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[2013-12-26 11:30:53 +0000 UTC]
"Tee mitä lystää.."
(Germany)
# Statistics
Favourites: 39; Deviations: 136; Watchers: 18
Watching: 0; Pageviews: 6837; Comments Made: 26; Friends: 0
# Interests
Favorite visual artist: Hans Rudolf Giger, Rodney Matthews, Jarosław Jaśnikowski, Zdzisław Beksiński, Masamune Shirou, Olivier Ledroit, Stephen Gammell, Louis Wain, Tatsushima Yuko, Dr. BrillenschnitzelFavorite movies: Treasure Planet, Heavy Metal, Vampire Hunter D,Tokyo Gore Police, Iron Sky, Hellraiser, Blade Runner, Gladiator, The Adventures of Mark Twain, Monty Python ....huh? You want more?? Yeah sure, here's some more. [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uPMIYyapLF4]
Favorite TV shows: [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4_ccAf82RQ8], [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pkx5m4k8jgo], [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ef9nv76UuFQ] [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qSGFmt1-SRM], [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=etvGOBnDlH8]
Favorite bands / musical artists: Crossfade, Nirvana, Korn, Sevendust, Stone temple pilots, Alice in chains, A perfect circle, Paradise lost, Scartown, Crematory, Eschenbach, Maudlin of the well, The ocean, anything from the 90's and lots lots of that heavy metal grunge french jazz....
Favorite books: Kalevala, Nibelungenlied, Heimskringla, the Faerie Queene, Die Leiden des jungen Werthers, 竹取物語 ... here is a fine example [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9hsxCIlhg9M]
Favorite writers: Emperor Caligula playing with his Warhammer figurines in the labyrinth of Minos.
Favorite games: Myst, LSD Dream Emulator, Trackmania UF, UKWindomXP, Soldat, Geneforge, Metal Slug, Postal 2, Age of Empires/Mythology, Advance Wars, Rise of Nations, Command&Conquer, Empire Earth, Dawn of War; give me any RTS game and I will gameshit the birds out of it
Favorite gaming platform: Virtual-On!, Vampire Saviour, Guilty Gear, Soul Edge, Shantae, The Path, TES Daggerfall, Total War Rome, Warzone2100, Zeonic Front, Duke Nukem, FlatOut, Scrapland, Doom, Majesty, Age of Wonders, Project Zero, Clock Tower, Pokemon R/S/E, Artificial Academy
Tools of the Trade: die Vorstellungskraft, Scary stories to tell in the dark + bier
Other Interests: Fighting whit the illusion windmills in Lapland.
# About me
Willkommen, lieber Besucher.Ich bin nur ein Niemand, allein lebend und dir alles Gute wünscht. Bitte genießen sie ihren Aufenthalt!
Endlose magische Wellen von Heuchelei, Gewalt, Verkehr, und der Sensenmann an meiner Tür, der aus meinem Vorstellung herausströmt.
So, was willst du denn?
I am a paranoid mess. I have poor memory, high avolition, am a reoccurring alcoholic, and suffer from a mild schizotypal disorder or perhaps several. I have been suspected with a severe case of Schizoide Persönlichkeitsstörung (being a shithead loner) and Bipolare Affektive Störung (manic depression). There are countless other mental problems that I claim to have and others accuse me of having, but I will not list them. My sense of humour is morbid and twisted, so I am sorry if I seem angry sometimes. I am desensitised to many things so my words will feel/sound bored or uninterested frequently. My state of imagination is best described as the South Park episode that has Kenny getting drug highs off of cat piss. I have been, and always will be, frugal and poor. I promise I have no affiliation with cannibals.
I enjoy comparing and illustrating the mythology, lifestyles, warriors, cuisine, attire, languages, and psychology of many cultures and nations. I partake in historical re-enactments, satires, and alternate scenarios. Also I like poking fun about history, especially if it's warfare or medieval life. I suppose I consider myself a casual observer of Ethnography.
