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So here's the completed project.
I wanted to draw something to show how i feel about the year((EVEN though im not fully finished, i wanted to do this sooner rather than later)),

Despite some rusty patches in the year, its probably one of the best i've ever had.
I managed to look after myself for a few days here and there when mum and my stepdad went in the caravan without me, I started walking down to town more which isnt the furthest away, but its not close either, I made so many new friends, got closer to so many friends who i weren't as close with (special thanks to the summer holiday for that one), i managed to successfully come out as a lesbian to my friends which was one of the most difficult things i ever had to do xD cause even if you know they're gonna be supportive, you still get really scared(like with my parents), I had the best study leave ever (Jen and James, if you're reading this, i'd like to thank you guys for that amazing day we had when we went to get our timetables, that was such a good day xDDD (increased sausages ftw! XDDD in the craft shop~) i was so happy x'D), i went out to more further away places than i normally do without my mum (Doj-con in Dundee was AMAZING, Kira's birthday in Edinburgh was EPIC, MCM comic-con in Glasgow FUCKING INCREDIBLE) those three days especially really boosted my confidence with trains and stuff and being in bigger areas.

However, it was also kinda bad too, there were quite a few deaths of people close to me, (some others you dont know about cause blaaagh so if you know me in real life and you're reading this, please dont ask me about any of them i havent told you about x3 they are the ones i dont wanna talk about.), I managed to set-back back into the buggery of self-harm and deeper depression (as well as NEARLY kicking its ass, which im still trying to do), got diagnosed with anxiety and panic disorder (my counselling starts soon, and my natural curiosity has set in more than my fear which really shows how much i've progressed over the year, im not even joking, before i woulda been kicking and flailing and point blank refusing.) i pissed off myself a lot with my own stupidity throughout the year, but i can forgive myself for a majority of that, i saved another life but only for a few weeks(I gave her that aspect at least, but sadly she didnt completely make it, her and her family were grateful in her final few weeks though. I'm so sorry chick, i just hope i made you see at least a last light on the world before the shadows took over I didnt really know you, (but i still remember your favourite colour is green, you prefer tea than coffee, you love all music, your favourite animals were cats), but i'll never forget ya Alice, star-buddy~ Safe journey my friend, i dont know what happens when we die, but i know whatever does you'll be safe at last ^o^) and i had quite a few moments this year where my heart just nearly completely stopped(not in a suicidal way, i mean in a like "OMFG WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED" way) from shock, panic, or just great upset.

I also discovered how to use Tumblr, idk whether to put that as a good thing or a bad thing xDDD But it's made me happy so imma go good.

And i hope December and the remains of November can be good times before I hit the Ceilidh for New Year!!!

2013 - one of the best years of my life
And to all you people who have read this far, if you made an impact on my life up to 2013, thank you i love you all for it, whether its a positive(which pretty much all you guys are xD it was only one or two people who brought negatively and they were the ones who i dont know who were being cyber-assholes xDDD no one on this site btw xD i love you all on this site. And Mint, if you're reading this, I'm so glad to have cyber-met you brethren you legendary boss-queen ) or a negative impact
Because whether it good or bad, it is still an impact on my life, and it's these impacts that write my story

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~BACK TO THE PROJECT~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
*******Bloody hell im actually kinda annoyed with myself for doing this, only cause i was up at bloody 3am when the night before i was up till 5am
Its not that i wanted to be up that late, but i refused to stop till i'd done.

But by the by, im pretty pleased with it :3

(PS: this is one of the biggest drawings i've ever done ._.)

Bloodz and this drawing belongs to me(c)
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*INDIVIDUAL DRAWINGS*
Spring - oakclaws1997.deviantart.com/ar…
Summer - oakclaws1997.deviantart.com/ar…
Fall - oakclaws1997.deviantart.com/ar…
Winter - oakclaws1997.deviantart.com/ar…

Description
So here's the completed project.
I wanted to draw something to show how i feel about the year((EVEN though im not fully finished, i wanted to do this sooner rather than later)),

Despite some rusty patches in the year, its probably one of the best i've ever had.
I managed to look after myself for a few days here and there when mum and my stepdad went in the caravan without me, I started walking down to town more which isnt the furthest away, but its not close either, I made so many new friends, got closer to so many friends who i weren't as close with (special thanks to the summer holiday for that one), i managed to successfully come out as a lesbian to my friends which was one of the most difficult things i ever had to do xD cause even if you know they're gonna be supportive, you still get really scared(like with my parents), I had the best study leave ever (Jen and James, if you're reading this, i'd like to thank you guys for that amazing day we had when we went to get our timetables, that was such a good day xDDD (increased sausages ftw! XDDD in the craft shop~) i was so happy x'D), i went out to more further away places than i normally do without my mum (Doj-con in Dundee was AMAZING, Kira's birthday in Edinburgh was EPIC, MCM comic-con in Glasgow FUCKING INCREDIBLE) those three days especially really boosted my confidence with trains and stuff and being in bigger areas.

However, it was also kinda bad too, there were quite a few deaths of people close to me, (some others you dont know about cause blaaagh so if you know me in real life and you're reading this, please dont ask me about any of them i havent told you about x3 they are the ones i dont wanna talk about.), I managed to set-back back into the buggery of self-harm and deeper depression (as well as NEARLY kicking its ass, which im still trying to do), got diagnosed with anxiety and panic disorder (my counselling starts soon, and my natural curiosity has set in more than my fear which really shows how much i've progressed over the year, im not even joking, before i woulda been kicking and flailing and point blank refusing.) i pissed off myself a lot with my own stupidity throughout the year, but i can forgive myself for a majority of that, i saved another life but only for a few weeks(I gave her that aspect at least, but sadly she didnt completely make it, her and her family were grateful in her final few weeks though. I'm so sorry chick, i just hope i made you see at least a last light on the world before the shadows took over I didnt really know you, (but i still remember your favourite colour is green, you prefer tea than coffee, you love all music, your favourite animals were cats), but i'll never forget ya Alice, star-buddy~ Safe journey my friend, i dont know what happens when we die, but i know whatever does you'll be safe at last ^o^) and i had quite a few moments this year where my heart just nearly completely stopped(not in a suicidal way, i mean in a like "OMFG WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED" way) from shock, panic, or just great upset.

I also discovered how to use Tumblr, idk whether to put that as a good thing or a bad thing xDDD But it's made me happy so imma go good.

And i hope December and the remains of November can be good times before I hit the Ceilidh for New Year!!!

2013 - one of the best years of my life
And to all you people who have read this far, if you made an impact on my life up to 2013, thank you i love you all for it, whether its a positive(which pretty much all you guys are xD it was only one or two people who brought negatively and they were the ones who i dont know who were being cyber-assholes xDDD no one on this site btw xD i love you all on this site. And Mint, if you're reading this, I'm so glad to have cyber-met you brethren you legendary boss-queen ) or a negative impact
Because whether it good or bad, it is still an impact on my life, and it's these impacts that write my story

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~BACK TO THE PROJECT~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
*******Bloody hell im actually kinda annoyed with myself for doing this, only cause i was up at bloody 3am when the night before i was up till 5am
Its not that i wanted to be up that late, but i refused to stop till i'd done.

But by the by, im pretty pleased with it :3

(PS: this is one of the biggest drawings i've ever done ._.)

Bloodz and this drawing belongs to me(c)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
*INDIVIDUAL DRAWINGS*
Spring - oakclaws1997.deviantart.com/ar…
Summer - oakclaws1997.deviantart.com/ar…
Fall - oakclaws1997.deviantart.com/ar…
Winter - oakclaws1997.deviantart.com/ar…