel right now but *shrug* things change
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wow!! im just amazed with your description ..... As you said i'm a photography lover and i sometimes have issues understanding elements....hahah but u have described them so well that know everything is clear...about this i think that sometimes we can understand a photography but in our own way...because anyone lives the same experiences in life...and the way of understanding the several things that happen to us is different. I write ...poems most of the time..and when i write a poem ...every single word of it represents a personal meaning of an experience in my life.. sometimes people dont even get close to the true meaning of the poem...but thats better sometimes..because what i want sometimes is to leave all my feelings in that poetry but try to hide them to the rest of the world...
"Una fotografΓa dice mΓ‘s que mil palabras"
I try to always find a meaning for a photography because thats exactly what i like of them...that u can express a whole idea ...freezing a moment in life..with an art touch... i really loved the description of ur photography... this pic is full of feelings..the ones u mentioned..that are very well capted..!!
The title, the clothes, yourself even the bed and the cigarette expresses something!!
and about ur description... i think i havent been in such a difficult situation as you are.. and i dont know if u believe in God...but i truely believe that He is that extended hand u mentioned.. that rescues us from those terribles moments in life..
...btw it is very difficult for me to express all what i think in a language that its not the one i speak..so i hope u understand the whole idea...whta im trying to say.!!
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I feel the same much of the time. the only thing that is stopping me from going criminally insane is the fact that i try not to think about it all.
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Very nice. Hope you get your head cleared soon.
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The description: now that's why I like viewing your work. You put everything into bringing across your emotions and to me that makes your photos more than just a pretty or interesting picture to look at.
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So to make a long story short, your world has been literally turned upside down. I didn't need to read the description to understand what you were saying, although it just made it perfectly clear more to your standards
I agree with a lot of the comments you are getting on this piece, although, I think the flaws are what make this what it is. This is an emotional time in your life and you need to express it somehow. In a way, this is every photographers nightmare. It's cluttered and odd looking. Planned or not XD Although it is still a wonderful photograph. It's just not the typical image. The flaws, the clothing, all of your planning fits into places because this is how you feel. This isn't just a pretty picture for everyone to look at. It's meant to be good, but it's not just for enjoyment. Every Artist draws/writes/sings/take pictures to express how they feel. We just got lucky that this was so thought out XD
I think if you still feel this way the next time you are holding your camera, do the exact same thing. Make it espcially random, crappy even. just to get some of those feelings out.
Wishing you the best of luck for your future 
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The angle and rotation really solidify what you are portraying. You do look smothered by loads of crap but you have a sort of content look on your face like no matta what shit comes your way you'll have to sort thru it since this is life and it's worth living... even if it sux at the moment. I think if you had been nekkid you would look all the more helpless... not that I want you to show us your birthday suit or anything... just that it would take this photo to that next step of utter despair.
As for the cancer stick I really do hope you can kick that filthy habit! The best time to quit is when you're at your lowest, then not only do you feel like you've achieved so much more but it gives you a feeling that you can overcome anything. I've been quit for 5.5 years now and I always told myself the same thing, that once things get better I'll quit... well, things never got better... until i quit.
I do hope you go outside to smoke, especially for your beautiful child.
What do you do if you want a hand extended but the person is so lost they have forgotten how to ask for genuine help? I have someone in my life that I've watched waste away, I've tried to help and have given my all but it goes without notice, i know that you cannot help someone until they first understand they need help but at what point do I draw the line and say, I can't follow you down this path you've taken?
Anyways, thanks for sharing... and hope you notice sincere support when it arrives, if it hasn't already.
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i was thinking of doing this nude actually but I was that much too lazy really not to sound lame as a photographer, im in a crappy state.
Smoking sucks, it kills but all this SHIT has driven me to smoke and now up to over a pack at day and it keeps going because i dont know what else to do.
I notice sincere support and i get it from all thse people on DA including you which is out of love and i appreciate it.
Thanks so much <3
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"Smoking sucks, it kills but all this SHIT has driven me to smoke and now up to over a pack at day and it keeps going because i dont know what else to do."
All you hafta do is stop... and breathe
It really is that simple.
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i love this shot.
your explanation really helped me grasp the concept
it is beautifully done and orginized.
amazing.
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i like this alot...
that's a great description and its a very moving photo, i find, too.
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I adore the fact that you've taken time to explain all the meaning in this photograph. Normally people have hidden meanings, and personal meanings... but expect the viewer to be able to pick them out, or find their own interpretation that has meaning for them.
How does this photo make me feel? It makes my heart pull on my chest. What do I see in the photograph. The orientation of the shot makes me feel as if the world has turned upside down. The colors make me feel as if I am choking on something, and I can't dislodge it from my throat, and I am turning blue. The clutter surrounding you makes me feel dizzy with confusion. The pose makes me feel the feeling of living day to day, hoping that maybe tomorrow it will just all go away.
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thanks syou much, a beautiful comment that i greatly appreciate!
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I really enjoy the composition of this picture! And the artists comments were really useful to read, and for your information, I wasnt lazy, I read it all. There's nothing that bothers me more than an artist's empty comment box, it makes me feel like they didn't put any effort in to the picture at all.
Just something that I noticed: the pile of clothing with orange in it is really distracting because the rest of the photo isn't that vibrant.
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im glad you appreciate the explanation and everything i provided. Sorry for the orange shirt like i said, my thought process lately is at an ultimate low.