I also take joy in wasting my time building, painting, and detailing plastic model kits, mostly those of World War I and II era battleships, some aeroplanes, and the occasional fictional Japanese mecha. I am fighting an eternally losing battle against dust in maintaining my display shelves and pretending I've got a small military museum; nowadays most of them are just kept in their boxes. My proudest piece is a customised depiction of a Carthaginian trireme in 1:72 scale originally moulded by Zvezda.
I also collect pictures that feature the nose art of aeroplanes. My favourites are Queen Mae and Cocktail Hour; both of them B-24 bombers of the 43rd and 90th bomb groups.
Out of all the cosmic pantheons of our wondrous old world, Germanic and Nordic paganism is without doubt my favourite mythology to draw inspiration from. It is such an unfortunate shame that the citizens of modern-day Deutschland are forbidden to love or support their traditional roots and symbols and are taught to never speak of them, all because of the actions of one rogue dictator. It is major bollocks to live in an old beautiful country where you can't appreciate your culture. That the whole world minimises your country's history to a small 12 year span of bull shit. I'd rather read Nibelungenlied, Goethe, or Schiller than ,,My Fight''. Furthermore, being stripped of your culture because of an arsehead is one thing; being condemned by social justice keyboard warriors just for being born German (or caucasian for that matter) or admiring German feats is simply multiple levels of stupid. To be born of a certain descent is a hate crime? All members of a future generation innately carries over the bad deeds of the ancestors to commit them again? What is this Olympus-level of idiocy? Are skinheads the only folks you've ever encountered? I pity your upbringing if that is the case.
Is it morally wrong to hold an enduring interest in German war history? No, not at all. In my eyes, it is just as morally wrong to be an ignorant, obsessive Japanophile, weeaboo or whatever the internet calls them. Some folks like to believe a lover of German history would refuse to accept the events of World War II transpired. Just a massive cinema play performance for whatever reason of history written by the victors. So, going by that logic, a Japanophile would refuse to believe that Unit 731 existed. That the Manchurian invasions and massacre/rape of Nanking existed. That the atomic bombings were unjustified and not needed to ram sense into the Japanese authority. That the military never took territories, only ,,protected them from western influence''. Such incredulous irony talk coming from the most westernised oriental nation thanks to the Meiji reformations. By reaching that point in their logic, they've stooped down to the lowest possible level of Japanese bureaucracy achievable, rewriting their school history books to claim that the events of WWI and WWII in the Pacific were all a facade, none of it happened. And those devout Japanophile folks are so willing to eat that shit up. Alright, want to know something else that did not happen? Holodomor and the gulags. Something else that didn't happen? Persecution camps for the Jewish. The Turkish-Armenian genocide. All 8 major Crusades. Spanish inquisition. US Manifest Destiny. Dragon Ball Evolution. All of that, and please, continue to inform me more about how Imperial Japan is the greatest, most flawless nation to ever exist on this giant rock. Surely they can do no wrong and continue making reparations in the form of fanservice cartoons. But I digress; there is no problem at all in studying and admiring the culture of another nation or your own, for as long as you keep in mind, that there is no such thing as a clean, perfect nation. By man's nature persisting, it is impossible.
And people wonder why the average German citizen, who is now taught patriotism and pride in one's culture to be a sin, is terrified and nervous of the zealous hyper-nationalism of a Korean citizen, let alone the passive jingoism of a Japanese citizen or English subject. At least for the Korean, perhaps it is justified as the hyper-nationalism is most likely the product of having your home country stepped on by many other nations for most of its formal life.
I am usually drawing gore, pin-ups, war scenarios, or some violent depictions that many would find disturbing, but I believe that a good artist must be willing to shove all the controversy away and just draw what he desires. Fervently explore the pocket universe you constantly create and rebuild in your mind. If the others refuse to see your side, your world, that is their loss; let them continue to be blind. Anything can be put onto paper if given the patience, but don't forget that the imagination is the greatest canvas, the greatest writer. The eyes, the individual perception, and the imagination are always superior and forefront to the artist themselves. Art is all about expressing thoughts, expressing worlds! Have you got an idea, any recognition, how much of a wicked damned curse censorship is? Cut out the exposition, you are using a visual medium! Show, don't tell!
