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More Psyche ward pen doodles enhanced in ClipStudio Paint.

I dunno, this one's all over the place. But it's true. I hope if atheism is wrong, that there's some way he and I can gravitate back together. If not in my current lifetime, then maybe somehow in the next. If it's not too late. I don't know how time flows on the Other Side. I don't know what the rules are. I don't know anything. It's possible he's already begun his next timeline and has found someone else to love endlessly. And maybe they're better for him. I was always convinced he could do a lot better if he wanted to. But he had so much faith in me. It's hard to really imagine that he'd move on, even if in death he forgot me and met someone else. I mean he's had previous girlfriends, don't get me wrong. And they had deep love, some of them. But the way he spoke about our meeting, our love, and our life... it felt like he barely had feelings at all for them. I know that's not the case, it's just a comparison.

Where ever he is, I just want whatever makes him happy. Be it with me or without me. Being a 3 dimensional meat bag is all I know, so I couldn't begin to try to understand what life's like for him now, if he does exist. But I'll always try to find him in the shadows or my hallucinations, hoping he's with me always.

Description
More Psyche ward pen doodles enhanced in ClipStudio Paint.

I dunno, this one's all over the place. But it's true. I hope if atheism is wrong, that there's some way he and I can gravitate back together. If not in my current lifetime, then maybe somehow in the next. If it's not too late. I don't know how time flows on the Other Side. I don't know what the rules are. I don't know anything. It's possible he's already begun his next timeline and has found someone else to love endlessly. And maybe they're better for him. I was always convinced he could do a lot better if he wanted to. But he had so much faith in me. It's hard to really imagine that he'd move on, even if in death he forgot me and met someone else. I mean he's had previous girlfriends, don't get me wrong. And they had deep love, some of them. But the way he spoke about our meeting, our love, and our life... it felt like he barely had feelings at all for them. I know that's not the case, it's just a comparison.

Where ever he is, I just want whatever makes him happy. Be it with me or without me. Being a 3 dimensional meat bag is all I know, so I couldn't begin to try to understand what life's like for him now, if he does exist. But I'll always try to find him in the shadows or my hallucinations, hoping he's with me always.