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i found it, i found what i truly want that i can not possibly get. and that is to never exists in the first place. sometimes i wonder why God let me live, would it have been better if i drowned, or died while being in the developed like the other three, or get hit by a car, something when i was young or not at all. maybe i just hate the mind i have now or the power to think and. but nope, im alive, and i can think, and i hate it. gotta love weird mental states, its like being in dark area where no one understand you or your thoughts (don't say the heck you do cuz you don't) while im writing whatever on my mind, do me a favor, don't worry about me, even if i randomly disappear for a bit or a while, you will spend to much time thinking about me and not on yourself and YOUR life. please. go do great things and find goals that dose not involves wanting to die. i see many of you are doing greater things then i could.

don't say anything, it probably won't get to me in this mind state

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i found it, i found what i truly want that i can not possibly get. and that is to never exists in the first place. sometimes i wonder why God let me live, would it have been better if i drowned, or died while being in the developed like the other three, or get hit by a car, something when i was young or not at all. maybe i just hate the mind i have now or the power to think and. but nope, im alive, and i can think, and i hate it. gotta love weird mental states, its like being in dark area where no one understand you or your thoughts (don't say the heck you do cuz you don't) while im writing whatever on my mind, do me a favor, don't worry about me, even if i randomly disappear for a bit or a while, you will spend to much time thinking about me and not on yourself and YOUR life. please. go do great things and find goals that dose not involves wanting to die. i see many of you are doing greater things then i could.

don't say anything, it probably won't get to me in this mind state