What's that? I enjoy and illustrate erotic art, so that automatically labels me a psychotic serial paedophile rapist with some random fetish for added inscrutability? Gee, it is definitely not because I am a male, and as a male, I will be drawn towards over-the-top fantastic metal testosterone-poisoned consecrated shit decorated with young women wearing skimpy lamellar-mail bikini armour. Philogyny, misogyny, perhaps both? Sure. As a male, who reaches sexual maturity far later than a female does, I am driven by a natural, primal instinct hard-wired into my brain to admire the female anatomy and its experimentation and therefore, enjoy such erotic art. The ability to craft and carve wankable approximations to the female form off of wood, stone, and paper is a proud tradition that has been around since the advent of sentience, sapience, and civilisation. No amount of moral standing or religious indoctrination is ever going to alter this trait.
I am left feeling sorry for anyone living in a nation (such as Australia and my own) which has to put up with pointless censorship. Cartoon pornography does not create rapists and paedophiles. Parodies and fan works do not steal away financial profit. Videogames do not cause violence. DOOM does not teach a school shooter how to handle a gun or reload it. A petty rage over something fictitious, what a world of misery. Before games, they blamed films. Before films, they blamed music, and before that comic books, before that written books, before that theatre plays. And before plays, we just knew we were a violent species, but we now live in an age of denying our faults as human beings and blaming it on anything else. We all forget that governments are not in charge because of the general consensus of people. They are in charge because they've got enforcers and military technology. The words of a million people can't move a mountain, just look at North Korea. On the day humanity invents androids capable of performing all the tasks a human being can, the bureaucrats of the world will kill all of us directly or indirectly, and then replace you with a much more obedient and productive artificial shell of a slave.
I am a firm believer of the concept of what can be considered ,,originality'' dying out as the time continues to pass. So many tropes, cliches, and ideas have been performed and emulated over the ages that by these modern years, there is simply nothing left. Nothing is 100 percent original anymore. The rivers of innovation and creativity are running dry. The oppressive usage of copyrights does not help. The world of Art should be a free, yet respected, field. That is why it is important to avoid directly comparing something fictional to an icon that is already popularly established. Or at the least, don't do it so quickly. It will only lead to disappointment.
Imagination and memory are but one thing, which for diverse considerations have diverse names.
It is important to learn and remember, that we are an illogical species. We live in a world that is so beautiful, dangerous, and fragile; we trash our home at once, thinking it will just repair itself. Our spoiled expectations shaping an era of a whining, boneless society. We live in a time where people do nothing on their own but complain about the smallest insignificant trivial detail for someone else to fix for their own shallow satisfaction. Where mistakes, the most natural method to learn, are treated as sin and prodigies are sought after, expecting nothing short of perfection. We refuse to respect each other, listen to each other, unless the points of view align to a common purpose that yields to only self-gain and betrayal of the rest. Trust and patience have become forgotten virtues. When one greets the other, does he smile with his mouth only, but with his eyes as well? A man may preach his ideals, but does not walk the way he speaks. There are people who actually believe every word they are told and taught in the schools. You are not allowed to learn real history at school. You are only allowed to learn what the people in control want you to learn. Unless you actually take time to research and study what really happened, you'll never learn any real facts, or real truth. Mere visions of the modern age will not shape the future. Marriage is not based on ,,true love'', an immature and nonexistent concept, it is a glorified business contract. Yet our society rejects this truth, and continues to cling onto the fed dreams of such an absurd concept. When someone claims to fight for ,,diversity'' or ,,equal rights'', are they really? More often than not they are following a self-righteous opinion which they have cemented in their head as fact. Or they are just powered by a lust for attention and profit. Do you define yourself by the colour of your flesh and nothing else? Do you feel less alone when some random other shares the same faith as you? Do you honestly care if someone bears the same vocal tone as you, the same iris pattern, the same hair style, the same body mass build, wears the same garments or revels in the same popular culture franchise as you do? Are you judging another by their fashion and appearance or by their talent and quality of character? We are all the same bones, guts, greymatter and blood inside, regardless of where and how we are raised. We are all mentally conditioned to be attracted to certain habits and shun away those deemed undesirable. We are all selfish, guilty of manipulating someone else to reach the result wanted. ,,Divine forgiveness'' will not wash away this fact. We envision for ourselves a big dreamy future, so different from our own current lives, for the succeeding generations to work in. But then we say to ourselves, ,,why bother''? Everything is better kept the same, the world will fix itself. And ignore it all away, for another day to pass, and the process repeats.
