PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2018-01-29 03:46:07 +0000 UTC]

miss you even more. it’s been so freaking long.

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2018-01-29 03:49:45 +0000 UTC]

omfg. Today had been like, my first good day in like, a long while. I didn't think it got better! But like, this has just made today even better oh my god.
I'm freakin about to cry

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2018-01-29 20:53:46 +0000 UTC]

that’s good! sorry I haven’t been here for awhile. it’s been really crazy. schools overwhelming and volleyball takes up most of my time. I thought of you and decided to check in to make sure you’re still okay

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2018-01-29 20:59:20 +0000 UTC]

Its fine. Life has been overwhelming for me as well. Speech, work, theatre and everything. Ive struggled mentally but otherwise ive been alright.
Honestly, i always have this fear that we wont ever talk again and it makes me sad each time i think on it >~<

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2018-01-29 22:32:51 +0000 UTC]

me too, that’s why I came back to make sure you’re still here. besides the stress and stuff I’m doing pretty good; school is good, I’ve got a boyfriend and sports are doing stuff it’s nice to catch up though

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2018-01-29 22:54:53 +0000 UTC]

OOOOOoOoooOo thats my girl, catching herself a mans. =w= im so proud. He better take care of you or im gonna have to throw some hands.

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2018-01-30 00:08:36 +0000 UTC]

baha, he’s doing a great job 😂 he’s a freaking genius though, makes me feel so bad about my shitty grades and rips on me cause I still don’t have my license, but whateveeer. how have you been? still making art and stuffs?

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2018-01-30 00:27:34 +0000 UTC]

Smart people do that lol. And that is so relatable honestly. Most of my friend make me feel like a fool. Ive been, emotionally and mentally exhausted. My fathers verbal remarks seem to only get worse. Were good right now, but i cant get too comfortable. I keep myself busy so im not stuck at home. I still draw. Mostly for myself, my characters and stuff. I draw Xia and Mordecai and the whole gang. It makes me feel better. After these next commissions im probably just gonna draw for me, my characters and friends. My stress level cant handle much more of it on DA anymore.

I have started a self healing project, starting wearing brighter colors and am all about happiness. Because i feel like itll make me less sad. Ive gotten better.

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2018-01-30 00:40:42 +0000 UTC]

that’s awesome!! i was smiling so much looking through your art that my cheeks hurt. I find that wearing brighter colours really do help your mental state and whatnot, I used to only wear black and grey and one day when I started to wear white and yellows and blues I felt so much lighter. Now I only wear whites and yellows. I’ve also started smiling more, and writing more, I find it really relaxing.

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2018-01-30 00:45:30 +0000 UTC]

Dawwww ♡ thanks. Ive improved a tad.

And thats what I figured! It really works. Ive only been wearing colored clothes with white, yellows and blues and pink. The sharp color i really wear is red.
I also used to only wear black. I feel better. I still some black, but only have like one solid black piece of clothing. Otherwise if its black is probably has flowers or somethin.
Im so glad to hear you're still writing. You've always been so great at it. I always loved our rps the most because you were so good at writing and honestly I think you made me better at it. You might be the only reason Im in AP english LMAO.

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2018-01-30 00:52:10 +0000 UTC]

oh god I miss our rps so much. I was reading xia’s biography and when you wrote something about dominik I like died they were so friggin cute.

and I’m not in advanced English, I’ve always wanted to do something in science so I’m saving my stress for that 😂 but I’m happy to hear that I had an impact!

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2018-01-30 01:25:56 +0000 UTC]

I do too man. QAQ I draw them and Beat and Ted so often oml.

lol well you were still good at it! and one of my friends wants to be a botonist! :'D
Which I think is neato. I like science but I'm pretty bad at it.

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2018-01-30 23:25:49 +0000 UTC]

😭😭 bed and dia?
love them sm.

I don’t think I could ever be a botanist, I freaking hate bio. I’m so pissed rn tho my boyfriend legit just bailed on our plans to hang out tonight and instead we’re just going to a movie. like I wanted him to come over and stuff because I hate going to theatres but he’s like ‘nah I’m busy I have to just meet u at the mall.’ yeah well fuck u matthew

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2018-01-31 02:28:07 +0000 UTC]

Me too they bring me so much joy.

See. I am good at bio but i suck ass at chemistry!

God dammit Matthew. I said id fight him. I meant it. Book me a ticket to where you are asap.
If it helps, my ex started dating someone new before we really broke up.

