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Sometimes, I still have to remind myself that things will be ok...

Sorry if I haven't been talking or posting a whole lot, guys.
I've been having a lot of anxiety as of late, and things in general have been kinda rocky with my emotions.
Warning, next part is super mushy and junk. I've literally soaked an entire handkerchief, haha;;My grandma was diagnosed with ALS late last year, and it's finally to that point where she is essentially paralyzed and cannot talk.
I love my grandma dearly - she will always be my favorite cook. I miss her goulash, her gołąbki, her pierogis. I miss when I was little and she would make me green eggs and ham and how she would always fuss when I said I wanted the thin and cheap deli meat ham instead of the ham she had been baking for split pea soup.
I miss walking to my grandma's house after school when I was in third grade to be greeted with one of those Little Hug juice barrels and the familiar sound of Days of Our Lives playing in the living room.
I miss having my mom call me out sick from school and getting to spend the day on the couch at my grandma's watching The Price Is Right.
I miss my grandma teaching me how to crochet. I miss her buying me never endings art supplies to pass the time til my mom could pick me up.
I miss our family getting so excited every year for Christmas Eve, just to have the homemade feast my grandma had been slaving over all day.
I miss knowing that no matter what, she was there for me, to take care of me if I needed it.

I never imagined that a year would go so quickly. Nor did I imagine that it would take only a year for ALS to affect her like this.
In the span of two weeks, I saw her go from talking fluently, to barely being able to say a single sound.
Last year, when the Ice Bucket challenge started, I had no idea what it was. Now...
Now we are playing the waiting game.

I love my grandma dearly, and it hurts a lot to think about the changes that have taken place.
It hurts to think about where this goes.
But I know that... It will be ok.

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Sometimes, I still have to remind myself that things will be ok...

Sorry if I haven't been talking or posting a whole lot, guys.
I've been having a lot of anxiety as of late, and things in general have been kinda rocky with my emotions.
Warning, next part is super mushy and junk. I've literally soaked an entire handkerchief, haha;;My grandma was diagnosed with ALS late last year, and it's finally to that point where she is essentially paralyzed and cannot talk.
I love my grandma dearly - she will always be my favorite cook. I miss her goulash, her gołąbki, her pierogis. I miss when I was little and she would make me green eggs and ham and how she would always fuss when I said I wanted the thin and cheap deli meat ham instead of the ham she had been baking for split pea soup.
I miss walking to my grandma's house after school when I was in third grade to be greeted with one of those Little Hug juice barrels and the familiar sound of Days of Our Lives playing in the living room.
I miss having my mom call me out sick from school and getting to spend the day on the couch at my grandma's watching The Price Is Right.
I miss my grandma teaching me how to crochet. I miss her buying me never endings art supplies to pass the time til my mom could pick me up.
I miss our family getting so excited every year for Christmas Eve, just to have the homemade feast my grandma had been slaving over all day.
I miss knowing that no matter what, she was there for me, to take care of me if I needed it.

I never imagined that a year would go so quickly. Nor did I imagine that it would take only a year for ALS to affect her like this.
In the span of two weeks, I saw her go from talking fluently, to barely being able to say a single sound.
Last year, when the Ice Bucket challenge started, I had no idea what it was. Now...
Now we are playing the waiting game.

I love my grandma dearly, and it hurts a lot to think about the changes that have taken place.
It hurts to think about where this goes.
But I know that... It will be ok.