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"Tic-tac! Tic-tac!" Shut up!!! I took the clock and broke it. Finally peace. But still it's not quiet. These voices, these sounds are blowing in my mind. All kinds of images that belonged to past, all of them, I see them now. Why the hell don't you leave me alone?
I'm 19. I have no parents, no siblings, no friends, not even a boyfriend. I had one but he left me, laughing at me "You're crazy!!" I was expelled  form school last year. The reason? Drugs and prostitution. They're so fool. I don't even have money for drugs.
Uhh… My stomach hurts, I didn't eat anything for 2 days. I thought I was talented, I can draw so beautiful pictures, a good woman told me this, but they didn't recognized it. My tutor? What a joke!! He doesn't take care of me, he didn't give me money to buy something to eat. "You will be gone very soon."  Is that true? Is he right? Maybe.
Outside it's so dark, it's snowing and it's so cold. It's a tough winter. It reminds me of my lost childhood, when my mom used to hold me in her arms, watching together through the window. I had some good times too. But it's no use. I can't get rid of this pain, here in my chest. Am I going to die? I'll go out.
A cold wind smacked me in the face. It makes me wanna cry. But I can't, I don't have anymore tears. Let's walk. I'm barefoot but it feels good. But suddenly I stopped. I looked back and the flimsy house has disappeared. I lost it, in the fog, There's no way how I can return. But I don't care. I prefer walking, in the night, alone, than staying in that hack. I want to smoke, maybe I'll feel better, but I don't know how to do it, I don't have money to buy a cigarette. Let's run. My mind doesn't know where I'm going, but my body does. He has a fixed target. Look, the lantern.
I'm standing on the bridge and right down it's Volga. She is so storming, so swiped, I can hear it very clear, the waves are calling me. The water didn't freeze here. It's so cold, these dark clouds are moving so fast. If I dart here nobody fill find me, she will take me in her unknown bowels. Let's see, I can see the moon, a full one and it's so gold. You will be the witness of my death. Who's laughing now, huh?  Please, take me away from this pain, free me.

She was standing there, unmoved, looking at the water. Then she slumped. I came quickly but it was in vain, there was nothing. But I saw the lost memory of a haunted soul. Nobody found her body. It was like her wish. Her tutor said she was crazy, But I don't think so. Who knows…

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"Tic-tac! Tic-tac!" Shut up!!! I took the clock and broke it. Finally peace. But still it's not quiet. These voices, these sounds are blowing in my mind. All kinds of images that belonged to past, all of them, I see them now. Why the hell don't you leave me alone?
I'm 19. I have no parents, no siblings, no friends, not even a boyfriend. I had one but he left me, laughing at me "You're crazy!!" I was expelled  form school last year. The reason? Drugs and prostitution. They're so fool. I don't even have money for drugs.
Uhh… My stomach hurts, I didn't eat anything for 2 days. I thought I was talented, I can draw so beautiful pictures, a good woman told me this, but they didn't recognized it. My tutor? What a joke!! He doesn't take care of me, he didn't give me money to buy something to eat. "You will be gone very soon."  Is that true? Is he right? Maybe.
Outside it's so dark, it's snowing and it's so cold. It's a tough winter. It reminds me of my lost childhood, when my mom used to hold me in her arms, watching together through the window. I had some good times too. But it's no use. I can't get rid of this pain, here in my chest. Am I going to die? I'll go out.
A cold wind smacked me in the face. It makes me wanna cry. But I can't, I don't have anymore tears. Let's walk. I'm barefoot but it feels good. But suddenly I stopped. I looked back and the flimsy house has disappeared. I lost it, in the fog, There's no way how I can return. But I don't care. I prefer walking, in the night, alone, than staying in that hack. I want to smoke, maybe I'll feel better, but I don't know how to do it, I don't have money to buy a cigarette. Let's run. My mind doesn't know where I'm going, but my body does. He has a fixed target. Look, the lantern.
I'm standing on the bridge and right down it's Volga. She is so storming, so swiped, I can hear it very clear, the waves are calling me. The water didn't freeze here. It's so cold, these dark clouds are moving so fast. If I dart here nobody fill find me, she will take me in her unknown bowels. Let's see, I can see the moon, a full one and it's so gold. You will be the witness of my death. Who's laughing now, huh?  Please, take me away from this pain, free me.

She was standing there, unmoved, looking at the water. Then she slumped. I came quickly but it was in vain, there was nothing. But I saw the lost memory of a haunted soul. Nobody found her body. It was like her wish. Her tutor said she was crazy, But I don't think so. Who knows…