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2018-01-31 04:53:13 +0000 UTC]

HAHAHAH THAT HAPPENED TO ME TOO!
I wouldn’t get him a blow job so he called me a slut and a whore and told everyone I was trying to get in his pants so I broke up with him and then he got with another girl legit a week later and did the same to her.

like guys wyd

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2018-01-31 12:54:07 +0000 UTC]

LMAO OMG Okay well mine wasnt like that damn but yeah the same concept Like serious tho wtf?

What an Asshole

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2018-02-01 01:12:25 +0000 UTC]

No kidding, I’m so glad I dumped his ass. Life is kinda confusing right now tho cause I’m like. I like a guy, then I stop liking them and I don’t know why, it’s so frustrating and I don’t know what to do

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2018-02-01 02:32:09 +0000 UTC]

Ugh i was in that sams spot and it was so hard. This year ive like, sorta started to like three different guys. And one of them is part of a family that does like arranged marriages so i gave up but were so close and he also bought me socks that say i love you on them for my birthday and i almost cried i was confused.

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2018-02-03 21:49:36 +0000 UTC]

I know that feeling too real lmao,, my boyfriends is constantly like ‘are we okay?’ And shit like that cause I’m not a super affectionate person. like just gotta understand I don’t wanna makeout and fuck all the time like fr

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2018-02-03 22:33:24 +0000 UTC]

MY EX WAS LIKE THAT TOO. He was super cuddly like even in public and its not like i was super against it but like, im not romantically affectionate either. It just gave me anxiety, and we would hang with our friends and he treated it like a date and im like "i go there for my friends, not you."

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PandaSeed In reply to NechoNikki [2016-08-28 05:14:35 +0000 UTC]

but maddie already stole my hearrrrrrt

grr, fine, lets talk bby boo. tell me what's new.

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NechoNikki In reply to PandaSeed [2016-08-28 14:34:47 +0000 UTC]

I got to change my name, I'm re-writing a story

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PandaSeed In reply to NechoNikki [2016-08-29 04:36:45 +0000 UTC]

lmao I wanna change my name
I've been living with 'panda sperm' for like 3 years.

ooooh that's cool. What's it about?

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NechoNikki In reply to PandaSeed [2016-08-29 04:39:38 +0000 UTC]

omfg XD and it's actually an RP that me and Cloud-Squad did many years ago which was the best we've ever done, so I decided to write it down, and it became that. The story is old and I thought that re-writing it would be a good idea. I asked for feed back, I got people saying DO IT
but the story is about a human(well I made her part human) and a demon falling in love while fighting evil that they get dragged into

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2016-08-28 02:46:35 +0000 UTC]

He's got purple eyes my dude. Like a Wisteria/Lilac/Lavender hue.

he's a pretty flower.

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2016-08-28 02:51:19 +0000 UTC]

Got it =w=

Thaaank you b~ ♥
*huggles*

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PandaSeed In reply to NechoNikki [2016-07-26 04:59:10 +0000 UTC]

I'm back now

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NechoNikki In reply to PandaSeed [2016-07-26 05:04:05 +0000 UTC]

yeah, I saw that you've been going through shit

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PandaSeed In reply to NechoNikki [2016-07-26 05:22:12 +0000 UTC]

yeeeee dog
but that shit
helped me slip n slide right out of my boots
and now I'm just hanging. I've been working on my anxiety and stuff lately, so I'm a lot better. Now I just procrastinate like crazy.

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NechoNikki In reply to PandaSeed [2016-07-26 06:20:49 +0000 UTC]

I go through that every day. I just draw everything away. I've been getting better apparently

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2016-01-03 05:38:25 +0000 UTC]

Hey. It's been a really long time, hasn't it? I really miss you. I miss talking to you. Recently I've been suffering from depression and anxiety, and I can't shake these thoughts away and it scares me what I'll do next. I'm worried about my future, and if I'll survive it in that big world. I'm only a girl, and it's already 2016—HAPPY NEW YEARS BY THE WAY—and merry Christmas, and happy birthday that I missed. I really missed you over this break, and I want to come back and continue our conversations and such. I need someone to talk to right now, and I've just opened up my dusty ol' account for the first time in forever.

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2016-01-03 21:42:23 +0000 UTC]

AAAAH BAB. ;A; I've missed you too and it's perfectly fine! Don't feel bad! And take your time okay? I understand your struggles, I used to have depression, but nowadays thanks to my treatment it only occurs when I'm under pressure. I still have social anxiety myself though ahhaa.