We are a hypocrite society, holding double-standards and fallacy up high as the stars, brainwashed by money, fame, narcissism, and egos inflated beyond measure. Anyone who breaks apart from the expectations established by the status quo is labelled a monster and treated as such, for it is in the nature of people to suppress anything they collectively dislike. Moral puritanism is a relatively strong, brutal weapon that the masses, for some reason, love to wield against themselves. Our most primal instinct is sexual desire, yet we suppress and demonise it with extreme prejudice, with public shame and exposure guaranteed to follow. We insult, kill, and discriminate freely under the banners of religion, nationalism, biological difference, and expressive rights. Yet we enjoy cultural differences and refer to such as ,,exotic'' under the same banners. We denounce those who commit such acts, yet rally and cheer upon the lost heads of the executed. We say change is good, that it allows room for improvement, but nobody likes change. The more adhered people are to a set habit, schedule, or lifestyle, the more reluctant they become to alteration. To attempt the building of a practical utopia, is to follow an endless grand illusion. That who blindly follows the divine teachings of a deity, is devoted to be led a false vindication. The image of a man who lives a sheltered life praying to his holy book every day believing the world and all life is only 6000 years old is somehow more valued than a scientist who can fix any genetic mutation and dedicates his life's work to cure any disease. The one who fears God disrespects the one who plays God. We are an illogical species.
As human beings, we like to think we are far above animals. That because we are civilised and evolved, we are not capable of what animals do to each other. That we are inherently ,,good'' and raised under the guidance of higher powers. That any person who doesn't follow the same path or thought process as the rest is influenced by evil. We humans like to label such persons as ,,inhuman'' or ,,monsters'' because as a collective species, we don't like to believe we are capable of such actions. By saying that select individuals are not human, we are given a false sense of morality, causing us to think „Well, I'm obviously a human, so nothing I do could be monstrous“. If mankind is imagined in its blackest form, it would be a sadistic lunatic who craves violence, destruction and death, even when he's on the receiving end, with no reason behind it whatsoever. And as much as everyone wants to deny it, there are definitely folks like that who do exist in real life. „Some people just want to watch the world burn“. Instead of writing off these folks as ,,monsters'', we need to accept the fact that humanity as a whole is fully capable of deeds labelled as acts of great evil, and work around them. It's the only proper way our society can continue.
So what are the types of folk that we call monsters? We accuse and try to burn at the stake those whose ideologies we deem to be disgusting and unfitting to humanity. But despite all of this, every human being, no matter who they are, no matter what atrocities they commit, persists on calling themselves righteous, or just. Take a look at United States of America. Both sides of their government insist on being holy and divine, while their political enemies are the true demons. Who is right? You would choose whoever aligns with your own personal ideology. For thousands of years, this has been how humans act. Genocides, wars, rapes, executions, all in the name of ,,good''. If people like the Knights Templar are monsters, then the reality is that there are far more monsters dwelling on this earth than there are human beings. Sadly, the Knights Templar are no monsters. Neither are ,,monsters'' such as Vlad Tepes, Joseph Stalin, Adolf Hitler, Hideki Toujou, or Ivan Vasilyevich IV. They are instead terrifying reflections on humanity at their core. We call them monster, devil, demon, because we are afraid of facing the reality of what makes up humankind. We are scared to regress back to that of neanderthals. Without tools, clothes, or houses, we are no different from any other primitive creature. We still fight and kill each other; we still piss on, shit on, and fuck each other; the only difference we have from other animals is that we are spoken and literate. Regardless if we all looked the same, talked the same, and worshipped the same, we would still declare war against each other over who wears better clothes. Over who clad themselves in a better colour. We are doomed into guiding ourselves towards an inevitable self-destruction.