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yeah the orange shirt caught my attention as well
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apologies for that
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I kind of agree with blindfive.
I think it's great that you put so much thought into all the elements that went into what you were trying to express. And the angle is great.
Visually, though, it could be a little more interesting. Although I will say that I like this better than some of the other work you've done lately.
Partly because, as a former smoker myself, I feel that lately you have been using cigarettes as a visual crutch in addition to all the other reasons smoking is used as a crutch. I know how it is, when I used to smoke I wrote all kinds of poems about smoking, etc. too. So it's natural to do that, but I think you're better than that. I'm getting off the subject, so I'll just sum that thought up with this: One capture of cigarette smoke in dramatic lighting is cool. Multiples of that theme are overkill.
One more thing I want to say is you have all these feelings you want to express. I wonder if, instead of using props (for lack of a better word) to symbolize these feelings you could come up with a way to make them more visual. I don't quite know how to explain what I mean. A pile of clothing with no explanation doesn't say mental clutter, to me it says lazy or messy or too busy to clean up. I hope that helps explain what I mean as an example.
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definately understand. All my stuff lately has been lacking due to i have so much on my mind that i cannot think for myself anymore. Smoking is bad but you will see lots of me smoking because its all i do, now moer than a pack a day because im that stressed and mentally exhausted.
As for the props.
I understand where you and blindfive are coming but i was doing this for me and all this stuff resembles what im trying to tell you guys and how im feeling.
I agree the cloting on the floor looks messy, lazy or too busy to clean up but thats why i used them in the photo because thats how my mind is. Messy, Lazy to Think because there is so much MESS and too busy to cleanup because i work and am trying to improve myself and i got so much going on. My life is completely unorganized and stressful i just dont know where to begin with the revamp.
I really appreciate hearing the critique and i apologize for not submitting crap because it isn't but atleast not showing a better effort, ive tried but im over-exerting myself to do so and im just TIRED lol of EVERYTHING.
I appreciate this so much taht you took this much time to reply to the photo.
You my friend are an awesome person and much love goes to you for being honest and atleast encouraging and sincere
Thanks!
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Smoking is bad for your daughter, dear, and I know you love her. It is something to think about, even though it helps you cope. Good luck.
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It's a nice photo that's saved by your description. The tonal range is good, but the content is otherwise cluttered and uninteresting. I understand what you were trying to do with all of the elements in this piece, I just think it could have been done without being so direct. Maybe tighter cropping or repositioning of the frame would help. And a narrower depth of field. Your background is out of focus, but just. Feels almost like a mistake rather than on purpose.
On the postive side, I quite enjoy the angle at which you've presented this. It comes across as weightless and fresh.
I think you should keep your idea in your head, and once things have cleared up a bit, reshoot this with a new start. You already know what items and elements you want to have as part of this, now think about how the image will look in the end.
I hope I didn't come across as crass. I think this has potential. I also think it was executed in a rush and could have had more time spent on the planning side. I just thought that since you put so much time and effort into the description, I should spend some time and effort on the critique.
Cheers,
Patrick
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So you figure repositioning of the camera or cropping could help this out.
Understand cool idea love love it. The Focus for that matter, yah the bg is a bit blurry and out of focus on purpose more so cause it had to be due to the low f-stop i was too lazy to get my lights because i feel lazy all over me and i just shot it in my room with one crappy flourescent light. Sucks i know.
THis was real personal, one i wanst even gonna share, one i just did to know what it meant to maybe make me feel better. But as i do, i think everyone here who has seen me pretty much fall to peices UNDERSTAND where ive been mentally and everything and i believe i got that across.
LOL i agree, clothes on a floor dont look interesting a bed, not interesting BUT i have no idea how to include these all together and make it more interesting. Mind you it is supposed to be cluttered its part of the symbolization hehehe but i hear you on all points.
Ill keep this in mind and will re-shoot it only cause you suggested and I think it would also show maybe an advancemtn to my feelings and myself to show the transcending views of what I was like and That im trying to get better but i dont know how long it will be
I dont understand without being so direct ? elaborate on how that could be fixed a bit more if ya could.
I appreciate the critique unlike most you took that time to do so and your a great person for it and i took it all in like bread and butter.
Of course im going to explain not that i disagree but explain how i see some of the things you may have felt could be better.
You dont know how much this critique means to me and i appreciate you for doing so. Don't stop there either, i really like to get those as long as you are sincere which you were.
Comment more, come around more, i appreciate it
Lithp
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I will definitely do that. I prefer to give critiques to those that truly appreciate them - so I'm sure you can tell that on this site it doesn't happen often :]
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Wow. I love that you explain the thought-process behind each of your photographs, it gives them that extra touch of realism that just makes each and every photograph [of yours] superb. You're a true inspiration to me, man. Thanks. =]
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absolutely amazing and so full on
thanks for putting yourself out there
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thanks tash love your encouragement and support and no problem
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Oh I love it, your comments and emotions make it so much more real, and it's so great for you to write that, altough it's probably also good do for you to sort things out yourself.
I hope you feel better soon. I think I know a little of what it's like to feel this empty and down. It's not easy being the strong one and having to help others, but it's how things turned out and reading thatI hope things do get much better for you. It's a clutter now, but it'll sort itself out, somehow, someway. Just live each day as it comes, that's what I do...each day and one more day. 
Be happy and here's lots and lots of love for you... 
TVD
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thanks
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