I know that the future can be scary, especially when dealing with what you have. Just know I'll always be there for you! I'm more than prepared to be your shoulder to cry on and just so you know, you're one of my best friends. There's nothing you could ever do that would make me resent you in anyway. EVER. Because I love you bud~ ♥

And! I missed you more. ~ ♥

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2016-01-03 22:05:11 +0000 UTC]

hnnnG
I wish I could have come sooner. I've taken up enough time dwelling on crap that doesn't matter, so I think it's time I start replying to people irl and on here. I think I remember you saying something about your depression a while ago, but my anxiety is getting better because I've been seeing a psychiatrist.

Thanks for that, and you're one of my best friends as well! I was looking forever for someone to come to and then I remembered how long I've known you for, and how much I trust you.
Love you bunches, you stinker ;o)

nah, I missed you more. I'm drawing Ted right nowwww. Gash this helps me so much, I'm so relaxed when I draw. He's lookin pretty neglected
You know
Without his beatie

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2016-01-03 22:23:50 +0000 UTC]

hnnnnnnnG
I've known that feel boo. I totally get you. And that's good! Talking really does help alot. Though, it has to someone you feel comfortable with. And yeah. I did but it was a real long time ago. It's still there but it's not as bad as it once was.

You're welcome boo and yaaaaaaaaaaay! 8'D I'm honored you feel that way and I've got your back bud. And I love you too my precious panda-poo uwu~

hnnnnnnnnnnnnnGGGGG debateble ewe. And yeah, drawing helps me out a lot as well.
And poor ted. He'll be loved soon enough.
Beat just has to recover from being stabbed in the heart.
Both literally and metaphorically.
The metaphorically half was her own fault.
The literally part was just Soren being a DICK.
But she misses her Teddy bear so much uwu She's too unconscious to express it.

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2016-01-03 22:43:35 +0000 UTC]

hNNNNGGGG
Ah, I'm glad you overcame your depression! I hope I can do so soon as well. I decided to go get some help about two weeks ago when I started getting suicidal thoughts x.x but I don't dwell on it too much anymore.

strikes charlie angel pose
and I got
your
back ;w;

shoot.
I accidentally made Ted pretty boy af
gah
He's like oikawa purty
Beat can you handle the pretty Ted

Right! She was stabbed xD to the tree and Daiki was like wtf is this
Or was it dominik
Crap.
I may rename Alfie Malakai or Fitz
Because cute names are cute.
But Ted is staying Teddy
teddy bear scrumptious

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2016-01-03 22:56:41 +0000 UTC]

hNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNG
'Overcame' is a pretty powerful word hahaha. It's more like I can bear with it wayyy more. And aww. ;A; I'm glad your doing better. Dude if you died I would cry so many freaking tears.

poses with
back to back with my bae =w=

hNNNNG PRETTY TED MAKES ME HAPPY
Beat: Hah? Can I handle the pretty? DUDE. I AM THE PRETTY! Fight me ted e3e

and YUP. Now she's technically dead and kinda floating in Mordecai's subconcious. XD Hoping to be given a second life. And Daiki was the one who saw it because Dominik is also dying and is probably gonna end up in the spirit realm that is mordecai's realm with Beat lol.

HELLA AWKWARD.

I was just looking at names today and I saw Malakai and I loved it XD
So I'm okay with dat.
=w= Ted is too perf to be cahnged.

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2016-01-03 23:10:03 +0000 UTC]

HAGGGGNNNNNNGGGGG
Yeah, I guess c;
I didn't think ever about going through with them, but more felt like
What if I wasn't here, should I even be here, would anyone actually care.
I've always wanted to die before I move out of my parent's home, 'cuz I'm scared of being alone.

Bang bang into the rooooof

DOOD HE IS SO PRETTY HES ALMOST TOO PRETTY CRAP
Ted: Faces are off-limits we wouldn't want to destroy our pretty, but yeah, we can throw down if you'd like.

oMG THEY WILL BE SO AWKWrd

Squished beside each other in like dead world,
Dominik: so...uh...
how..how are you? As dead people are just crawling all other the duckin place.
Dominik is actually scared of spider
//how on earth does he expect to become death if he can't even kill a spider

I knoooowwww Malakai is too cute. Dominik might stay the same, I'll seeee.

Daiki will change as well
Probably to Matthias or somethin

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2016-01-04 03:44:29 +0000 UTC]

HAAAAAAAAAAAAGNNNNNNNG
lol :3
ID CARE DAMMIT ASH. ;A; ID CARE SO MUCH.
Bab ;~; *hugs*

ROOOOOOOOOOF

THE PRETTY BE BLINDING
Beat: You wouldn't hurt even if I begged you too. =3=

SO AWKWARD

Beat: Good. =______= Have you been making passes at my friend Xia? Cuz if so I'm murdering your ass.
Ah fuck.
Were already dead.
Shiet. Guess we just gotta wait until Sayaka judges us.