Common sense, as Voltaire quotes, is not so common at all. We are an illogical species.
There's basically two different viewpoints of nature. When these two collide, people who are from one perspective and lack understanding of the other, are confused.
In the first view, human beings and nature are distinct. We should avoid ,,interfering'' as much as possible. A logical consequence is that we should live in cities taking up as little space as possible, and we should farm our food in efficient designated areas, again with the notion of taking up as little space and resources possible - while leaving much of ,,nature'' alone as far away as possible.
In the second view, human beings are part of nature. We should strive to balance our impact so that we can live sustainable and harmonically as a part of our environment. A logical consequence here is that we should live more scattered, to reduce the ecological pressure in any one area. We should harvest our food and other resources from nature, but take great care that we never harvest more than is needed.
So many times have I wondered what this world would be like if it was as easy to talk to each other and get along as it is to hate and hold malice. If we could just sit down, drink some tea, and sort our problems out, maybe we could start to live as friends instead of enemies. Maybe we could've experienced more cases akin to the Christmas truce of 1914. But of course, that is an outlandish and naive view of reality. Patience and reasoning are hard things to come by. As times change, so do the circumstances, including the circumstances of how war is waged. The notion of honour and respect that legitimate militaries possessed when fighting other militaries ceased to exist when fists, swords, shields, bows, muskets, and cannons evolved into assault weapons, tanks, artillery, missiles, drones, jets, mines, chemicals, biological and nuclear weapons. To be hateful is so easy, it is practically lazy. To be kind is so difficult, it is practically cruel.
What am I at war against? What would make me become pissed to the point I stand and fight some stranger for some imaginary cause? This prevalent social stigma that insists that human beings somehow, for whatever reason, are just naturally born ,,good'' and ,,pure'' and incorruptible except by whatever is deemed touched or influenced by ,,devils'' which has since become virtually everything.... I despise that mentality more than anything else in this world. ,,Think of the children, protect the children, they must remain virtuous, chaste, and pure''- no, fuck that shit. That is the biggest lie ever told to Man. By that point I could care less if you believe that all known forms of life suddenly sprung up on a whim from some dragon's bones. I could care less if you believe that the world is flat or if identical gender couples are a crime against nature. I could care less if you indoctrinate your children into being told the universe is only 6000 years old, all the species of the world fit on one boat, and that millions of babies in non-Christian countries are all going to hell because they are never exposed to Christianity. There is no definite structure of what constitutes as ,,good'' versus ,,evil''; there never has been. Just one dominant belief set superimposed onto others. Of course, someone can grow up and learn to be a good-natured one, but he can never be born good-natured or ill-tempered; that mentality needs to develop over time, it cannot spontaneously occur. If you truly and honestly insist on lecturing to me that human beings are meant to be born ,,good, innocent, and pure'', then I strongly believe we will not be able to converse any further and we should cease all further contacts.
You want to search for ,,the meaning of life''? It is to die. The goal of all life is to eat, mate, and die. As it is with all other animals. No matter how civilised we are or become, we are still animals. It is the undeniable truth. Relationships, hobbies, entertainment, money, worship, labour are all superficial and negligible. Other animals could show a behaviour or need for one of these; how peculiar that human beings have evolved to must have such enrichment. The need to amass value for oneself. Most animals will also beat down their own kind over dominance, petty differences or territory, and we are without doubt, the same here. The Crusaders, Elisabeth Bathory, and Heinrich Himmler are not monsters. They are reminders of what human beings do to each other, all of the time. Natural selection still applies to us, as it does to all of nature. Want to convince yourself? Go out to the urban wilderness and look around. Fend for yourself. Discover on your own that your wallet is worth more value than your life. We are parasites, festering and leeching off each other, starving for self-worth. Nobody truly cares for you, or anyone else, but themselves.
There is but one truth. If you avert your eyes from it, you will always remain nothing more than a puppet.
But of course, all of these words mean nothing; illegitimate. They hold no weight, because they come from the rambling shackles in my head. The tongue and thoughts of a nobody who is mentally ill beyond repair and socially inept and depraved. The mouth, as they say, is the gate that lets out the soldiers of stupidity into this sad filthy world.
I've already experienced very much in this short life. Yes, I knew from since my childhood times that I am a very horrible person. I'm aware I am immoral and violent. I'm aware I got no financial or collaborative worth or future. My short-term memory is unreliable. My escapist fantasies are easily seen as misogynistic and misanthropy. I know I hold no success as a mate. I know very well that I am an undesirable. That if I ever exposed my true, honest expressions and personality into the public masses outside of my small house, I would be captured and locked away, forbidden to ever experience the world any further. I would be labelled a dangerous war criminal and be accused of heinous actions I never committed to sate the public's sheer paranoia. But I've long accepted who I am, and recognise my great need to vent my frustrations and evolve mental routes of escapism to run away, again and again, from the problems of the harsh cruel world. Human beings are scared, scared and overtly sensitive to a stupid level. They are distracted birds who don't like anything that obstructs their way of thought nor anyone who dares think differently from them, blinding themselves from the fact that these such differences are what defines an individual from a plastic doll. I am a person who is aware of his faults and bias in life, enjoying simple solitude and experimentation of ideas. The neighbourhood that I live in, the state overseers, and federal bureaucrats of the nation I am a subject to have no need to know who I am; no gain from my public involvement; no progress in confiscating and blocking my life's work; no satisfaction in spying and auditing my presence. I refuse to be catalogued. I refuse to help or abide to the government that breathes down my neck for not being a loyal slave. Why should I blindly service that which hates me? I will not lay claim a name for myself. I am but a simple, bluntly honest young man who may not carry a clear thinking mind, but bears a conscious on what his interests and values are. I am not put in this world to waste time arguing. I could be a critic who claims to be impartial and love everything equally, which is an outrageous fallacy. Or I could be someone who admits his faults and biases openly, whilst quietly damning this world to myself for disguising its lies. There are plenty of very vocal groups of ideologues online who see any criticism of any piece of media as a personal attack against them, and will resort to vicious tactics to have that critic silenced. So please, if you are going to rat me out for the satisfaction of your own petty sense of justice, at least save for me this little spot so I can retreat back into my mind and paint my own peace and desires.
This modern age, while undoubtedly better suited to live in than the past, still remains a troublesome and unforgiving age.
„Ever since Cain and Abel in ancient times, hostility and conflict between us have never ceased, and man has yet to understand his fellow man. Such a deplorable state of affairs. Even if all things, space included, are of God's creation, and subject to His laws, is it so wrong that it was we space immigrants who found a hope that is so many times more powerful than the sense of freedom that people once sought when they made the crossing to the New World? That this hope for a new humanity would be used to justify such disgusting hatred and terrible devastation is something we never predicted.“
- Degwin Sodo Zabi
„Auch ohne die Ereignisse vor 40 Jahren denke ich, dass der Mensch immer noch eine Kreatur sein würde, die Dunkelheit fürchtet. Er steht dieser Angst nicht gegenüber, er wendet seine Augen davon ab und tut so, als hätte er keine Erinnerung an seine Geschichte. Aber 40 Jahre können sowohl eine kurze als auch eine lange Zeit sein. Die Angst des Menschen ist verwelkt … und der Lauf der Zeit versucht, den Wunsch zu schwächen, die Wahrheit zu erfahren. Ist es ein Verbrechen, zu versuchen, die Wahrheit zu erfahren? Ist es eine Sünde, nach dem zu suchen, was man fürchtet? Mein Ziel in dieser Welt ist das Wissen und die Verbreitung davon, und ich bin es, der die Früchte meiner Arbeit in der ganzen Welt wiederherstellen soll!“
„Angst. Es ist etwas Wesentliches für uns mickrige Kreaturen. Der Augenblick, in dem der Mensch aufhört zu fürchten, ist der Augenblick, in dem die Spezies eine Sackgasse erreichen wird, um dann zu bedauernswerten Tiefen zu sinken, nur um dort zu sitzen und apathisch auf das Aussterben zu warten! AUFWACHEN! Habe keine Angst vor Wissen! Menschen, die Fähigkeit zu denken verlieren, werden Geschöpfe, deren Existenz keinen Wert hat. Denke, du Menschen, die in zwei Welten gespalten sind! Wenn Sie nicht wollen, dass die Kluft zwischen den Menschen in Vergessenheit gerät, MÜSSEN SIE DENKEN!“