//Mordecai will teach him the ways. Or he can hire Xia as a familiar and she can kill le spiders.

Malakai is adorbs. And nuuuu don't change dommmmmy ;w; I love him so much.

That's chill. =w= Daiki is still cuet tho

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2016-01-04 04:13:13 +0000 UTC]

HHAHAHHAHAHAHAAGGGGGGNNNNNGGG
we are making constipated noises because why not

I KNOOOO IM SORRRYYY BABS
I can't stop ma brain from thinking the stuff it doess *hugs*

woof

Ted: Yeah, that's true, I don't fights pretty princesses like you. c;

dOMINIK IS SO BAD WITH STARTING CONVERSATION AND PROBABLY JUST STARE INTO SPACE FOR LIKE ETERNITY

Dominik: Passed at Xia? I'm not sure if you'd consider what I've done a 'pass'.
When about does this judging take place? I've got places to be...

//oHIHO
They will have a lesson entirely on stomping spiders.
Dominik cringes.
Xia is the man in the house

Okkkayyy I'll keep Dommy boy tha same
Daiki is my perverted wil wolf boy
He gotta have a unique name too.

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2016-01-04 22:17:49 +0000 UTC]

AHHHAHHHAHAHNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

ITS OKAY BUT BAB DONT DIE ;A; *hugggggs*

meow.

Beat: Dam right you cant =w= VICTORY ONCE AGAIN! *sneer*'

BEAT WILL PROBS JUST YELL AT HIM AND FEEL REALLY ANNOYED AND IGNORED

Beat: ..... But you admit you did something? e_e You sly mother f*cker.
And that's for Sayaka to decide. Not you. And this realm has no sense of time. So this may feel like forever right now, but in reality, it'll probably only be like 5 minutes. *shrug*

//OHOHOHOHOHOH
Yes. They must.
Xia is always the man. =w=

yaaaaaay! I love Dommy/
And Daiki is precious. *w*

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2016-01-04 23:20:54 +0000 UTC]

AHHHHHHHNNNNNNNNGGGGGG

I WONT BAB ;n;

Wooof

Ted: Whatever, whatever, I'll accept this loss like the man I am.

Dominik doesn't like to be yelled at ;A; he'll shy away screaming internally

Dommy: I haven't done anything! Nothing sexual, I'd never—You, on the other hand, should be worried about that tall guy with the brown hair, he watches you closely. What is Sayaka doing that takes so long? Do all dead people come here?

//OYAOYAOYAOYA
Dominik is weeeakkkk
Mentally, anyhow.

DOMMY BOYYYYY
Daiki is a perverted lil boy but I kinda ship him with Liecht

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MadDuckie76105 In reply to PandaSeed [2016-01-04 23:52:58 +0000 UTC]

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHNG

YOU BETTER NOT ;m:

meooow

Beat: Good boy -w-

pssssh XD Beat can fix that =u=

Beat: You of all people, should NOT start telling me about hiM! I'm NOT in the mood got it? And Sayaka is the keeper of all Mordecai's memories. Anything Mordecai knows, she knows. And that is a SHIET ton of stuff. and no. Only specific ones chosen by Mordecai can. You can learm EVERYTHING here. You can ask to see Mordecai's past with anyone. With Xia, Me, Cole, Sayaka. You can also ask about people's pasts who have ben linked with Mordecai. So you could ask about my life, liecht's, or even xia's.

//NYOOHOOOHOO
Xia is strong and she can comfort him :3

DOMMY BISHIE KUNNNNN
lol. I like it and I do too. Complicated romance that is XD

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PandaSeed In reply to MadDuckie76105 [2016-01-05 05:54:59 +0000 UTC]

AAHAHHAHHHHAAAAANNNNNNNNNNG

HNG
I wooooont ;-;

roof woof

Ted: Does a good boy get a reward? *eyebrows wiggle*

Dominik noooooo

Dom: Hah? Did you two have a fight? Whatever, it's none of my business.
I don't need to know about anyone's life except for... *clears throat*
I need some weak points,
if I'll ever be able to overthrow him.

//NYUHUHUHUHU
Dominik screeches man
Screeches like the banshee he is
Prepare yoself Xia

DOMMY IS PRETTY AF
Daiki will forever be stubborn about it tho

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