- Schwarzwald
„Diversity and Unity - It is now accepted among historical scholars that in the decades before the Collapse, America suffered from the sicknesses of racism and "cultural identity". Everyone wanted to be seen as special. Every group had to be "equal" to or preferably better than its neighbours, and fought to protect its "special" rights. If anyone had something that someone else wanted, they were painted as racist, sexist, elitist or worse. This divisive "me first" attitude eventually tore the fabric of American culture apart and caused it to self-destruct in a fireball of competing ideologies, none of which truly recognised each other's validity. Diversity led inexorably to anarchy.“
- Neo Tribes, Cyberpunk 2020, 1988/1994
„Why should I paint dead fish, onions and beer glasses? Girls are so much prettier.“
- Marie Laurencin
„That's what I love about these high school girls, man. I get older, they stay the same age.“
- Dazed and Confused
I miss the old formats of everything so dearly. ,,Out with the old, in with the new'' can be such a terrible piece of mindset. Notice the irony?
Do whatever you wish around here. I do not care. I will not come here often, so expect nothing from me.
Maybe a box, if a box, it is my box of odds, but only maybe it is a box of odds. If it truly is a box of odds, not maybe, it is a box of odds, but only maybe
Current Residence: Düsseldorf
Favourite genre of music: Anything that isn't rap noise (and I do discern a difference between rap and hip-hop)
Favourite style of art: Surreal and gore; I don't mind sex either
Operating System: Windows XP Pro
Favourite cartoon character: Violence Jack, Blair, Lain Iwakura, Saya no Uta, Hans Günsche
Personal Quote: 1) „Zwischen Taktik und Strategie, es gibt einen Unterschied. Kennst du diesen Unterschied?“ 2) „If he can't be cool in his own way, he'd rather be dead.“ - Kurt Cobain 3) „Was würden die Leute nur ohne Euch tun? Tanzen? Singen? Lächeln? Alt werden?“ - Sheogorath 4) „How do you know that you're the one? You don't know. It's a shot in the dark. You take it, or you become a normal civilised person from 8 to 5. Get married, have children, Christmas together... here comes Grandma... Hi Grandma! Come on in... Hi you... Shit, I couldn't take that! I'd rather murder myself... I just decided I either had to starve, make it, go mad, come through, or do something. I could not do the 8-to-5. I would have been a suicide, something. I'm sorry. I could not accept the snail's pace, 8-to-5, Johnny Carson, Happy Birthday, Christmas, New Year... to me this is the sickest of all sick things...“ - Henry Charles Bukowski
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Wow just wow. Of all the accounts i've seen with the Random Deviant button this is probably one of the most edgiest, angst-filled self-loathing and deprecating someone could ever come across. I don't care if you battling suicide, trying to shock or seem cool or just some sick fuck but you really need some help dude. No ones gonna like you or respect you if you insist on seeing the world in such a bleak state. I took a peak at your gallery and you obviously have talent but its being wasted away by your dementia. I pray you'll rethink your words and your outlook on life improves in the future.
P.S. Nazis are bad bro.
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Greetings, dear stranger. You've no idea of who I am, nor do I know who you are. What gives you the gall to waste your precious time, insulting my taste in artwork and life philosophy? Do you speak in the place of your imposed self-righteousness or are you just another lemming who continues to believe in spoon-fed fairy tales when you confront me as a person? If the latter, I wish no more words from you. If the former, I will tell you this. I may be twisted in the eyes of many, but I am content with who I am. I see past the covers of our human society for what it truly is, a world of ego and hypocrites. You've no obligation to agree with my ways, but neither are you obligated to openly insult me. I do not wish for quarrel. I will live and view the world as I see fitting. Prayer, like a groundless threat, is for the blind and spineless. Your attempt to compliment is non sequitur.
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